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SEMANTICS AND SHIFTING

Lately, I've been seeing a couple posts of people redefining and reworking their understanding of common shifting terms like cr, dr, etc. It interests me on how the language of shifting has begun to "shift" (no pun intended 😭) as the collective understanding of the practice does as well.

Back during the time of peak shifttok, many of these words were used in its most literal sense: it was called CR because it was the reality you reside in; you called it a DR because it's the reality you desired to "go" to. Most people's understanding of shifting were similarly literal (like how you had to have a script or do xyz in order to shift), so the fact that the words we used to describe it were "shallow" reflected that.

However, we've long passed such beliefs, so I find it interesting how our language is adapting to that evolution. For instance, this post by my moot @jealousmartini and subsequent reblogs are noteworthy because of the nuance and exploration we could have. What's stopping us from calling a "dr" our "cr"? Who told us that these words have a degree of separation? Why do we call it a "shift"?

As I see it, these terms are like training wheels. Something to help us usher in understanding and confidence when it comes to riding our metaphorical bikes. Of course, accidents happen. Maybe you fell off the bike because the training wheels were ill fitted; scraped your knee and had to sit out for a while. Maybe you got another set of training wheels, hoping that it may the one that will make you ride a bike. Maybe you've realised that you no longer need them at all. In any case, it's natural to outgrow the need for such terms, and look for others instead.

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THIS. because honestly, my mindset has already been altered to believe that it is real and people that disagree with me have a right to but they can just as well argue with the wall because i don't have the patience

I genuinely don’t give a fuck whether shifting is real or not.

“what if it is fake and everything you’ve done is for nothing?”

“What if it actually is lucid dreaming?”

oh shit, what if? It’s real to me, so I don’t care. at least I’m out of whatever rathole I came from. this shit genuinely gave me a desire to live in a moment where I had none, and I wouldn’t stop myself from getting rid of myself. but that didn’t happen! and for that, I’m grateful because I experienced a lot of cool shit and met so many cool people. I grew to be someone I can tolerate, and I’ll continue to do so until i kick the bucket.

I’m glad my mind became more quiet when I stopped asking people if shifting is real and decided what it meant to me. Shifting became something I’m not ashamed of, just something that’s intimate. Not a secret but a hobby that is personally mine, something no one can ever take away from me. even if it wasn’t real, you can’t crush my dreams because they aren’t yours! And I think that’s beautiful.

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whatever it is you're terrified of—it won't matter. not once you shift. that's the truth you keep moving around, brushing it aside like a loose strand of hair, not because it isn't real, but because it terrifies you, and yet, none of it will matter.

wait, let me elaborate.

when i say "none of it will matter", i don't mean that it in the nihilist way. this isn't despair. it's not that life doesn't matter. it's that this version of life, the one cobbled together from fear and silence and years of surviving instead of wanting, that version is dying.

and you know what i mean. the inexplicable weight in your chest. the restlessness in your ribs. the longing curled like a fist in your chest. the jealousy, the fatigue—all of it. but all of these are not you. not the real you. they're residue from the roles you played. they're reactions, not an identity.

what comes next isn't erasure. it's not emptiness. it's just not this. not the life you spent whispering instead of talking. not the shame that settled in you so early it learned your name before you did.

this isn't surrender. this isn't apathy. it's the beginning of something new. this is clarity, not collapse.

name your fears. all of them. the ones that have you on a leash. the ones that sleep in your bed. the ones that wear your thoughts like perfume. being too much. being nothing. not being missed. being replaced. being ordinary. being unloved. losing your grip. losing yourself. name. them. all.

you can dig for new ones. you can recite them like those poem verses you were forced to memorize. you can line them up. you can dress them in your worst nights. you can let them sit at the front row of your mind. it changes nothing.

because once you breathe a different air, and once that air becomes one with your blood—your fears will be snatched from the root. the shame will melt like ice in the palm of fever. the overthinking will carry its bags out. and that version of you, the one you have the most contradicting feelings about: they may not vanish completely, but they'll step aside. you'll carry them. but they'll no longer steer.

the threshold unhooks from your bones, and you're free. none of it will matter. not the way it used to. not anymore.

