So Glad I Was Able To Make It To The March Today! Happy Pride Month! #ablm #blm #lgbtq

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Commissions and Patreon

Hi guys!

I’ve decided that I should start trying to earn a little money so….

I’m opening commissions as well as a Patreon!

Mind you, I’ve never done this before.. I’ve always had a ko-fi, but I’ve never really talked about it because truly I do most of this for the joy of writing. However, especially with how much money my family has lost with this covid-19 stuff, I guess it’d be a good time to start.

Here are the guidelines for both my commissions and patreon!

Commissions (Writing):

$5 for each 500 words

$6 if smut is included (yes, smut is available for commission only)

Must be 18 to request smut

I will write just about anything (underage smut and ABO fics are a hard no from me, others will be discussed)

This will take priority over any former requests I have as well as deadlines for writing challenges

Send an ask if you’re interested in a commission and I will message you

Patreon:

Must be 18+ to join!

I have no real way to enforce this but there will likely be smut and I do NOT want to have charges pressed against me. Please be honest and have courtesy for my future as well as yours.

I will try my hardest to get 2 oneshots a month (In August, I will go back to being a full time student)

Some oneshots/series will likely include smut

Patrons will have the option to participate in polls to help decide what I write next

The first 3 people to join will get the opportunity to request oneshots that will be made and also posted on Patreon

Patrons will have access to some of my photography as well

When I start my podcast, Patrons will get access to exclusive episodes in addition to have the opportunity to be featured, ask questions, etc

Become a Patron here

There is no pressure to join any of this, I just wanted to make that clear. I’m still going to be giving content on here per usual. People who choose commissions and patreon will get exclusive content that I will not be sharing elsewhere.

Also please signal boost :)

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amazonianbeauty

6 years ago

endgame steve after a few days: yeah so…peggy actually dumped me after like three months bc she realized we weren’t That compatible After having to spend more than Like. 15 minutes at a time together…and eventually married her actual husband..and had kids. so that’s why the timeline didn’t separate! but i got stranded with no WiFi for 50 years bc i didnt have any more pym particles

sam: bro. What?

steve: I got the ring from the dollar store on the way over here bc i didn’t wanna look dumb :/

bucky: that ships BEEN sailed bro

sam: bro. WHAT?

steve: at one point i almost got polio bc i forgot i never got vaccinated

sam and bucky:

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amazonianbeauty

3 years ago

"Being Wrong"

Series List

Avengers AU

Bucky x Dot, Bucky x reader, Steve x Reader

Summary: Being with him was wrong, he has someone waiting for him. Being wrong felt so good, till it didn't. And when it all goes bad there's someone there to gently pick up the pieces.

Warnings: cheating, smut, NO UNDER 18

**************

Chapters:

1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 //

Updated: Aug 12th

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amazonianbeauty

2 years ago

The Lion's Mouth IV

Summary: You were forced to marry your father’s boss and head of the most powerful mafia family in the region, Andy Barber. After your violent wedding night you flee and go into hiding, knowing Andy will never stop hunting you. As you run from one danger, you fall right into the clutches of another.

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3

Pairings: Dark!Mob!Andy Barber x Reader; Mob!Lloyd Hansen x Reader; brief Peter Parker x Reader

Series Warnings: Non-con, age gap, human trafficking, mentions of sex slavery, arranged marriage, stalking, kidnapping, domestic violence, virginity loss, murder, violence, prostitution, group sex, references to drug use and selling, drug use, pussy slapping, coercion, more to be added

Word Count: 3.5k

18+ ONLY - MINORS DO NOT INTERACT

Andy gently grabbed your hand and shut the door while you begged Carlyle and Big Riche to let you go.

“Look at me,” he told you softly as he put one hand on your cheek and wiped your tears away with his thumb, “Let’s go talk outside in the backyard, okay?”

You tearfully looked over at your family and your father’s jaw was clenched as he glowered at Andy. Your mother however had her hands on her hips with pursed lips and looked at you as if you were a misbehaving child. Leo just sneered at you as he leaned against the wall.

“Come on, sugar,” Andy instructed as he led you through the house to sit outside.

He pulled up a chair for you next to one of the round glass tables and sat in front of you. Andy grabbed your trembling hands in his and rubbed your palms.

“Listen, I know you must be freaked out right now, and I understand that,” he frowned, “but you don’t have anything to be afraid of. I’ll treat you well, just like I did Laurie.”

“I’m not afraid,” you gulped as your hands still shook, “I don’t know you. I don’t want you. You’re - you’re taking away my choice - my future!”

Andy let out a low growl and closed his eyes momentarily before speaking again, “I am not taking away your future, Y/N. I’m giving you a better one. And you’ll learn to love me.”

You scoffed at him and ripped your hands away. You crossed your arms over your chest and glared at him. Yes, you were afraid, but you were also furious.

“I’m not doing this,” you challenged him, “You can’t make me.”

Andy cocked his head to the side and gave you a crooked smile, “Sugar, that’s not how things work in our world. It’s already been decided, but I’m going to try my best to make this transition easy for you. Although I can only give you so much time.”

You furrowed your brow at that, “...so much time.”

