Li Shen ﹢ Zayne /ᐠ. .ᐟ\ Ⳋ

A zayne's playlist that just makes sense

There's some songs that just match his lore so much, and I also need to talk about it. Should I do a playlist for Xavier and Rafayel. I think I got pretty suitable songs for them too. Let me know!

The truth untold - BTS

"This garden is filled with blossoming loneliness, I tied myself to this sandcastle filled with thorns."

Jasmine - DPR LIVE

"You know I'm no criminal, but I can take your heart and go, you're the perfect chemical, I gotta test I gotta go."

What a man - I.O.I

My head just starts playing this song every time I see this man on my screen. Zayne, the man you are.

Whenever - Lexie Liu

"I love when you make my rain come down."

Dosmestic lustful vibes just as Zayna at that trip card.

빌려줄게 (lean on) - Shin Yong Jae

This song is so l&ds boys, but specifically, zayne's.

Religion - Isak Danielson

"I've lost my reality. I've lost everything in me [...] You act like you're God, and you're trying too hard, but I need it. I was supposed to believe her. Now I'm back to believing. I'm trying to be smart, with a stake through the heart that I'm feeling. Turning into addiction. Praying in your religion."

"Just one day - BTS"

"Just one day, if I can be together. Just one day if we could hold hands."

Scaredy Cat - DPR IAN

BAHAHAHAHHAHA. that's just me being cynical and sad about Zayne/Dawnbreaker.

Winter flower - Youn Ha

Also fits his lore.

Also, a self-explanatory song, I guess.

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“Say it Back”

How I imagine the LADS Men would react if you didn’t say “I love you” back

Zayne

Zayne: I’m departing for an early shift I’ll see you tonight. I love you.

MC: Have a good day

Zayne: …

MC: …

Zayne: Let me try again you must not have heard me. I love you…

MC: and I said have a good day

Zayne: ….

MC: ….

Zayne: *starts walking towards MC*

MC: OKAY OKAY OKAY I LOVE YOU

Rafayel

Rafayel: I guess I’ll go to this boring exhibit alone since you have to work. I love youuu

MC: Try to make the best of it and be nice.

Rafayel: …..

MC: ….

Rafayel: ….

MC: ….what?

Rafayel: ….. I didn’t realize you hated me. When did we break up? Who is he? How many positions did he have you in? When did you decide you were leaving me?? Please say it back I’m gonna throw up

MC: I LOVE YOU RAFAYEL STOP

Rafayel: I don’t think I’m gonna make it to the exhibit now

Xavier

Xavier: I have to leave for important business I’ll be back as soon as I can. I love you my little star.

MC: Okay be safe

Xavier: if you want me to die on this mission you can just say that

MC: What are you even talking about

Xavier: it’s fine don’t worry even if you don’t love me

MC: Xavier I love you shut up

Xavier: You could say it nicer

MC: I love you Xavier come back to me in one piece

Xavier: That’s better

Sylus

Sylus: I’m taking the twins to the meeting with me I’ll leave Mephisto here to keep an eye on you.

MC: I don’t need a bird watching me

Sylus: I’m sure you don’t but he likes to tell on you

MC: *rolls eyes*

Sylus: I love you Princess I’ll be back soon.

MC: Okay come back in one piece

Sylus: ….

MC: ….

Sylus: Don’t provoke me

MC: …..I love you Sylus

Sylus: There we go

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About Zayne's possesiveness...

With Sylus calling us "kitten" all the time, I've seen Sylus mains being torn between if they like being called that or not, for some It's totally fine but for others is such a mood killer and I'm not a Sylus main but I'd be the second one for sure.

Then I remembered that Zayne once mentioned that I was his "favorite kitty" or that I was "his pet..." something like that? And I was like "where did he say that and why didn't I cringe when he said that? Maybe this is the effect of love (xD) maybe I understand Sylus mains better? I need to find out"

Then I remembered:

If Zayne is my personal Mr Kitty Cat, then I don't mind being his favorite kitty, we were basically the ones that initiated it and even put cat ears on him... So yeah, the whole vibe of this is totally different from Sylus' pet names.

However... He calling us "his pet" was a whole different story:

The way he lets his possesiveness slide for a second? You know, all of the guys are possesive somehow, they only show it differently, in this case, Zayne's possesiveness doesn't show too often cause he's aware that to be possesive of something is to allow yourself to show your weakness, to implicitly say "This person has a great power over my feelings or my behaviour bc It's mine..." that's why he stops himself when he says "Don't leave it with anyone else or I'll—" and then changes the approach "Do you want to leave it with someone else?"

And as the player, it leaves us hanging... Thinking "What would you do, Dr Zayne? What are you willing to do?"

We have to think about these questions from the perspective of Zayne's persona, of the kind of guy he is. We know the other guys have a bounty and have committed crimes/ killed people, while Zayne has done none of that and it's on the completely opposite side of things: He's a well respected doctor, has saved tons of lifes, is obssesed about saving people, a workaholic cause he knows the world needs him. The worst thing he's done (as far as we know) is that he had to kill his friend William when he was turning into a Wanderer and even so, it was William the one who asked this of him after Zayne desperately tried to save him against all odds.

