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we ain’t got time like we used to, but we still shine like we used to.

Oh to be jayvik with their four beautiful adopted kids at that stream by their cottage 🌿

jayce and his disregard for personal space

- What's level of your obsession? - Yes.

It's a small piece of the first page. I had a couple ideas, but I couldn't choose one thing and decided to combine them into the "post canon" comic.

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jayce and his two cats (viktor rescued that baby from the trash btw)

(through gritted teeth) sometimes what's good for your mental health isn't another do nothing day or a little treat sometimes what's good for you is putting in some of the work. Not all of it at once but sometimes you have to finish that essay or at least take the next step or you have to clean your room or at least dust the shelves or you gotta do the laundry or at least put it all in the hamper and it's not fun and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks and it sucks but you have to because i read a post on the internet that told me that's what being nice to yourself is sometimes

"Tell me, Levi. What did you and your mom do when you were little?" You hope it's okay to ask this.

Levi thinks for a moment. The bad memories come up first. "Do?"

"Yeah. Like, did you read together?" You start with that.

Levi is quiet for a moment. "No, we um, didn't really have books." Why is that so hard to say?

"Well that's okay, I'm sure she told you bedtime stories."

He just shrugs. It's hard to remember.

You see Levi deep in thought and wait for him. You perk up when he gives a tiny smile.

"Shadow puppets." That's it. It was a game and a story in one.

"Really? That's adorable!" You smile too. "What was your favorite?"

"I don't know. The wolf maybe. Or the swan." One he liked, and one she liked.

"Wanna show me?" You're happy for this piece of himself he shares with you.

He holds up his hand with less digits. "Tch, with what fingers?" You must be joking.

You don't give up. "The ones you have, silly!" You reach out and grip his fingers in your hand. "I bet you can still make a great snail."

It surprises you when he actually chuckles at this. "A snail?" He doesn't think he ever made that one before.

"Wanna try?" You ask, hand still wrapped around his fingers.

The sweet sound of your voice, your genuine smile, your soft touch, something leaves tingles in Levis chest. He's not sure what to do with it.

He lets out a breath. "No." He shakes his head. "Not, right now." He rephrases it, leaving the offer open. You've just caught him off guard.

"That's okay." You lean back, no longer touching. "When you want to, my hands are always open to you."

The feeling you give to him does not fade. And he knows he doesn't want it to.

Doodling Viktor smiling and laughing to heal my soul

"Wherever there is you, I will be there too." -Silhouettes by Of Monsters and Men

????? march ?????? again ??????

Drew this before act 3 came out lol what a time

a viktor drawing cause i love him sm :( i hope you guys like it ! ☹️💗

League of Villains - Cyberpunk outfits from My Hero Ultra Rumble

I feel like I don't have the spoons for this, nor the understanding of real-life PTSD enough to explore it, but I feel like it's worth examining Jayce's arc for signs of PTSD. Much has been made of the canonical mental illnesses and PTSD of characters like Jinx, and I've mentioned that I think Jayce might have generalized clinical anxiety, but I think it's worth looking at how much of his behavior might be PTSD related even before he goes to the Anomaly future.

Some possible places I'd look:

Jayce has been getting fed paranoia by Marcus and by the tension that is being deliberately ratcheted up by Silco and Jinx. Yes, he says awful, bigoted things to Viktor on the bridge, but it is worth pointing out that he's not saying this in a vacuum, there are people in proximity to him deliberately stoking his paranoia and that of the city for their own ends, literally Marcus is gaslighting him actively by telling him the Firelights are responsible and the best way to keep people safe is shut down the bridge.

The fight in the Shimmer Factory gets more wild to me every time I watch. Jayce should not be there for so many reasons but one of them is Jayce is not a fighter. I think his video game counterpart sort of obscures this, but unlike Vi who has spent her whole life fighting AND in prison for years, Jayce has never, ever wielded that hammer before. He didn't even have it until the day before! And suddenly he's up against the Shimmer-infused berserkers who are some of the toughest fighters in the whole show. He almost gets his head cut off, if not for features he built into the hammer like weightlessness and the shield, he'd be dead, and then he makes what I call the, "Jayce is Making Bad Decisions" Face (I need to make a gifset of this face btw, he makes it a couple times, also while resurrecting Viktor).

Ok I might make fun of the Jayce is Making Bad Decisions face, BUT on a serious note, it's clear the Fortiche animators are doing a superb job showing someone who has gone into "Adrenaline Mode". REAL fighters do not want adrenaline. Adrenaline fucks up your reaction times and makes you shaky and turns off your higher brain functions. I've been in a fight when fear adrenaline kicks in and you just start wildly swinging to get people away from you and that is exactly what happened when Jayce's face got scrunched up and he started shooting wildly, he just wanted to stop the threat because he's never fought before, unlike Vi. And then he kills a kid and the triumph of his first fight against an uncomplicated enemy just dies and btw, never returns except in that moment fighting more Shimmer berserkers and Renni but those are clear self defense and there's no triumph in it.

BRO gets HIT BY A ROCKET, has a pure panic response leaving living people who need his help in the chamber to save Viktor, and he doesn't go back as far as we know.

Ok so the things that me, as not an expert would be curious to note as possible PTSD responses would be:

Jayce not leaving the lab after the attack except 1) to go to the funeral (where he's attacked AGAIN) 2) to comfort Caitlyn after Mel basically tells him to, 3) to make weapons for Caitlyn's team specifically to keep a small group of people safe, not arm an entire army. Besides that, it looks like he spends all his time holed up in the lab, even after Viktor is gone, because that's his safe space and I think I read once that PTSD has a way of shrinking your world down to just the people and places you trust.