“What does that mean? So much time?”

Andy sighed and stood up. His large frame towered over you as he ran his knuckles up and down your cheek, “There are expectations you need to meet and not just mine.”

“But -”

Andy shushed you and put his finger against your lips, “As for not knowing me, we’re going to spend a few weeks away after the engagement party to change that. I have a private island where it’ll just be you and me, sugar. It’ll be great. I promise.”

A few weeks away, alone, with Andy? With nowhere to run? That made your blood run cold and terrified you.

“And what do you expect…then?” you asked him, almost a whisper, knowing full well what the answer would be.

His hand moved so that he could rub your lower lip, “We can get to know each other in every way.”

Sleeping with Andy, him being the first man to even kiss you made your stomach churn. You got up instantly and bolted back into the house upstairs to your bathroom to empty the meager contents of your stomach. You dry heaved at the idea of him touching you and then leaned against the bathroom wall when you were done. You panted, your heart slamming against your chest as your head reeled trying to comprehend what was happening.

You grabbed your phone with shaky hands and dialed Peter. He picked up after only two trills.

“Peter, Peter,” you whispered frantically, “Peter, please come get me. Please come now.”

“Okay, okay, I’m coming now,” he said hurriedly, you could hear the panic in his voice, “I’ll be right there, I promise.”

“Don’t come to the front, there are people outside watching,” you instructed him, “Do you remember when you helped sneak me out to the bonfire?”

You heard Peter grab his keys and head out the door, “Down the lattice by your window, yeah. Don’t worry. Don’t worry.”

“Okay, please hurry.”

~~~

“They can’t do this!” Peter yelled as he paced around the room and ran his hands through his hair, “There’s no way, Y/N - I’m sure - I’m sure this is illegal.”

“Peter, please keep your voice down,” you said as you sat curled around a pillow. You didn’t want to disturb his Aunt May. Despite how much you loved her, she was a bit nosey.

Peter sat next to you and grabbed your hand. He looked at you with determination burning his eyes, “We’re going to figure something out, Y/N. You’re not going to marry that bastard. You’re not.”

You sniffled and rested your head against the pillow, “I don’t know what to do, Peter. I’m scared.”

He wrapped his arms around you tightly and pulled you into him. Peter was the only one who offered you what you needed that night – comfort. You felt safe with him and buried your face into his chest as he rocked you. He kissed the top of your head and tucked your hair behind your ears.

“Do you want something to drink?” he offered, “I still have that shitty schnapps I stole from May the other week.”

You chuckled lightly and gave him a weak smile, “Yeah, I would like that…and can we watch Peppa Pig?”

“We can do anything you want,” he said as he got off the bed.

Peter grabbed the bottle of schnapps and handed it to you. You took a swig and contorted your face from the burn. He handed you some boxers and a t-shirt for you to change into for the night before heading downstairs. Peter came back a few minutes later with a plate of reheated pizza and handed it to you.

“You told me you couldn’t eat earlier, so I figured you were hungry.”

You’d already felt buzzed from your first few swigs and had forgotten that you didn’t eat. Of course Peter remembered that. You scarfed the pizza down ravenously as Peter changed into his pajamas. He brought over his laptop and pulled up your favorite episode.

He sat against the headboard and you leaned against his chest between his legs as you continued eating. He wrapped his arms around you and it made you feel more at home than when you were at your parents’ house.

“I love you, Pee pee parker.”

“I love you too, Y/N.”

~~~

Andy’s nostrils flared as he glared at Scarlet and held out the small velvet box with your engagement ring in it.

“Put it on, Y/N,” he commanded her as he choked back his tears, “Now!”

Scarlet jumped and grabbed the ring to hastily put it on her finger. Andy had offered to pay her double that night for his “special” request. She wore the designer dress that he had purchased for your engagement party. The one for you would be delivered tomorrow. Her hair was pinned up with a few coils framing her face exactly as instructed.

“It’s just an act. It’s just an act,” she repeated to herself over and over to try and assuage her fear, “The money will be worth it.”

Andy’s eyes stung with tears of anger and hurt as he glared at her. How dare you try to reject him. Him.

He pointed at the ground in front of him, his voice quavering, “Come here.”

Scarlet cautiously walked up to Andy with her hands clasped in front of her and her gaze submissively at the ground. She shook like a leaf from the rage radiating off Andy.

“Look at me when I’m speaking to you,” he gritted out, “Don’t stare at the fucking floor.”

When she looked up at him and Andy instantly backhanded her, sending her flying to the ground. She grabbed her cheek and looked up at him in shock as she tried to back away quickly. Andy loosened his tie and stalked towards her. He grabbed her ankle and dragged her towards him roughly.

She clawed at the floor and shrieked, “No! Mr. Barber, please! I don’t want to do this anymore! I don’t want to do this anymore! You can keep the money!”

Andy yanked her up by her hair to face him, “What did I say about calling me Mr. Barber, Y/N? Hm? Or are you too fucking stupid to remember?”

Scarlet stared up at him wide-eyed in terror, her lower lip trembling, “I’m sorry, Andy…”

“Good.”