Zayne is not someone who would even think of hurt others easily, even if he's quite able to cause others harm, just as much as the other LIs, but all versions of Zayne have in common that they're really kind. Sure, Dawnbreaker is a serial killer but we know he doesn't kill people out of joy but instead mercy. Sure, Foreseer was quite severe when MC first met him but It's not as if she didn't deserve it when she literally intruded his place, lied to him and tried to steal his powers (lmao) and we know he was wary of Astra all the time so he didn't want anyone to enter the Tower for their own sake and he paid with his life the price to keep MC alive. Master of Fate was supposed to kill MC but instead he chose to seal her powers to give her another chance to keep on living the life she told him she wanted to live (even without him).

So it's interesting to think what would Zayne do for MC? Us? If he decides to be selfish and fulfill his desires, what would he do? It seemed like he was even questioning himself, showing too much of what he's not used to show (And now with SS we just know how much he needs MC/us).

So that's why he changes the approach. His feelings are involved in this sudden and unexpected show of weaknesses, so he asks us "Do you want to leave it with someone else?" Now asking us about what we feel but not quite giving us time to reply.

The way he calls us "his pet" comes now more like he's gained control of his feelings again and is calling us that as a punishment for making him go through this unwanted jealousy but he's so ambiguous and smooth about it, that is giving "if It's too much don't take it" vibes because he neither confirms nor denies that he was talking about us.

Zayne is the kind of guy that would spoil you and shows his love through different ways: taking care of you and your health, acts of service, affirmation, sparing time for you, having you as his top priority, always offering his time/ himself (Have you notice how Zayne says "My free time is all yours, do with it what you want" while Sylus says "Who is your free time for if not me? " or how Xavier asks "Do you want to sleep with me?" while Zayne asks "Do you want me to sleep with you?"), he gives and gives (and lord knows how much he's tried to change and be more careful about his words and actions so they don't come across as alof, bc yes, Zayne hates to be mistaken as a heartless person) but of course he's also willing to do all that as long as you work for it and earn it too and if you misbehave, he makes you pay for it and knows how to give you a firm "No" when you try to backpedal or get away with it.

He knows (or tries) to balance his depth love by spoiling you while at the same time letting you know that nothing comes for free (even if he'd give it for free). Balance is a word that fits him best in all the aspects of his life, especially when it comes about love. He shows his feelings if you show them too (he both says "I never thought I'd have only one person in my eyes" accepting you're the only thing he sees and he also says "I want to be the only one in your eyes and for you to be mine" expressing what he desires too in a soft way) and when he shows his possesiveness, he's letting himself to lose this balance and he probably knows that you are the only thing that could make him completely lose this balance. His evol seems to be an analogy of this behavior, Zayne is always hyperaware that he could lose control of it at any given time and maybe, when it comes about his feelings, does he feel the same? ("It wouldn't be love if I could control it"). He's scared of hurting you but is he scared of the things he'd do for you?

Especially bc, all his other lifes and the current Zayne have always shown the opposite of possesiveness, they sacrifice themselves and their happiness for your own happiness and your well being. When MC asks Foreseer Zayne "Didn't you say you don't want to lose me again?" his literal reply was "I will never lose you as long as you're alive and well" and when Master of Fate was supposed to kill MC, he chose to seal her powers away even if it also meant to sacrifice his presence in her life (even after he promissed that they would always be together and promissed not to leave her and desired fulfill those promises). Dawnbreaker's only solace is MC, he only yearns for her and nothing else, a powerful quote they say in his anecdotes is "It's better to die with clarity than living as a walking corpse" referencing to ppl that turns into Wanderers but this quote applies to Zayne too, in the sense that he's basically a walking corpse cause he doesn't live his own life. MC is the only thing that keeps him alive somehow and she's not even in his own world. Dr Zayne says "When you and the world wake up, I hope we do not meet again" bc he knows this is the best for you.

All Zayne's are filled with pent up yearning, want, need, desire, to a point It's seems it is about to overflow and he does a goddam good work at hiding it; no wonder why Dr Zayne is taking all the available chances with MC, but even he seems to be aware that this won't last forever and even in such period of time, why he seems so afraid to loose up... lose control of himself? Especially cause Dr Zayne seems to be the balance amongst all Zayne's, he's not as dark and depressive as Dawnbreaker, nor as cold and severe as Foreseer, nor as happy and carefree as Master of Fate but at the same time holds a little of all of that.

So the question here is, how a showcase of the loss of this balance would be? For now we can only imagine and come up with assumptions but I'm quite curious to see it playing fully ingame, you know? Altho I'm not sure if I'd like it if it comes at the cost of him getting hurt again.

"Hindi ko Alam" when translated, it means "I Do Not Know". The title suits the content of the essay. It dives into the life of a student, specifically on highschool when us students are experiencing from our easygoing childhood to learning teenagers to young adults. It is when students experience confusion and embarrassment. Unpleasant memories that will probably influence our mentality. But we get through those tough times with the friends we formed bonds with. It shows that we are not alone on suffering through that stage of life, everyone eventually experienced those times at their lowest.

We should learn to pick ourselves up and accept help from others, because it's okay to make mistakes, to stumble on our journey in life, and move on with life.

Babe, do you want me to wear your coat??? 😭

the characters may be fictional, but my feelings for them are definitely real so I got to cry and mourn and scream and kick my feet and dig my nails into my pillow and giggle and smile and laugh and think and talk about them 24/7 and write fanfics/make fanart about them and use them as my emotional support blorbos and you don’t get to tell me how I can or can’t express my feelings you soulless twat

MEOWMOJIS | zayne.

HES JUST A LIL GUY 🥺😭 !! I miss this event so so so dearly. but I guess I’ll just have to cope with the emojis haha.

these would look so fun as discord emojis !

meowmojis : sylus / zayne / rafayel / xavier

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