Dragging that hammer around with him in the Anomaly future. Look, Jayce is a city boy, he has no survival instincts, but it wasn't just a bad idea because it broke his leg, it was actively detrimental to his chances of survival because lugging an anvil around drained him of water and calories. Bro had a lot less chance of survival with it, but he thought he was surrounded by zombies (he wasn't, they're all dead and they're all controlled by Viktor, we learn he was never in danger, though I don't blame him for that). But that could also be a PTSD response, his actual emotional support hammer.

Clamming up and not talking to Mel about what happened because she's not in his circle of trust anymore, it's more or less shrunk down to just Viktor (once he can save him) and Cait, maybe.

Ok as usual this got longer than I intended by just... some things that are in my mind right now.

i was expecting basically everything else in act 2. vander reunion going south. isha dying. i got that much i was prepared. but VIKTOR????

i dont know if anything will ever hit me quite as hard as baby viktor's outfit literally being a mini version of singed's

Found these old viktor sketches that I made during one of my classes and decided to share!

(I remember it was my first time trying to draw traditionally in years lol)

Viktor having a nightmares about Jayce cover in blood asking him why and telling that his fault.

Oh, for sure. His mind takes one look at his guilty conscience surrounding Jayce’s death and goes “let’s torment him with some nightmares.” And his sleep schedule is already probably nonexistent so it is just giving him more reasons not to sleep.

He’s already constantly replaying their last conversation in his mind over and over. All of what he could have said but didn’t. What he wishes he had told Jayce instead. What he is never going to be able to tell him now. What he could’ve done to prevent Jayce from going to the bridge. How what he said to Jayce is part of what pushed him to even go to the bridge to begin with. How he just let Jayce walk away to what would be his death. How their last conversation was him being upset with Jayce. Even if he was right to be upset about the situation, knowing that that was his last memory of Jayce being alive hurts. So, of course, its all going to carry over into his dreams as well.

Especially after learning the exact details of his “death” which is like adding fuel to a fire. How they couldn’t find a body. How it was deduced that Jayce was crushed entirely by the rubble and debris from the collapsing tower after finding torn remnants of his attire in the wreckage. He would have nightmares about Jayce appearing and just getting crushed right in front of him.

While he can do nothing about it. In some, he tries to reach for Jayce but he can never seem to get to him in time. Sometimes Jayce doesn’t speak, but other times he does and he says things like “Why did you let me walk away? Why didn’t you stop me?” while blood begins to cover his whole body before disappearing into nothing.

Even a particular version of this nightmare where Viktor is in the lab and Jayce is at the chalkboard, and Viktor goes up to him. But when Jayce starts to smile and talk to Viktor, blood slowly starts to cover his body and begins to look more and more like he was in an explosion. Like a dead body, even as he keeps acting like his usual self. As if he isn't aware that he's withering away in front of Viktor's eyes.

Sometimes, there are other people there aside from Jayce who say that it is his fault. Such as Caitlyn and Ximena.

The mind can be a very cruel thing.

Also, he doesn't tell anyone about said nightmares.

Mmm so does anyone else think it's kinda weird that Arcane ends with telling Viktor his imperfections made him who he was (don't get me started on that message), but then absolutely NONE of his league skins show him having an handicap and all portray him as very physically fit ?

I want more “manic pixie dream scientist” Viktor in arcane fanfiction. This absolutely weirdo shows up in Jayce’s crumbling life all “do crimes, do drugs, DO SCIENCE” and Jayce just melts and decides not to kill himself for this little unhinged rat man

Can’t stop thinking about the fact that “in all timelines, in all possibilities” Viktor doesn’t even think for one second about letting Jayce die in the snow as a child, preventing hextech from ever being created. When Ekko ends up in a dimension without hextech, we see that it’s infinitely better off than almost any of the worlds with hextech. But it’s not a possibility that Viktor even entertains.

Like I’ll use my god powers to search every version of every dimension to find one where you show me unconditional love enough to save the universe, but I can’t even begin to imagine of one in which I never get to know you. Or whatever.

“When you're going to change the world, don't ask for permission.”

Looks like I’m back into my Daryl Dixon obsession…

I say “back”, but it’s been 14 years and I never actually left.

Forever my favorite comfort character ❤️

Post War Levi HC

I think about PostWar Levi and if he ever found his s/o, someone he trusts with his entire being.

I think he would tell them about everything that he went through, without shedding a tear because he never really had the chance to express his grief before, as he dedicated his entire life towards helping humanity, always putting others first. It would take him a good while to realize the depth of his grief and to lower the walls he had built around himself, before the dam of emotions comes crashing down.

I think he would then lay down with his s/o with his head tucked in the crook of their neck, and his s/o would eventually feel their shirt slightly dampen, a sign of Levi's silent tears. And they would hold him tight and stroke his hair without saying a word; a silent acknowledgement.

Because I think no amount of words would ever suffice for the pain and hell he's been through.

today i ran barefoot down the middle of the highway into oncoming traffic to scoop this thing

chat tell me why when i made geto and gojo in sims it auto assigned adhd to gojo and then depression to geto LMAOOOOO

Till this day, calling Megumi a "bum" is absurd to me. Like, no, he's actually unhinged and ready to end it at the drop of a dime. He's just one of those people who know how unhinged they are but choose not to act a fool until someone rings that bell.

Just a teacher leading his students to be the new generation of sorcerers ✨

As gen-AI becomes more normalized (Chappell Roan encouraging it, grifters on the rise, young artists using it), I wanna express how I will never turn to it because it fundamentally bores me to my core. There is no reason for me to want to use gen-AI because I will never want to give up my autonomy in creating art. I never want to become reliant on an inhuman object for expression, least of all if that object is created and controlled by tech companies. I draw not because I want a drawing but because I love the process of drawing. So even in a future where everyone’s accepted it, I’m never gonna sway on this.