He picked her up and threw her over his shoulder. Scarlet hit Andy's back as she tried to fight his grip. He flung her down onto the bed and pounced on top of her. He grabbed her wrists tightly and tied them to the bedframe with his tie.

“Stop!” Scarlet cried as he tore open her dress and ripped off her underwear, “Andy, please!”

Andy’s eyes were black with rage and lust. His tongue darted out to lick his lower lip as his thumb started to rub circles around her bundle of nerves. Scarlet’s body jerked at the sensation and he smacked her pussy hard in response.

“Stop it, Y/N,” he growled at her, “Be a good girl and I might just let you cum.”

Scarlet let out a soft sob as he slapped her cunt again and again, before he crawled up her body. He gave her a rough claiming kiss as he held her jaw tightly.

“Open your mouth,” he ordered as he pulled away.

She obeyed with a whimper, opening her jaw wide before Andy spat in her mouth. She flinched but then promptly swallowed it before he even told her too.

He smiled and kissed her on the forehead, “Good girl.”

He ran his hands roughly up and down her body as he stared at her lecherously. He grabbed the soft flesh of one of her breasts and then twisted her nipple hard. She squealed and tried twisting out of her restraints.

“Uh uh,” he chided her sternly, whacking her tit, “Y/N, are you going to be my good girl?”

“Yes, Andy,” she eked out as tears streamed down her face like a waterfall.

“Good girl,” he murmured before gently kissing her on the forehead.

He sat on his heels and started to rub her clit again slowly with his thumb. A small whine escaped her lips and Andy smirked. He added more pressure and her body tensed as the circles he made against her quickened. Scarlet’s breath became uneven and her pussy quivered as Andy brought her closer and closer to her peak. Her hands gripped her silky restraints as she started to arch her back. Then Andy stopped as she was near the orgasm.

Andy removed his clothing and grabbed a condom from the nightstand. He pushed Scarlet’s leg’s wider with his muscular thighs and lined up with her slick entrance. He kissed the tears from her face gently as he prodded her folds.

“You have no idea how much I’ve wanted this, Y/N.” he rasped huskily into her ear before pushing his large thick cock into her with one slow thrust.

He groaned and his body trembled as he closed his eyes, imagining that he was inside of you instead of Scarlet. He started to move and buried his face in her hair. She could feel his hot breath against her neck as pounded into her.

“I can be so good to you, Y/N,” he grunted as he snapped his hips, “if you just stop being such a spoiled little bitch and a cock tease.”

Scarlet squeezed her eyes shut as he continued speaking to her as if she were you. She tried to block out his voice and focus on how his large veiny cock massaged her inner walls to finally orgasm. Andy gave her a sharp smack on the face.

“Eyes on me, sugar. Eyes on me,” he moaned as he wrapped his hand around her jaw, “I wanna watch you come apart on my dick.”

“Can you do that for me? Can you cum for me, sugar?”

Andy moved a hand down to grab Scarlet by one of her ass cheeks and pressed her against him to drive even deeper. She tossed her head back at the new angle as Andy gazed down at her eagerly watching. She quivered around him and he rutted into her faster and harder. The sounds of her squelching pussy drove him wild and it took everything in him to not cum right then.

Her body began to tense around him as her breathing became uneven. Scarlet’s body shook and she clenched around Andy like a vise. Her nails dug into her restraints as her back arched off the bed and her thighs tightened around Andy’s hips.

“That’s it, Y/N. Cream all over my cock,” he panted, “Good girl. That’s it. Good girl.”

He hammered into her frantically to chase his own release, “Tell me you love me. Fuck! Tell me you love me!”

“I love you, Andy,” Scarlet moaned in almost whimper, “I love you.”

“I love you so much, sugar.” Andy groaned as he came. His body shivered as he fell on top of her, “You’re so fucking perfect.”

After a few minutes he finally got up and untied her hands. Scarlet winced as she rubbed her bruised wrists and then wiped the remaining tears from her face. Andy looked at her remorsefully before pulling her into him and laying down. He stroked her hair gently and gave her a soft kiss on the lips.

