Finding someone with the same music taste as you
A/N: Okay, yes, I may or may not have written this in less than a day, and no, I’m not the happiest with it. Then again, I’m not exactly always happy with what I produce. As long as my works entertain others, that’s all that matters.
But anywho, I wrote this part of the series in 3rd person Omniscient for Roger because we need to know what’s going inside that tiny head of his.
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Summary: Roger and you spend dinner at the Garrisons, and Roger does some thinking.
(Again, Borhap! or Canon! Rog, whatever tickles your peaches)
WARNINGS: Swearing, slow burn, mentions of sex (nO sMuT), mentions of drugs, alcohol, overthinking(?) idk this part made me a tiny bit sad)
I’m rating this a T, but the subject matter is a little heavier than my previous parts of this fic. I would advise you to proceed with caution.
Roger stepped out of the shower, staring at his muted reflection in the foggy mirror before reaching for a towel. He took his time towel-drying his hair, and by the time he’d dried himself completely off, the steam in the bathroom dissipated just enough for him to be able to make out his facial features in that same mirror.
At this point he reached for the blow dryer on the right side of the counter. After fully removing the vapour off the mirror with it, he used it to completely dry his hair.
His fingers ran through his blond strands carefully as he tried to make sure he didn’t leave anything wet.
As much as Roger liked his hair, he’d rather have some girl pulling on it than him.
But that was besides the point.
Roger set down the blow dryer after a while, and just stared at himself in the mirror, his hands on either side of the vanity.
What the fuck was he doing?
He decided to fake a relationship with you, (on a limb, I may add) for the benefits of having a nice place to live.
It sucked that his days of sleeping around were coming to an end, though he didn’t exactly mind it.
In a way, Roger loved you. But it was like… a weird love. Almost like a “you-are-my-best-friend-and-I-would-die-for-you-but-if-you-totally-wanted-to-kiss-me-I-wouldn’t-think-twice-about-reciprocating” kind of love.
He’d felt like this towards you since high school, but you were with someone, and he forced his feelings down by sleeping with so many women he probably couldn’t remember any of their names if he tried.
Eventually, with all the drugs and alcohol he consumed, and all the skirts he’d been under for the last five years, that other, almost forbidden feeling towards you, was gone.
Well… Until now.
"Rog, you good in there?“ You called through the bathroom door. The sound of your voice almost had his heart jump up into his throat. He circled a towel around his waist, and opened the door.
You looked him up and down, and Roger could swear he saw your cheeks glow. "Damn, you’re looking good, Rogie."
He choked out a strained laugh, averting his eyes to the small droplets of water on his feet. "Wel-uh.. th-thanks, um… y/n."
You rolled your eyes, a dopey smile on your face. "And you thought I took those compliments seriously.” You squeezed past a nearly heartbroken Roger in the threshold of the door, and you reached into the medicine cabinet for your toothbrush.
“All I need to do after this is put on my lipstick, and you’re not even dressed! We’re supposed to be over there in five minutes!"
This had Roger disappearing immediately into the second guest room on the left, the one you decided would be his room after he forfeited the master bedroom over to you.
You just shook your head before shoving your tooth brush into your mouth.
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"Just… be calm."
"I am calm. You’re the one that’s not calm."
"Why would I tell you to be calm if I’m not?"
Roger was about to respond just before Anna opened the door. Roger and you immediately slapped painfully wide grins on your faces, and greeted the older woman with a soft hello as you stepped inside.
"Something smells good,” Roger complimented as he removed his jacket. "Thank you, Roger. It’s almost ready. I’d give it another fifteen minutes, and then we’ll dine.“
Roger nodded to Anna with a smile and turned towards you. He helped you take your jacket off, and you watched as he placed the coats on an empty hook on the wall.
He faced you again, and winked. He reached down and grabbed your hand, giving it a warm squeeze before you were both led further into the Garrison’s home.
Anna encouraged you both to take a seat on the sofa while she continued watching the food.
"Charlie kept an eye on the casserole while I grabbed the door. He’ll be out in just a minute, loves."
"Take your time,” you called to her as she made a beeline to the kitchen, leaving Roger and you alone.
Roger pursed his lips, twirling his thumbs in the sudden, and awkward silence. He took this time to examine the tidy, well-furnished home.
He began silently counting all of the framed photographs on the wall.
He came across one of Anna and Charles. It seemed to have been an older one compared to some of the others. They were in wedding attire, Roger guessed, from the thirties or forties, the newlyweds brandishing bright, and ecstatic grins.
He couldn’t help but smile back at the photograph.
He didn’t feel as if it were a necessity to get married, but he wished he would find pure elation being with you.
It didn’t matter if he could never properly marry you; if he discovered you were never in love with him in the first place… or even if things did turn out that way; he just saw you. No one else.
It had to be you.
