Will I Feel Like This Once I Already Do It?

will i feel like this once i already do it?

should i plan it or should i just leave it to the air? i think the first one bc, if you plan it, you can be careful and be sure you're doing it with someone that will not hurt you. we are all human and wanting to reproduce it's natural, we have to stop shaming that. the worst part is that we then call women that do it sluts or whores... fucking why??? it doesn't only affect her but also the other girls and women that see how she's being shamed and now prefer to abstain themselves from doing it bc they don't want to be bullied or harassed