“I’m so sorry I did that, Y/N,” Andy apologized, “You know how crazy I am about you.”

~~~

The house bustled with courier after courier delivering flowers, jewelry, shoes, purses, and clothing to your house from Andy. Designer shopping bags littered the middle of your living room. Your mother was still asleep, but Leo and your father were awake to collect the extravagant gifts.

Leo rolled his eyes as the bags kept coming, “She’s not even going to appreciate this, dad.”

Your father looked at him incredulously, “Cut her a little slack, Leo,” he scolded him, “This is a big adjustment.”

“Hah,” he scoffed at his father, “She’s going from being your ‘princess’ to Andy’s. That’s hardly a huge adjustment.”

Your father pinched the bridge of his nose and took a deep breath to calm himself, “Leo -”

“No, dad! You know I’m right. All she has to do is this one thing for our family and she doesn’t want to. You know that I’d do anything for us.”

Your father shook his head and walked away from Leo with a huff. Your father loved you with all his heart and it was no secret that you were his favorite. But your mom was right. Andy didn’t have to offer your family anything in exchange. He could have just taken you and your father wouldn’t have been able to refuse. Andy’s offer was merely an attempt to soften the blow.

“Princess,” your father gently called to you as he knocked on your door, “You awake?”

He knocked a little louder but you didn’t answer. He slowly turned the handle to peep inside and walked towards your bed. He was about to gently shake you when he realized something was wrong and flipped back the covers to find pillows instead. He looked and saw the window open, your curtains billowing from the wind.

He sat down on your bed and put his head in his hands. He knew you ran away to Peter’s house and would need to come get you. He cleared his throat and wiped a few tears from his eyes to clean himself up. He hated every part of this, but didn’t know what he could do that wouldn’t end terribly for all of you.

“Leo, come here,” he called from the top of the stairs, “Quick! Now!”

Leo dashed up the stairs and your father signaled him to be quiet.

“Your sister is gone,” he whispered, “I’m going to run out and grab her. Do not tell your mother. If she asks questions, just say that I went out to run some errands with her.”

Leo sucked his teeth as he ran his hands through her hair, “I’ll go and get her, dad. Peter’s I assume? It’ll look suspicious if you leave alone and the security sees you come back with her. Andy will know she ran.”

“And how will you going to get her solve that?”

“They won’t question why I’m leaving and I’ll sneak her back in through the window.”

Your father paused as he contemplated Leo’s offer. He knew you two didn’t get along and was worried he would fuck this up.

“Dad, let me do this, please,” Leo argued with him, “Let me fix this.”

“Fine,” your father relented, “Be quick about it, son. Don’t screw this up or we’re all fucked.”

Leo grumbled to himself as he walked down the stairs to grab his keys and go collect you. He waved at the two men who were watching your house for your family’s “safety”. He tapped on his steering wheel frustratedly before pulling over two blocks away from your house. He opened up his glove compartment to pull out a little vial of cocaine and did a bump.

“Don’t fuck this up, Leo,” he imitated his father as he started driving again, “How about Y/N not fuck this up? Her and fucking princess bullshit!”

He continued angrily ranting to himself until he pulled into Peter’s driveway. He checked himself in the mirror to make sure he didn’t look high before approaching the door.

Aunt May answered with her usual warm smile, “Leo! So great to see you!” she reached out to bring him in for a hug.

“Fuck!” Leo thought to himself. He’d always had the hots for her for years even though she was older.

“Is Y/N here?” he feigned ignorance, “She was really upset by something last night and ran off. I’ve never seen her that way.”

“You know what, she is here and she was just so distraught when I saw her last night. Do you know what happened?” May asked with genuine concern.

“We don’t know,” Leo shook his head and lied, “That’s what we’re trying to find out. I came to take her home. My parents are worried sick.”

“Oh, sweetheart,” she clutched her chest and looked at him sympathetically, “I’ll go get her right now. Just a moment.”

A few minutes later as you trudged down the stairs slowly in defeat. You clutched your backpack as Peter stood at the bottom of the steps. His eyes narrowed at Leo and his fists clenched at his sides. He was seething and nearly shaking with rage.

“Y/N! Oh my god!” Leo rushed towards you and pulled you into a suffocating hug.

“Do not make a fucking scene,” he whispered menacingly in your ear so that no one else could hear, “You're going to get in the fucking car and we're going home.”

Leo’s words sent a chill down your spine. You looked back at him devastated, your lower lip beginning to tremble, but you pulled yourself together.

“I have to go now,” you said quietly to Aunt May and Peter, “I’ll be okay. Thank you for having me.”

“Any time, sweetheart,” she told with her arms wrapped around peter.

You gave Peter one last look before turning reluctantly to leave with your brother. Leo said nothing to you as he backed out of the driveway to make your way home. You only made it a few blocks before he started viciously scolding you.

“What in the fuck were you thinking, Y/N? Huh? You want to fuck this up for all of us?!”

“You’re not the one who has to marry someone you don’t love! Some fucking old pervert!”

Leo angrily clutched his steering wheel and his cheek twitched, “You are so selfish. Do you know that? Dad fucking coddled you. Even mom agrees.”

“I’m fucking selfish?! I’m fucking selfish?!” you looked back at him wild eyed.

He turned to you barely looking at the road, “Do you think I wanted to go to fucking law school? Fuck no! But I went because I knew what dad did for a living and that he’d need me. He’d need me to protect us,” he seethed resentfully, “I did that for our family. I did. That’s because I care. I do what it takes – And you – you just fucking –”