Roger’s eyes flitted to the right when Charles returned from the kitchen.
"Sorry to keep you kids waiting,“ he said sincerely, sitting down in his living room chair.
” ’S no rush, Mr. Garrison,“ Roger assured him.
No one really decided to say anything after that. It was silent for a few second too long, and Charles laughed a little.
"Geez, are you guys uncomfortable? You both look tense. You’re good here. You can relax. Been a long day for you two–"
"Charlie?"
"Oop– Excuse me,"
Charles pardoned himself from your presence to see what his wife needed.
You sighed heavily, and Roger’s head began to spin.
How could this look more natural…?
”… hey um…“ Roger mumbled gently, successfully grabbing your attention, and you raised an eyebrow in confusion.
Roger licked his lips, his hand slowly lifting and moving to hover just over your knee. His eyes refused to look back into your own.
You caught sight of his hand in your peripherals, and after looking downwards, you glanced back up at Roger.
"Is uh… is it okay If I…?”
You simply nodded, and Roger sighed in relief, his hand lowering onto your leg. You shifted the smallest bit closer to him, and you smiled a little at how embarrassed he was to be touching you like he would with any other girl.
You placed your hand affectionately over top of his when he started rubbing circles on your pant leg with his thumb.
Your cheeks were a pretty shade of pink, and Roger’s were, too.
Charles returned from the kitchen just then. “She "lost her glasses”. They were right on her face and neither of us even noticed until she saw herself in the window!“
You and Roger laughed along with Charles in regards to his wife’s antics.
"But enough about her, I see her every day. Tell me more about you. How long have you had this one for, Roger?"
The drummer smiled at you, taking a moment to himself to search your entire face for an imperfection; maybe a loose eyebrow hair, some smeared makeup, lipstick on your teeth, or even an ugly zit he could make fun of you for later. But there was nothing wrong with you.
He couldn’t find one thing on your entire face he didn’t like.
"I wish I could tell you I’ve had her forever, Charles…"
You looked into his eyes. There was something… not quite right.
It was the way he was looking at you.
He’d never looked at you like that before.
Not with that much adoration; and never, did you ever think, you’d describe Roger’s tone as "dripping with affection”. At least, not when he spoke of you.
“It’s been about five years.” Roger concluded. “Best years of my life."
"And the fact you’re still going strong makes me very happy,” Charles mused, his eyes shining with joy.
"Things’ll get even better. Wait until you’re married and have children!“
That statement had your blood run ice cold, and you could swear Roger’s eye twitched at the word.
Children.
"I remember when my wife told me she was pregnant. It was one of the greatest days in my life, though their actual births and my wedding day are easily the top two."
You opened your mouth, but no words would come out. You cleared your throat and tried again. "Uhm…” Charles turned your way. “We never really um…” you took a deep breath and tried again. “Well, we’ve never really sat down and really… discussed whether or not we even want kids.”
“No um… we just… can’t see ourselves as parents. To a baby. With our face. It just seems so… surreal.”
“Roger,” The blond swallowed, and nodded to Charles in acknowledgement.
“Becoming a father is so rewarding. Wait ‘till you have a baby girl or a little boy, and you hold 'em in your arms for the first time. All that doubt will just wash away. Anna and I were so confident in our parenting skills, we had four more little ones!”
You couldn’t imagine having more than just one child, let alone five, or any of Roger’s, for that matter. The concept was so foreign to you, especially when it’s suggested that the father of these kids is the man who purposely puts the toilet roll on backwards because, and only because, it pisses you off.
Anna called the three of you to the table, cutting the conversation short, though you were relieved to get your mind off how hilariously ridiculous it sounded that you were sort of expected to give birth to Roger Meddows Taylor’s offspring.
He, on the other hand, couldn’t shake the idea. He spent the whole dinner on auto-pilot, trying to imagine how a child could share both his and your features.
He watched you a lot during dessert, trying to decide his favourite part of your face, something that he would be happy for your hypothetical child with him to be graced with.
But much like earlier, he realized he loved your face so much, he couldn’t make an ultimate decision.
Much like you, Roger thought the concept was close to impossible, as well.
He didn’t want to come down with a “Baby Fever”, so he took the next chance he could to talk about something distracting. The subject was averted to music, and Roger’s drumming and things like that.
He was just glad his subconscious wasn’t focused anymore about which room in the condo would hypothetically be the baby’s.
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“Thank you for inviting us over, Anna. That was the best casserole I’ve had in my life. Just don’t tell my mother.” Anna laughed at your joke, and teasingly assured you she wouldn’t.
Roger, after helping you put your jacket back on, held the door open for you, and after saying your final good byes to both Anna and Charles, the both of you were left alone in the cool summer night.
Your slow walk down the drive with Roger was very quiet. You two didn’t say anything.