"Shifting isn’t something you have to ‘catch’ happening - it’s something you allow to unfold." -@gothcowgrrl

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i know it's a lot to read, but this may help you shift

(not my content, credits to Quackisp on reddit)

I have the exact same problem now :/ I'm also a logical person and had the exact same way rationalising shifting. This post really resonated with what I do and how I think. I personally gaslight myself into thinking a specific method WILL give me results because of my own articulated logic behind it and I actually shifted for the first time with it. It was the sinking method and I believed that it would be best for me to use it to shift because it requires you to have a transition into your dr. If that makes sense?

I can't visualise at all and I can't pretend to feel any of the senses which really deterred me in my journey cuz I thought that not being able to do those would hold me back and I wouldn't have as many opportunities with shifting as the people who could carry these actions out. And after thinking and mulling it over alot I found that I formed a sort of reasoning behind my problem that these methods which I cant do because of my hindrances have some type of transition into the other reality. Like the double sided staircase method. If I did a non-visualization or sleep method it would mean counting and affirming then laying in wait to shift or fall asleep which I subconsciously thought I wouldn't by that time cuz I overthink alot.

Also void state wouldn't work cuz I couldn't no matter how hard I tried get into it and I couldn't lucid dream after years of trying so that means not being able to do the lucid dream method. And the adhd method had so many steps that I would focus on remembering the STEPS and which comes after which instead of where I'm going. All other methods like the Julia and raven are ruled out as well cuz again I'd just have to affirm and wait while my mind wandered.

But the sinking method seemed immensely easier and made more sense in my mind. Though now looking back on it, it could've easily been a method that requires heavy visualising and pretending to feel stuff but because the creator of the method specified that it wasn't a visualising method I tried it wholeheartedly.

The steps are:

Affirm that your dr self/dr body is directly beneath your bed. Until you believe it.

Then count from 1 to 100 or what ever number of your choice and between each number breathe in and out. While breathing out feel yourself sink into your mattress.

You could also say affirmations like "I'm sinking into my dr self." And actually try to feel yourself sink into it and do this until you feel like you've fully sunk down to your dr self.

Fall asleep upon feeling so or open your eyes if you feel like you're in your dr.

So my way of thinking was that I could make a transition into dr easily like this and that's why this method worked for me.

TLDR: gaslight yourself with facts and logic that a certain method might work for you because of "____ reason" and it will.

Also writing this reply made me realise that if I use my own tip and gaslight myself into thinking that a specific thing works for me then it will because that's essentially what I did the first time I shifted.

“sHiFtiNg iS not rEaL”

Creative way to say you’re either uneducated or never succeeded

what was it if it wasn't shifting or lucid dreaming?

there are going to be hardships in my desired reality. hardships i may not face here–i don't know what this was, but i was being forced to cut my hair because we were going to war or something, and there was this woman. i asked her why she didn't have to cut her hair and she shrugged. it was weird, like she knew something i didn't.

it was also weird because i had a ton of knowledge the woman around me didn't, i was one of the young ones, but even the older ones were getting on me about what i was saying.

the younger ones said, "we're not suppose to talk about stuff like that." and i replied very sarcastically, "what? about sex? and the female body?" it was so preposterous to me, but i didn't know i was "dreaming", i don't remember touching anyone (i think, maybe the woman i'm not sure) so i don't think it was shifting either.

it was this weird in-between.

i knew all these things i shouldn't, but it didn't occur to me why that was or that it was odd for me to be more educated than the woman around me when we so clearly had the same education.

it was also first-person pov–but i don't remember touching anyone, but i do remember some woman grabbing me because i was waving a rolled-up newspaper, threatening to hit one of the generals.

can someone explain to me what in the hell i experienced?

oh SAY IT LOUDER

you are not trapped. everything does work in your favor. it is working. like can you breathe and stop clenching your asshole for one second?? (love u <3)

there is so much of this world i don't know of, i want to explore every reality i can before my time is up, i want to know what it feels like to be myself all across time