“ –then why don’t you fuck Andy?!” you snarled at him, “If you’re so eager to jump on his dick!”

“Because that’s your job,” Leo responded coldly.

You snapped and started hitting him and screaming at him, “FUCK YOU, LEO! FUCK YOU!”

The car swerved dangerously as he tried to get you off of him, “ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY?! YOU’RE GONNA KILL US!”

You grabbed the steering wheel and he accidentally elbowed you in the face. He got the car under control as you wiped under your nose and saw blood.

“You made me do that,” he quickly said without an ounce of remorse as he stared at the road, “That was your fault.”

You were taken aback by his behavior and curled away from him to your side of the car. You were both quiet for the rest of the drive. You would have cried then and there, but you had no more tears left. Leo slowly pulled up behind your neighbor’s house and leaned over to open the passenger door.

“Better get to climbing, princess.”

Chapter 5

Taglist: @eralen, @rededfoxy, @straywords, @rebekahdawkins, @daniphantom1, @kellhems, @buckysteveloki-me, @before-we-get-started, @rose-bliss, @alexakeyloveloki, @patzammit, @charmed-asylum

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amazonianbeauty

5 years ago

VERY ODD. If you like women to be covered up and low key, why wouldn’t you just go for the women that like being covered up and low key??? Why would you purposely go after a woman that is the complete opposite, ask her to be your significant other, then try to change her to fit what you want????

And they say it’s women that don’t know what they want 🙄🤦🏾‍♀️.

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amazonianbeauty

2 years ago

Resources for Writing Mob AUs

Writing Tips from @mynotsoawesomescenarios

More Writing Tips from @creativepromptsforwriting

Resources for Writing the Mafia collected by @yoondoze

Mobs from Around the World, source: Wikipedia

More about Various Mob Organizations

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amazonianbeauty

5 years ago

It Happened

Chapter 2: Before the Storm

Word Count: 4638

The walk to your room was worse than any walk of shame you could have ever imagined, your legs felt like lead with your stomach in knots. You had to hold on to the wall to steady yourself on the way there. When you finally made it to your destination, you closed the door and collapsed to the floor curling into a ball and crying. You hated yourself for cheating, disgracing your vows, and most of all for betraying Steve. You felt the bile rise into your throat and made a dash to the bathroom, not sure if it was pregnancy hormones or your guilt taking over but you were hugging the porcelain hard.

After 10 minutes of vomiting everything your stomach had to give, you stepped into the shower replaying everything that had happened. The thoughts eating away at your resolve brought on a new wave of tears, that then made you turn the water temperature up until it was stinging as it hit your body, vigorously you scrubbed your skin with the soap and washcloth as if that would wash away your sin. After the tears had subsided, you toweled off, brushed your teeth and crawled into bed. Steve’s scent hit your nose as you lay down on a pillow, God was it torture, bringing on another round of tears making you cry yourself to sleep. You spent the rest of that day and night periodically crying and sleeping off the headaches that followed your bouts of tears.

In between the space of being awake and asleep, you felt warm and secure in bed, snuggling backward into the arms you were enveloped in, a familiar voice whispered into your ear.

“Good morning wife”, Steve spoke, you could feel him smiling into your skin.

You turned around and sat up, you looked Steve over and touched his face, your fingertips trembling as they lightly ghosted over his lips. “It’s you Daddy.” You smiled at him teary-eyed, pouncing to grab him in a tight hug. Steve chuckled and kissed the top of your head, “Yea it’s me baby, who else would it be?” Your eyes shot up to his and your smile faltered, of course, because of your husband’s acute senses he didn’t miss a beat. “Sweets, what’s wrong?” his eyes showing you the beginning glimpses of worry. “Nothing my love, I’m just so glad your back, and I missed you.” He gazes into your eyes and cup’s your cheek, “I missed you too baby.”

You lean into to kiss him and he meets you halfway, he quickly takes over the kiss. Your tongues tangle with each other, then Steve lays you down placing passionate kisses up and down your body. You want him so badly, to taste his skin and his essence, to feel him inside, for you souls to connect on that deeper level again as if that can erase your misdeed. You know you must come clean, the longer you wait the worse it will be, but you can’t bear to tell him now. You don’t want to ruin his homecoming and the moment. Your heart settles with your mind that you will tell him soon, and then you give yourself fully to the moment. When Steve makes it back up your body, you turn him over so he lands on his back against the mattress. You kiss him deeply, and move down to his neck, placing sloppy open mouth kisses along the way. You never did bother with leaving passion marks on Steve, his super-soldier healing factor made such minor bruises disappear within minutes. He sat up and squeezed your supple breasts together with his hands, suckling each nipple and making you quiver.

