The Calm Before The Storm

characters going “we were lovers once”: eh, it’s okay i guess. it’s nice enough

characters going “we were friends once”: absolutely devastating. one hit knockout i’m gone

catws just wasn't enough... sigh

still waiting for the day we get a Bucky Barnes specifically led movie. seb's been in the MCU since phase one and still hasn't had a solo movie. he deserves it.

i watched thunderbolts yesterday night and i am not the same person i was before i sat down in that theater. the mental health representation, the anti heroes banding together, the start of their redemption arcs, yelena's monologue, john walker being (surprisingly and unfortunately) funny, bob's entire character in general, james buchanan barnes (obviously), THE HUG??? someone needs to sedate me before i do something insane like trying to shift into this universe to be friends with everyone as if it's still 2020.

when alexei saved that little girl because he couldn't save his anymore.

the day thunderbolts get released for streaming and all you psychological terrorists (tik tok editors) get your hands on it….

consider me sat. sobbing. but sat.

today i learned that yelena’s name means “bright/shining light” and if you think about how she’s really the beating heart of the thunderbolts* and how alexei says she lights up every room she walks into and how bob—whose alter ego is literally the physical manifestation of his own darkness—immediately latched on to her because for all her prickliness, she managed to make him feel safe and wanted and seen, i just….yeah i’m not okay

it is absolutely essential to have friends you can have extremely insane pervert conversations with. this is kind of what makes life worth living

they forced damian to wear normal clothes for this

it will never not be funny to me that if i read a fanfic centred around jason and dicks relationship it will 90% of the time be dick desperately trying to bond with jason to make up for lost time bcs they weren’t very close before jason’s death, and then if i crack open a comic with the two of them it will more likely be jason showing up on dicks doorstep grinning wildly and dick saying god fuck why couldn’t the joker have done a better job WHY ARE YOU BOTHERING ME

Can we talk about how no one seems to acknowledge in the mcu that Bucky took the serum unwillingly. That he was experimented on against his will and absolutely terrified of what it would do to him.

Yet you have John walker talking how much Bucky must enjoy it. At what price and what use when he’s to afraid to use that strength

Sam talking about how he should have taken it like him. When Bucky literally did not.

Even now the red guardian being all like oh the fancy stuff. As if it wasn’t a experiment that had high failure and Bucky was lucky enough to survive.

And even with all that, no one even sees he’s as much as a exceptional like Steve by not being corrupted by the serum.

And please marvel please let someone please acknowledge these two things and say it in the mcu because he deserves to hear them.