I Hate How Much I Love Getting Cucked. I Hate How Much I Love The Humiliation. And I Hate How Much I

i hate how much i love getting cucked. i hate how much i love the humiliation. and i hate how much i desperately crave it now.

the man im talking to (ill call him, ax) has put me in a state of submission since we started talking. i’ve never felt so inclined to listen and obey, to want to impress over and over.

he’s started getting into the cuck thing. the other night while i was giving him head, he was scrolling through this woman’s instagram. she’s very beautiful in the face and body.

every so often he would pull me up by my hair and make me look at her photos too. pictures of her in slutty outfits. dancing at clubs and shaking her ass. he would make me say out loud how hot she is. it was fucked up. it was fucking awesome.

i’d feel so much embarrassment in my face and pussy. i’d feel myself get wetter and wetter every time he made me look at her again. and every time he’d push me back down on his dick, and i would try even harder to make him cum.

i can’t even say her name out loud, i feel too much shame. i think about her knowing, that this man she used to talk to has this little girl friend that gets off to her. it makes me wet thinking about her laughing at me about it.

i don’t know how he actually feels about her, i don’t know if he actually likes her or if he does this because he knows it gets me off. i don’t know which one i want it to be.

i’m a nutter!