You bring his chin up and kiss him again, as you lean your body into him to get him to lay back in bed. You move down his body quickly and take his cock into your hand before he can try to sit up again. You place innocent teasing kisses on to the tip and shaft. Looking up at him briefly through your lashes, you see the big beautiful grin you fell in love with smack dab on his face. Yes, you love to see that grin, but that isn’t what you're striving for here. You give him a naughty smile, and turn your attention back to his cock. Stroking it slowly as you lick the tip like a scoop of ice cream on a cone. His hips jerk upward at the feel of your warm tongue against him, and you know you’re headed in the right direction. You took him into your mouth, sucking on him as your hand went up and down his shaft. His hands tried to make their way into your hair as he pushed up into your mouth. You took the hint and went further down on his cock making your nose touch the skin at the base of his cock. Steve groaned loudly, sitting up to pull you from his cock. He rolled to his side, got up on his knees and pulled you flush against his bodied. You could feel his stiffness touching your hip, Steve whispered into your ear, “Get on your hands and knees kitten.” You giggled and kissed him before quickly moving down to the edge of the bed, arching your back with your booty propped up in the air like a bitch in heat. God did you love it when Steve took you from behind, you could feel all of him in this position and he loved the way your ass looked bouncing back after every hit from his pelvis.

Steve came up behind you, rubbing his hands up your thighs to your ass and gave both cheeks firm squeezes, he lined his cock up with your entrance and pushed in slowly. You tremble as you feel him enter you, he grips your shoulders and whispers into your ear, “Tell me if it’s too much, okay?” Steve always the caring and concerned lover, always made sure you were alright every step of the way. You nod your head in response. He pulls out slightly and slams back into your cunt. A high pitched mewl escapes your mouth, matching Steve’s groan at the impact. Steve picks up the pace quickly, pounding into your wet cunt. You feel his grip tighten on your waist and shoulder, as he works out the tension he’s held from the mission on your body.

As husband and wife, having sex was always like this after each mission and you didn’t mind when Steve took you this way. It saved Tony from having to buy as many punching bag replacements and you got to see Steve’s true carnal side. No one got to see this side of him, with Steve having to carry the weight of prestige that followed being America’s Golden boy. You felt it your duty as his wife to indulge him when this side came out, it was full of raw, unbridled passion. The position, the emotions released, all of it mattered, it was your way of submitting to your husband and letting him know that you were there to help carry his burdens. You felt your orgasm coming quickly, drawing you out of your thoughts. The wave hit you making you scream his name over and over until you were gasping for air. Steve followed right behind, feeling your cunt gripping his cock, he pushed in further holding you steady as he unloaded into you. You collapsed with him catching himself on his hands above you and rolling over to his side facing you. He pulled you into his arms and kissed you deeply, then pulled back and searched your eyes to make sure you were alright. You smiled and nodded back at him, reassuring him everything was alright.

Steve fell asleep quickly, but you sat awake laying on his chest. Your short mental reprieve gone and the reality of your situation flooding your mind. You knew you would have to tell Steve about your infidelity, but you were scared. As you should be, you knew how Steve operated on the right side of things at all times. Cheating was wrong in a relationship, he’d told you that many times when comforting you after you and Bucky’s break up. Now that you and Steve were married, you knew it was going to hit ten times worse, and with it being his best friend (twenty times worse), who was also your ex (thirty times worse).

"I am so screwed", you thought to yourself.

You’re not sure when you fell asleep, but you wake up the next morning to Steve’s sweet kisses and wet hair nuzzling into your neck.

“Good morning kitten.” Steve said as he gazed into your still sleep-filled eyes. You smiled and rubbed his hair, “Good morning Daddy.” Steve kissed you and pulled the covers back, causing you to sit up slightly and give him a curious look.

“Come on kitten we have to get up, the whole team is having breakfast together this morning to kind of unwind from the mission and we have 10 minutes to get ready.”

You got up from the bed and walked into the bathroom, turning on the shower and hopping in. Steve came in a minute later and began combing his hair in the mirror.

“Kitten did you go to the infirmary while we were gone, you look like you’re feeling a lot better than you did when we left,” Steve said.

You suddenly remembered that you had forgotten to tell Steve about the pregnancy. You decided that now wasn’t a good time, you still needed to tell Steve about you cheating on him. So, you held back the good news for now, because depending on your husband's reaction to the bad news, you weren’t entirely sure the pregnancy would be considered good news.

"Because there’s nothing worse than finding out your ex is pregnant with your child", you thought.

"Yea they said it was a stomach bug…just a little 24-hour thing.” You said nervously over the glass door, thankful that it was frosted glass, so Steve couldn’t see the frown on your face.

“Well I’m glad you’re feeling better, I didn’t even think to ask you last night before I took you,” Steve said shaking his head at his lack of oversight.

You stuck your head out of the glass door, “Steve please don’t send yourself on an undeserved guilt trip. If I wasn’t feeling well, I would have told you.” You smiled at Steve hoping to erase whatever guilt he was trying to build up.

Steve looked up at you and smiled, “Somehow I doubt you would have.”

You smiled mischievously at Steve, “Well, I can understand your doubt because Lord knows I do love it when you take me.” You winked and bit your lower lip, causing Steve’s eyes to narrow in lust. Just as you were about to step out of the shower towards Steve, he crossed the space quickly and shut the shower door.

“Hey!” you squeaked out looking at Steve in shock.

Steve smiled and shook his finger at you, “Oh no kitten, we are not about to be late to breakfast.”

You rolled your eyes and turned your back to Steve, “Fine, spoilsport. I’ll be out in 5.”

“Good girl.” Steve said, “I’ll be waiting in the living room.”

