It Shouldn’t Have Hurt That Bad // 3.8.2017

THIS HURTS MORE THAN I IMAGINED IT WOULD

It hurts me how demonized schizophrenics are and how it is often seen as one of the most frightening disorders by families and even doctors...

And it frustrates me how many assumptions and lack of information and misinformation there is out there on schizophrenia, and how not much light is being shed on trying to understand this disease at all in the slightest really in a helpful or moving forward type of way. Not even really helping families understand the illnesss schizophrenia as well as professionals and even teachers, way more people should be able to assess a mental health crisis or know how to help a mentally ill person/persons

People always are so quick to try to assume what you hear or see if you hallucinate things even the professionals also assume for themselves and they make it out that it's the worst or that's it's gonna be exclusively frightening or only very bad when this is not always 100% the case.

Schizophrenics symptoms are all unique SCHIZO SYMPTOMS ARE ALL UNIQUE...

You can actually have good hallucinations and positive voices or supportive voices in or outside your head. You can also see or hallucinate things that you feel are comforting to you and that are helpful to you.

When I was young I used to see characters I liked in shows walking with me at school and stuff they would talk to me. I've been hearing voices for as long as I can remember but since 12 years old that's when they became the most noticeable from that point on I had assumed everyone heard voices. I was soon to discover that most people don't hear them but I still do hear them to this day.

I'm 23 years old I still hear my voices which are positive and from the particular shows I used to watch during periods of trauma, but maybe that's why they've stuck with me.

I love talking to the voices inside of my own head they often sound to me as if I have my own commentary always set on or something because they often only comment on my every move and thought and emotion or what have you

All I'm saying is you don't have to have 100% bad, scary or frightening hallucinations to be schizophrenic or psychotic you can also experience good and positive and even comforting hallucinations and or symptoms of psychosis for sure...

what you did to me ripped me apart.  it destroyed everything inside me.  the damage you did cant be reversed

i'm tired of just distracting myself from this pain. i want it to just end.

I have decided that nothing is embarrassing and now I'm even crazier than before

(1/?)

i was trying to better understand my fear of men, and then i realized it’s like

when you touch a stove your brain remembers it’s hot and so you are afraid of touching stoves

but my brain messed up somewhere along the way, and im afraid of the whole damn kitchen.

due to personal reasons i need a hug