I'M WALKING WITH YOU.

wants to write malec fanfic while simultaneously not wanting to touch an already perfect couple for fear of tainting cassandra clare’s masterpiece

If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

Today I found myself reading TMI again after being done with studying (ugh, whoever invented exams can burn in hell) and I feel like I keep running out of ways to explain how incredibly copy pasted and close I feel to Alec. Like, yes sure, I love Izzy with every inch of my soul and don't I wish I was like her and Magnus is just such a me vibe in my best days. But Alec has always been my focal point every single time I read Cassandra Clare, and every time I expect to find myself being like "oh shut up" like I often find myself doing when Jace talks, even Clary sometimes, but I just don't.

I find it so unbelievable how the first time I read City of Bones I was around three years younger than Alec in that book and I just couldn't help but think "He's real". Because miss m'am Izzy was killing demons in high heels at sixteen and Jace probably had more girlfriends than I have hair on my head and there was Alec. Trying to beat sense into them, being discarded by Jace the moment Clary came into view. His only friends being his own sister who was his complete opposite and his parabatai who way too foused on being cool than on his own struggles, him trying to hide himself from the Clave out of pure fear that they would exile him and just abandon him in a world full of demons as a mundane like they did to his uncle.

He was the secondary character. The fifth wheel of the cart, as we say in my family. And I could relate to that, because being on the outside and looking on the inside, being aware that you're not enough is something that i've found myself doing all my life ever since I was a toddler. Not too fun. Not too cool. Not too smart. You're just in the middle of it all. Never enough to stand out. Just a blank paper. And I just felt this ache in my heart when I finished that book years ago and I still feel it every time and this boiling rage knowing that this man stood bravely against it all. The fact that he played such an important role in the war, almost as important as Jace and he was still seen as "Jace's parabatai", when this man genuinely changed the law and rebuild every belief of the Clave to make it more humane.

There's just enough words in the dictionary to how many levels I love Alec and to how many levels I am grateful to Cassie for writing him, because who would I violently and brutally relate to if it wasn't Alexander Gideon Lightwood, the Inquisitor of the Clave and the man who loved a man so much he changed the world for him and Magnus's archer boy.

“She read paperbacks too, one after the next like she was chain-smoking—romance, science fiction, old pulp fantasy. All she wanted to do was sit, unbothered in a circle of lamplight, and live someone else’s life.”

―Hell Bent by Leigh Bardugo

Growing up with really strict parents is crazy, man, because why do I have to teach all of my friends without strict parents how to lie and keep a secret? Like…girl. 🤨

They're going to find out if you keep acting as if people can't see you, talk, and end in their ears. Precaution. Ninja skills. Adapt to your surroundings.

I continue to be obsessed with Clary's commitment to fucking hating Valentine

noooooo, don't leave usssssss, I get you, he's really meh, defo not cassie's best character

gonna talk about the hunger games for the next 10,000 years so I gotta get this off my chest now. why are people in the shadowhunters fandom so rude when they find out I don’t like will herondale? it’s a personal preference. it’s not a personal attack against you. it’s sad cause it makes me not want to interact with this fandom.

The fact that Matt Daddario is gorgeous and makes my knees weak on the daily aside: - he is so good? He loves animals so much? Like when was the last time that you saw a man dedicate so much time and attention to cows and dogs and even slugs? Like I’m pretty sure if he wasn’t an actor, he would work at the animal shelter or have his own farm - I CAN’T UNSEE THAT PIC WHERE HE HOLDS A TINY BIRD? SO SMALL, SO GENTLE, ACTUAL REAL LIFE SNOW WHITE - he loves his girlfriend so much??? He and Esther are goals. They are so cute and they are clearly so comfy with each other and so supportive of each other? - he loves making food for other people? So pure - he understands alec and took the time to analyse his motivations and personality? He gets why he is the way he is and he is so protective of him and his decisions? HE LOVES ALEC SO MUCH TBH? - let’s not forget his malec kiss commentary, because that shit is golden - his dark humour and snark and sarcasm? I’m??? I love it so much?? - THE PUNS - THE WAY HE IS SO CURIOUS and wants to understand stuff and learn?

Pls appreciate Matt Daddario for more than his looks.

Come home. Cone home a and scream at me. Come home and fight with me. Come home and break my heart if you must. Just come home.

And that's me sobbing in a corner if my room

And I cannot be judged because I know you all did

JOMPBPC 1/5/25 so funny

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