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he's so old...his thighs, i love thighs i need fanfics of that please someone recommend them to me !!!!!!

modern au!jayvik x reader playing minecraft shenanigans <3 —likes, comments, reblogs = happy bee gratitude <3

jayce & viktor both excel at building and redstone automating/tinkering/etc. but they decide that jayce is more suited for building & viktor makes redstone mechanisms better

you’re grateful that those are their roles cuz you can’t redstone or build FOR SHIT… so you’re more than happy to be the explorer & miner to collect resources for your boyfriends

in game, whenever you bring jayce the blocks he needs, he makes a point to squat his character up and down as a means to kiss you

meanwhile, viktor bonks his character’s head into yours when you gift him a surplus of redstone

you three have a private server, but you also play on a collective server with folks like mel caitlin ekko jinx and vi; that server is half war zone and half paradise in terms of builds (jinx keeps griefing caitlin’s builds with charged creepers and tnt)

when the three of you play together while next to one another in real life, you make a point to distract your boyfriends from their builds with kisses and hugs

the one time you took both of them on a mine exploration in game, jayce immediately fell into lava and viktor screamed when he got attacked by zombies in a mob spawner room

the little arrangement of roles you three have works… you just have to keep your boyfriends safe from hostile mobs

at least, the exploration in the lush cave went well; viktor found a pinkish purple axolotl and named it rio while jayce stole all the glow berries

when the happy ghast snapshot came out, you immediately get one from the nether and revive it, naming it gumdrop and taking your boyfriends on an adventure with it :)

people watching the new season of MHA entirely in sub are missing out on mirko calling bakugou a “cocky piece of tnt” and him returning the insult with calling her a “bunny wabbit” 💀

Jujutsu Kaisen

winter days

besties

I often think about this exchange, especially the last shot where Levi is looking out of the corner of his eye. Like he’s making EXTRA sure that Hange isn’t upset with him, but he’s trying to be chill about it.

Imagine being JD Vance, who makes such a huge part of his personality being catholic. The pope himself takes time to lecture you on compassion then promptly DIES. The pope uses one of his last hours on earth to tell you that you suck at your religion on EASTER. And then DIES. Anyway RIP Pope Francis

No context

im not surviving tonight.

“oh but _____ isn’t real”

to YOU, that maybe. i, however, am delusional.

Gojo Satoru’s desire to be seen as a human is so important to his character and just so… fascinating to relate to from an autistic point of view. Like, I’ve spent so much of my life feeling as alien and outside of humanity— begging people to see the human in me— and then there’s this character who is larger than life; treated as a weapon; has almost no close friends; is arrogant, goofy, wants to help the people around him; and is shunned by most because he’s annoying and overbearing— but they will always resort to him for his strengths. Of course I’m going to relate to him to an extent (but god I wish I had infinity sometimes)

yours is thicker than a velvet ring.

Another thing I absolutely love about Astarion’s redemption arc is how some narrative threads introduced in Act 1 find their resolution in the good ending.

The first and most obvious one revolves around the beautiful concept of a gift.

When the player offers their blood to Astarion, he receives a gift that goes beyond mere nourishment. In that moment, what Tav/Durge is giving him, beyond blood, is understanding and trust.

And this concept comes full circle after the ritual, where this narrative thread finds its conclusion. That’s when Spawn Astarion thanks the player for the gift they have given him—gently guiding him by the hand toward a new path where he is truly free.

But not just free. As the vampire spawn himself says in that ending, he is honestly free. And for that gift, he is grateful.

I think that’s absolutely beautiful.

But the meaning runs even deeper than that. This ties into the theme of seeing and being seen—not in a superficial sense.

After all, Astarion’s appearance is both a curse and a shield, something he has learned to wield, just like his mannerisms, his charming words, and the sarcasm he uses as a distraction.

It’s an important concept because it means going beyond the surface, seeing him for who he truly is, feeling him, and experiencing him in his entirety.

Astarion deeply struggles with his condition—not just as a slave, but as a vampire. He’s so happy to be able to act human again thanks to the Illithid tadpole, to do simple, mundane things like crossing running water or entering a house without permission. And let’s not even talk about his joy at standing under the sunlight.