You both took slow, careful steps towards your new home, two pairs of eyes searching the sky for constellations.
Roger’s hands were stuffed into his jean pockets, and you had your arms crossed over your chest.
He expected you to start rambling about how much of a disaster the entire visit was, and how there was certainly not enough casserole for left overs as Anna suspected, but you said nothing.
So he said nothing.
Roger climbed the stairs up to your front door, and unlocked it, wordlessly holding it open for you. You just nodded in thanks, and stepped inside, Roger close behind.
That’s where you both disbanded. You went right upstairs, leaving Roger alone in the dark front corridor. He just sighed, and locked the door as his eyes fixed to the blackness of the room.
He went straight to the kitchen, and opened the refrigerator. There were a few beer bottles in the fridge, and he reached for one, twisting the cap off with his shirt before taking a swig.
He shed his jacket and tossed it on the couch before sitting in the chair on the other side of the living room, and propping his feet up on the ottoman.
Upstairs, he could hear the tub’s faucet running. You were showering.
Taking another sip of his beer, Roger decided to wait until you were out of the shower and in bed before he went upstairs.
"… Rog?“
Roger’s eyes snapped open and he sat up with a start, gaze shooting to the hand on his arm.
Your hand.
Roger exhaled, and rubbed his tired eyes, his brain registering that you’d turned some of the lights on.
"Scared the bloody ‘ell outta me, y/n,” He slurred groggily, rubbing his forehead and combing his hair back with his fingers.
“I’m so sorry! I went to knock on your door and you weren’t in there!"
"I was waitin’ here for you t’ go t’ bed…” he must have fallen asleep, you thought as you rubbed the side of his arm.
“Well I was checking in on you to let you know the bathroom was free if you needed in."
” ’M fine, Love. Thanks, though.“ He removed his feet from the ottoman, and rubbed the back of his neck, a number of empty beer bottles falling from his lap and onto the carpet below.
”… I swear I only 'member grabbin’ one.“
”… You go upstairs, okay? I’ll put you to bed.“ You bent down and started picking up the bottles.
Roger, who was on his feet, and turning the corner, stopped to watch you. He counted every bottle you picked up off the floor.
The higher the number, the guiltier he felt.
By the time you picked up five, Roger was already gone, upstairs and changing into some nighttime clothes.
He blindly chose his clothes, the combination being a pair of checkered pants and a Rolling Stones t-shirt.
He didn’t even bother trying to make an effort to get up and brush his teeth. He just climbed into bed and shut his eyes.
But as promised, you walked into his room, and sat on his bed.
”… Roger, you know I didn’t hear the faucet running.“
That’s how easily convincing you were to him: Seconds later Roger was in the blinding luminescent light of the bathroom, you sitting behind him on the edge of the bathtub as he drunkenly brushed his teeth.
"Spit, rinse, and I’ll meet you in the room.” You rubbed his back gently before leaving him alone in the room.
Roger removed the brush from his mouth, and stared at himself in the mirror, toothpaste froth lining his lips and dripping down his chin in an almost comedic manner.
Roger thought the froth kind of looked like facial hair. He even giggled a little at the idea of him maybe one day having a beard.
But then his smile disappeared, and he wiped his mouth off. Although he remembered only drinking one, he knew why he drank so much more.
Those thoughts about you were returning. The more time he spent with you, the more giddy he’d feel, and the more close he’d want to get.
Roger wondered how he used to be able to teasingly slap your ass and make sexual jokes with you all the time without feeling at the very least flustered with his own actions.
He did it in front of the band all the time when you were around, but it was like he was in high school again.
He always had the urge to kiss you at least once before he died. The constant suppression over the last few years buried that urge six feet under, but it seemed the suppression wasn’t working anymore.
What if, Roger thought, this would be different? He technically had no reason to suppress any feelings he had towards you; well, maybe except for dignity purposes, but that was all.
What if luck and pre-destiny existed, and his chance to be with you just so happened to be now, under these awkward circumstances that would overall result in a blissful future with nothing but happiness…
But why would someone like her want to be with someone like you?
With the depressing thought hanging over him like an obedient rain cloud, he shut the bathroom light off, and moped to his room, where you sat in wait.
You helped Roger climb into bed, and you tucked him in, kissing his forehead like a child.
“If you need me in the night, you know where I am, Blondie.”
Roger nodded, and mumbled his good nights to you before rolling over.
When his bedroom door closed, Roger opened his eyes despite not being able to see anything in the room.
He blinked.
At the beginning of this commitment, pretending to be with you seemed like a piece of cake to him…
… But Roger didn’t know how much longer it would be until his behaviour towards you wasn’t pretend anymore.
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A/A/N: Wow, This is a lot longer than I expected it to be, but I’m glad this part is done. I think I may write in Roger’s perspective more in this fic because he’s got lots of shit running through his mind, clearly. What are y’all’s opinions though?