You finished washing up, then went to brush your teeth and wash your face. Looking at yourself in the mirror, your eyes darted away from your face. Unable to look at the adulterer staring back at you. You went into your bedroom and got dressed, then walked into the living room to meet Steve. You two rode the elevator down to the communal floor and walked into the open floor style kitchen hand in hand.

When the doors opened at your destination, you looked around and saw the whole team there, your eyes darted from each face giving them a smile until you laid eyes on Bucky. You saw him stare back at you, you looked away and he turned his attention back to Nat who had her legs draped across his lap.

“Ok, since the love birds are here, we can finally get started,” Tony said grinning at you and Steve.

“Sorry we're late, it was my fault everybody.” You said looking at Steve with a grin, he looked at you with a smirk of his own.

“Oh, don’t try and cover for Steve, Y/N, it def looks like it was a collaborative effort,” Sam said, glancing back and forth between the two of you with a grin.

You turned your face into Steve’s shoulder and giggled, then heard an annoyed grunt come from across the table. You looked over and noticed Bucky staring at you again, you glared back at him, your eyes darting towards Natasha and then to the table. Natasha picked up on the tenseness in your body.

“Y/N, are you alright?”, she said.

You weren’t sure where she was coming from with that comment. You no longer hated Natasha for her part in Bucky breaking your heart, but you two weren’t exactly friends either. She called your name again snapping you out of your thoughts, “Y/N?”

You looked up again at Natasha, “Oh…um, yeah I’m fine, just a little out of it today. Kind of feel like I’m all over the place.” You gave her a fake smile that she read a mile away.

“Well, that can happen to you when you let your husband sex the soul right out of you.” Sam cackled, him and Tony were having too much fun at your and Steve’s expense.

You looked at Steve as he was just about to tell them to stop when everyone heard Bucky yell at the table. “Enough!” Everyone looked at him in shock, “Can we get through one meal without all the sexual innuendos?” You didn’t dare look at Bucky but could see Steve’s face full of appreciation at what he thought was Bucky coming to his rescue yet again.

“Damn, alright Barnes, sheesh!” Sam said rolling his eyes at Bucky’s outburst.

“Oh, ho ho, what’s the matter Barnes, Nat not letting you bury your bone?” Tony replied. Sam and Clint burst out in laughter, Sam because of the challenge and Clint because he knew Nat was going to make Stark pay for his comment later.

“Usually your all for making Steve squirm when it comes to things of a sexual nature.” Sam quipped.

“Why the sudden change in heart?” Tony edged on. Everyone was now looking at Bucky, expecting more out lash.

Bucky smirked and pulled Natasha up into a deep, passionate, tongue filled kiss. You heard the wolf whistles going on around you, save for Steve, but somewhere in the back of your mind, you felt the tiniest feeling of jealousy. Your hand gripped Steve’s tighter, as you watched Bucky and Natasha make out. They finally broke apart their kiss, Bucky turning to Tony with the smirk back on his face.

“That answer your question, Stark,” Bucky replied sitting back down and wrapping his arm around Natasha’s waist.

“No, it didn’t, but thank you for the show,” Tony replied with a grin.

Everyone dissolved into their own conversations, you made up your mind to keep your attention focused on your husband, and to ignore Bucky, which didn’t go over easily. You could feel him staring at your every so often. It was unnerving, like he was toying with you to see how you would react. It was then that you felt you needed to remind him that you had a husband that you loved dearly.

"If you had done that earlier when he made a pass at you, you wouldn’t be in this position now, stupid slut." your mind lashing out at you again.

You willed your conscience to shut up, turning your body slightly towards Steve, and leaned over and whispered into his ear, all the filthy things you wanted him to do to you when you got back to your room, then you started to tease his ear with your tongue. You could see the blush rising on his skin, you then let your hand slide down to his shirt covered chest moving towards his crotch when you heard the sound of metal being crushed. You and Steve looked up to see Bucky’s metal arm gripping a part of the table causing a major indentation.

“Buck, are you okay?” Steve asked him, his voice full of concern.

Bucky blinked and looked down at the table, looking back up at Steve and replying, “Yeah I’m alright, just need to talk to you later about something.” His eyes darted towards you, seeing your eyes grow big like a deer caught in headlights.

This was it, he was going to tell Steve and ruin everything, Steve would divorce you, Natasha would be upset with Bucky. She wouldn’t leave him though, because he was the “love of her life”. Then you would be all alone, everyone would hate you for betraying Steve.

No fuck that, if I’m going out, I’m going out with a least some shred of decency.” Your mind had decided.

You whispered into Steve’s ear, “When you’re done, can we go back to our room, there’s something I need to talk to you about.” Steve looked at you with slight worry, you smiled at him hoping to quell his worries until you could drop the horrible news that would destroy the life you two were trying to build.

“Aren’t you going to eat anything kitten?” Steve asked, noticing you hadn’t put anything on your plate.

“I’m not really hungry at the moment.” You replied staring at your plate in front of you. Steve put down his utensils and grabbed your hand in his, which made you look up.

“Come on, if it’s bothering you enough not to eat, then it can’t wait!” You silently cursed your love of food, it tipped Steve off when you refused to eat.

You glanced back one last time at the table as you and Steve walked back to the room, you caught Bucky staring intently at your retreating form, knowing that he saw the single tear falling down your cheek.

As Steve shut the door, you fidgeted by the door, staring down at your feet. Steve looked at you worriedly, he’d never seen you in such a mess.