When you meet him on the beach for the first time and reveal what will happen if they don’t get rid of the Illithid tadpoles, Astarion’s bitter reaction, complete with laughter, shows just how much it truly weighs on him: "Of course it’s going to turn me into a monster, what else did I expect?!"

In fact, when his vampiric nature is revealed for the first time during the bite scene, he fears rejection and is quick to emphasize that he’s not some kind of monster. The morning after, when Shadowheart tactlessly points out this aspect of him, his expression changes, and we can see how being perceived as a monster wounds him. It keeps him at a distance, sets him apart as something other. Later, he will even say outright that he wants to be treated like a person—not as a slave, not as a vampire. Just a person. Not superior, not inferior. Exactly like everyone else. Because Astarion wants to be part of the world, to reconnect with people.

This is especially clear when he approves of Tav’s perspective—that he could find a place for himself in the world, where he could be accepted, supported, if he is willing to open up and do the same for others. He approves because the idea appeals to him—it makes him feel like he can belong. Not as a monster, but as a person finding his way back into the world he once inhabited.

But I’m digressing.

The mirror scene isn’t just there by chance—it’s narratively strategic. In that moment, Astarion explicitly asks the player what they see, because he wants to know how the world perceives him. He worries about how others see him precisely because he feels separate, othered, like a monster. And it’s not a matter of appearance—Astarion knows he’s gorgeous. He’s heard it thousands of times over the centuries. But he’s insecure about his place within the group, within society, within the world.

That’s why he appreciates it when Tav/Durge reassures him on the two things that trouble him most—his piercing gaze (the red eyes of a vampire) and his dangerous smile (the sharp fangs of a predator). He relaxes because, in that moment, he feels accepted. Because he realizes his defining traits aren’t the insurmountable barriers he thought they were. Because the person in front of him sees him—not through the lens of prejudice, but for who he really is.

This theme returns later, during the confrontation with Aurelia and Leon, when Astarion deflects the idea of being heroic by saying, "I can’t be what you see in me." Again, the motif of seeing, of looking deeper, of recognizing something more, of reading between the lines—both of the narrative and of his character.

And it’s beautiful when, the morning after the ritual, that relaxed, happy Astarion, with that wonderful smile on his lips, says that Tav/Durge saw something in him. Something different from everyone else. Something beyond his monstrous nature, beyond his darkest intentions, beyond his fear.

Tav/Durge saw him. Saw his potential.

And if you’re in a romantic relationship with him, in the graveyard scene, Astarion will bring up this idea once again. With a heroic Tav/Durge, Astarion feels safe. And he feels seen. Seen, for god’s sake. That’s huge.

This is where this narrative arc—about perception, about seeing him throughout the entire journey—finds its resolution. Astarion is truly more than what Cazador made him to be. He breaks free from the pattern of monster/vampire. He chooses to start living again. To rediscover himself. To reclaim his identity in the most human way possible—through the world and the people around him.

Perhaps his body has not regained its human traits, but spawn Astarion is, without a doubt, the Astarion who has reclaimed his humanity the most.

One thing I absolutely love about Astarion’s redemption arc is the complexity of his relationship with the figure of the hero.

Astarion is a vampire, a monster, and also a victim (as well as, in a way, a perpetrator, due to his forced obedience to Cazador). He is the first person in desperate need of a hero to save him and the last person suited for the role of a hero.

He prayed to every god for salvation, even for death, and even that was denied to him. He resents heroes and the powerful, and when confronted with the idea that both have a duty to protect the weak, he scornfully responds that no, they’ve done a terrible job—that in 200 years, no one saved him from torture, and that it was the mind flayers, other monsters, who finally freed him. And that, in reality, the powerful only use their strength to bend others to their will and serve their own selfish interests. It’s in this same conversation that Astarion declares his desire to be better than Cazador—stronger, more powerful—though the player likely meant kinder, more noble.

Yet, despite everything he says, despite his disapproval of every heroic action taken in Act 1, Astarion is irreversibly drawn to the figure of the hero. First and foremost, he seeks their protection, though still through the warped lens of his past under Cazador’s cruel talons. Secondly, he is extremely sensitive to kindness, understanding, acceptance—to being treated like a person, just as a true hero would treat him.