Anywho, enjoy this, I’m gonna go find something to inspire me for the next chapter.
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I’ve been sleeping on Deaky so much and I’d like personally apologize
Ok, so I was reading this news story:
So far so normal, right? But then:
Like what. And then:
Like, I think Alaska State Trooper Ken Marsh wants to be a romance novelist.
My therapist- John Lennon saying and I oop- as George squeezes passed him in the 60s isn't real, it cant hurt you
John Lennon saying and i oop- as George squeezes passed him in the 60s-
Incorrect Far Cry 5 Quotes
The saga continues [ x ]
I hate when I look up how old the Beatles were during a huge turning point in their career and it’s some fuckass age like 22
My brain: It’s 4am and I need to go to sleep
Also my brain: BACK IN THE USSR YOU DON’T KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE BOY took my love away though he’ll regret it someday you’ll know I was the one but tomorrow may rain so I’ll follow the sun doo doo doo doo here comes the sun and I say its alright little DARLING IF YOU LEAVE ME I’LL NEVER MAKE IT ALONE for so many years father snores as his wife gets into her dressing gown picks up the letter sEnD mY lOvE tO yOu would you promise to be true and help I NEED SOMEBODY HELP! NOT JUST ANYBODY HELP! YOU KNOW I NEED SOMEONE to love you’re the one that I’d be thinking of if I needed someone if I had some more time to spend then I guess I’d be with you YEAH YEAH YEAH SHE LOVES YOU YEAH YEAH YEAH WITH A LOVE and that is all but it’s so hard loving you NEED IS LOVE *trumpets sound* ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE her bright are the stars that shine dark is the sky I know this love eVeRyBoDy tElLs mE sO cAn’T bUy mE lOvE you and all I want you to do is just hold me please PLEASE ME WHOA YEAH LIKE I PLEASE YOU want a revolutiooonnn weellll you knoooww we all want to change the world is round it turns me ooooonnn the bed listen to the music playing in your heaAAAAD They look just like two gurus in drag CHRIST you know it ain’t easy you know how hard it can be let it be let it be let it be whisper words you long to hear IIIIIIMMM in love with you Where did you go I thought I knew you what gOeS oN iN yOuR hEaRt No no this I can’t believe she’s gonna tear your heart apart no no I mEaN yEs bUt iT’s aLl I have to do is think of her something in the things she told when she was young that pain would lead to pleasure? did she understand it when they said our goodbyes AAAAH the night before love was in your eyes And she’s GONE DUH DUH DUH LUcy in the skyyyy is blue it’s beautiful and so are you know it’s tHrEe wEeKs I’m GOIN INSANE you know I’d give you everything I’ve got for if I ever saw you I didn’t catch your name but it never really mattered I will always feel the same love you should see her in drag dressed in her polythene bag yes you should see Your face I tried to telephone they said you were not home When I’m getting home toNIGHTI’m gonna hold HOLD me tight ME TIGHT Tonight TONIGHT tonight TONIGHT it’s you, you you you Can drive my car yes I’m gonna be a star oUt oF mE iT’s gOnNa bE aBoUt A mAn WHO SAILED TO SEA in an octopus’s garden in the Wooorrrdd and you’ll be free say the fool on the hill sees the sun king here comes the World going by my window taking my EARS AND IN MY EYES THERE BENEATH THE girl that’s driving me mad is going away AAAaaah she’s Just the girl for me and I want all the world To look having read the book I’d love to tuuuuurn yooooouu oooooonnn and on across the universe thoughts meander like a feeling, A FEELIN I CAN’T HIDE your love away HEY you’ve got to GET YOU INTO MY LIFE I’ll love you more in myyyy life I’ll love yooooouuu mooorrreeee
“We have begun the Reaping, begun the preparation of our life during the Collapse. The Father tells us that God will salt this earth for seven years and only after will his New Eden grow. Those unprepared will descend into madness but we will thrive, for I have claimed every part of this valley in the name of the Father. The food, the supplies and the people now belong to the Project at Eden’s Gate. If they are not handed over willingly they will be taken by force. If you try to fight, try to resist - you will be purged. But if you open your hearts to the Project at Eden’s Gate, if you share your bounty with us we will protect you from the calamity to come. All are welcome in our garden. You just have to say “yes”.”
I'm sorry I've been inactive. This quarantine is kicking my ass, and I've had no motivation. It's all coming back, now though, so y'all should expect a new TCND chapter soon.
So, I'm also a massive Beatles fan and I watched Across The Universe (one of my faves) last night baked as hell and now I have inspiration to write about some of the Bug Boys. I just wanted to know what Y'all would think about me expanding my writing to more than one character. (Trust me, I love Rogie, but I also wanna see who else I'm capable of writing as)
Thank you all for your patience ❤❤
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