girls will be like “yeah i hate life and im miserable” and have rooms like this
im girls.
when I was around twelve I used to sit at the family computer and send hatemail to a white french dude named Jacques who was a self proclaimed communist on Tumblr. This was back in the day when you didn't need a blog to send anon hate. I had no real beef with him but I just didn't like his tone. used to send him "SHUT UP Jacques" periodically. and he'd answer every single one of my asks like "who is this?? show your face or I'll fucking kill you" and I'd be like "now now, that doesn't make sense, jacques" all haughty and he'd get so fucking mad at me. One time he posted a selfie and I sent him an ask claiming I was a psychologist and that his hair parting suggested that he wasn't a communist at all. and he took it deliriously serious and went off on a 2,000 word rant. I can remember going to stay at my grandparents over that weekend, so I didn't even respond to the rant until I came back. I could've chosen to end it there, but when I returned, I sent him another ask which was like "psychologist here again: if you were a communist your hair parting would be in the middle. evenly distributed. All behavioural signs point to someone who doesn't take their own values seriously." and he went ballistic. really swearing at me. all caps type beat. he never turned the asks off, btw. which always made me wonder if he didn't know how to, or if he didn't want to cause he was convinced he was fighting a war, and this action would ensure he lost it. anyway this went on for weeks until one day I completely forgot about him like he was some kind of childhood imaginary friend I'd conjured up in my loneliness. but yesterday I happened to recall the whole scenario, because my buddy was like "remember when you were twelve and I came over to your house, and you showed me on the computer how you'd been terrorizing this random French guy for days on end. And you were laughing like fucking crazy. and I said it wasn't funny because he probably had problems, and you were like 'oh.' and you looked a bit guilty for a second, but then you went and got a grapefruit from the kitchen and threw it out of the second story window at my kid brother, who was playing in the street, and then you started laughing again?" Well. when she put it like that, needless to say I felt bad. so Jacques if you're out there I'm sorry I was such a little shit. you had totally normal hair, and you only wanted people to share stuff. If it's any consolation I know every day of my life that I'm probably going to hell for the sick things I have done
the pillars holding up society:
people who film bootlegs of stage shows
people who write transcripts/captions for media that was released without them
wikipedia editors
people who translate funny tiktoks
This channel honestly has some really deep hitting dialogue at times
NEVER
i was born with the compulsive need to do my own thang
nowhere else on the internet can you get content like this
Actually speaking of solitaire I am prohibited from playing solitaire rn cuz I unironically had an addiction like I would play solitaire all day and night I would not sleep cuz I wanted to play solitaire instead it was BAD I was missing school and shit just to play solitaire……whenever i was doing something and couldn’t use my phone or card deck I would play solitaire in my head
I remember waking up one morning and the first thing I did was take my phone and start playing solitaire I played like 5 rounds i realized that the phone didn’t look like my phone and it disappeared and I realized that I just spent like 30 minutes at least hallucinating that I’m playing solitaire
Recovering from SH, I will eventually be going through my page and deleting all things triggering, so still is tw:sh.
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