And then, this is something I particularly noticed while playing as Karlach—Astarion is fascinated by Wyll, who is, in many ways, the quintessential hero of the party. He even admits that if he had to choose one of them to feed on, it would be Wyll, because he is sweet and righteous, just. Which is a contradiction, because the very traits that draw Astarion to him are the same ones that make him want to drain him dry. Love and hate, all in one.

With this in mind, even the conversation after meeting Aurelia and Leon takes on a deeper meaning. The player sees something in Astarion, but he still refuses to recognize it, to admit it, and rightfully says he can’t be what we see in him—a good person, a righteous, understanding, even heroic figure. And yet, the player sees through him…

And it’s breathtaking when, during the ritual, just before stabbing Cazador, Astarion says those very same words: "You're right. I can be better than him." But this time, he doesn’t mean stronger or more powerful. No, this time, he means it exactly as it was first presented to him and so bitterly rejected. And he means it with all his heart.

And in doing so, in freeing all his siblings and all the poor souls imprisoned there, Astarion commits a truly heroic act. He does for others what he once desperately hoped for himself, what he prayed for—becoming the hero he needed. Because at the same time, he is freeing himself—from his chains, from his narrow worldview that saw everything in terms of power and dominance. For the first time, he is free to live outside of the path that someone else forced upon him.

And that’s exactly why, in my opinion, the next morning, it’s right to tell him that yes, we were the heroes who stood by his side, but we only gave him a push. Because, in the end, he saved himself.

He is the hero he had been waiting for centuries!

And that thought makes my heart race! ❤️

my fav thing about sunrise on the reaping was when haymitch was like yeah caeser i'm a lone wolf 😏 i'm with the newcomers but i'm not WITH the newcomers, yknow? they call me a rascal. a rebel against the gamemasters. I scored a ONE and that is a THREAT. you do not want to mess with me 🙅

cut to him with like 20 kids following him around like ducklings, him hiding in his t-shirt, him letting a bunny guide him to safety because it reminded him of his girlfriend, and him making nightlights out of potatoes.

how do y’all think haymitch felt when katniss came back to him all “i want wiress, beetee, and mags as allies” in catching fire? hand-picking his two and a half men(tors)!!

“of course you do” as his response now means so much more bc he’s not just exasperated he’s like “you really are me with a braid”

— Sunrise on the Reaping, Epilogue

i think a lot of people will forget or gloss over the fact that Viktor's disability made him an outsider both topside and in the undercity. we see it in his childhood flashback - he tells corin reveck as much. he is alone because of his disability.

if you look at the character designs, season 1 Piltover characters costumes are all symmetry. for Viktor, even in act 1 when he's wearing a uniform - the exact same thing as Jayce - Viktor is asymmetrical and marked as other. not because he's kitted out like a zaunite but because of his visible disability.

i do see some arguments that Zaun is a lot more friendly to disability and pointing out the use of prosthetics. i'd argue that the only time we see this is act 2 onwards - after Silco has flooded the undercity with shimmer. after Viktor is already working on hextech with Jayce.

this is canon btw

I really needed to draw some lab partners shenanigans, so... (Viktor might not be able to rely on his leg but he sure can rely on his abs woah, I wonder what kind of training he did)

You know how Degas did studies of ballerinas? This is… kind of like that!

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sorry y’all absolutely adore machine herald but he ain’t winning SHIT against arcane herald

my boy got sent away team rocket style during an evil monologue meanwhile arcane herald becomes Fucking god and is not defeated per se ; more so RELENTS because talis blasts him with gay yearning and the memory of mage v saying evolution ain’t shit

(also how could anyone possibly say that mh is more intimidating than ah.. you’re just lying to lie atp..)

i’m so appreciative to suzanne for reframing the rebellion from the original trilogy as a “they saw their moment and took it” type situation and showing us that they’ve been trying, over and over, with so many failed attempts, to break the arena and incite a rebellion for decades. in this current political climate never giving up hope is so essential. haymitch wasn’t the first nor the last, and they kept going even when it seemed completely futile, and that’s what counts, and what ultimately saves them all.

my body is on the line now

put the blanket tight now