“Kitten, we’re alone now. Tell me what’s wrong?”

You sniffled, finding it difficult to let the words escape from your lips.

“Y/N, talk to me, sweets.” He shook his head, “I can’t help the situation if you don’t let me know what it is?” Steve walked over to you and pulled you closer towards the couch he’d been sitting on.

Well it’s now or never, you made your bed (Y/L/N), now it’s time to lay in it…

You looked up at Steve, memorizing his face as if it would be the last time you would ever see it again. You huffed out a breath, “Steve…I..I..slept with Bucky while you and the team were away on the mission.” You kept your gaze down at your shoes afraid to look at your husband.

“(Y/N), what did you just say?” Steve looked at you, his hand deathly still as they held your own.

You struggled to repeat what you just revealed to him. You looked up at him this time, “I had sex with Bucky while you were gone Steve, I’m so sorry, I made a mistake.” Before you could tighten your grip on his hands he stood up and walked to the end of the couch. You looked silently at him, catching his gaze at you just as he threw the end table and lamp at the nearest wall, them smashing completely into pieces. You jumped out of your seat shocked at his behavior, Steve never acted this way when he got bad news, but you willed yourself to remember the severity of the situation. This wasn’t just regular bad news, this was life-altering news.

“(Y/N) why?” The calmness in his voice, giving you a creepy feeling.

You didn’t have a reason why, you know you’re in love with Steve, but there was a part of you that still loved Bucky. You just weren’t sure why that part made you sleep with him. You remained quiet while trembling in shock, you’d never seen Steve like this, his chest heaving, anger and hurt rolling off him. You were snapped out of your thoughts when you heard banging at the door.

“Steve?” Sam called out.

“Y/N?” Bucky called out.

“Are you guys alright in there?” you heard Tony’s muffled voice from behind the door, one of them twisting at the doorknob.

“F.R.I.D.A.Y., block access into our room,” Steve said to the A.I. system, he stepped closer to you, as fear locked you where you stood.

“Y/N, I’m only going to ask you one more time…why?”

“Steve, I made a mistake…”

“I didn’t ask for your sorry ass apology, Y/N, I asked you…” Steve faltered back and shook his head, “Never mind, forget I asked.” He made his way towards the door, and you ran in front of it to stop him, placing your hand on his chest.

“Steve please wait, we need to talk about this, baby please don’t leave.”

Steve pushed your hands away from his body, “Don’t touch me.” He stepped forward again expecting you to step aside. "Y/N move." He stood there waiting for you to move, turning in a circle and trying to calm himself down, he raised his balled fists to his eyes, as if he was in pain.

“Y/N, MOVE!” Steve yelled. You shook your head no, knowing if you moved you wouldn’t know if or when you would see Steve again.

“Steve, please…” you begged as Steve shoved you aside, he swung the door open, not bothering to look at the startled faces near the doorway as he made his way to the elevator.

You stayed on the floor crying into your hands, shocked but not surprised at his reaction. You heard footsteps approach you, a set right near you and two sets away, probably surveying the room. Someone crouched down beside you and whispered in your ear, “Doll did he hurt you?”

You pulled back and started to laugh wildly. “Did he hurt me? You have the fucking nerve to ask me did he hurt me?” You shook your head and looked up at the ceiling, “God, I wish he had because I fucking deserve it.”

Tony and Sam looked at you in incredulity, not sure what to make of what you just said and the slight destruction of the room. By now Wanda, Pietro, Natasha and Vision had made it into the room.

“No one is allowed to hurt you, Y/N, no matter the reason,” Bucky said through gritted teeth. You scoffed and shook his arm from around your shoulders.

“Yea, you say that but it’s always you that ends up hurting me.” You stood up from beside Bucky, you had, had enough. Turning to glance at Natasha and then back down at Bucky, you decided if your ship was going down, so would there’s.

“You cheated on me with Natasha, left me for her, married her. You moved on with your life, and I didn’t interfere once. And when I finally find someone who loves me, the way I’m supposed to be loved, you have the audacity to come back and fuck it up for me again.” Your whole body was shaking, fists balled up at your sides, you felt like you were going to explode.

“Y/N I didn’t make you have sex with me.” Bucky glared at you, glancing out of his peripheral at Natasha.

You shoved your finger into his chest, not afraid of the outcome at this point. “Your right, you didn’t, but you damn sure knew what you were doing when you slow danced with me, kissed me, and made out with me while I remind you, walking me backwards towards my old bedroom. You initiated and I dumbly followed like a pig going to slaughter.”

You rubbed your hand down your face and looked back at Bucky.

“You should be glad though, you got exactly what you wanted...Steve leaving me, so now you don’t have to worry about me being with your best friend anymore.”

You looked around the room, at everyone, different looks of shock and disbelief across their faces, only one with anger.

Natasha

You walked over to her and looked into her eyes, you felt the need to be petty, rise up in you but you wanted to be the bigger woman and felt you had caused enough commotion for one day. You walked out and caught the elevator to your floor. Walking to your old room, and laid in bed for the rest of the day. Day turned into night as you shut yourself off from the rest of the team, no one came by the room, knowing there wasn’t anything that could be said to help rectify the situation. When you woke up from one of your dozing spells, you looked over to see that it was 3 am and looked over knowing Steve wasn’t there. You asked F.R.I.D.A.Y., if there had been any missions the team had been called out on, but none had been mentioned. You wondered where he was, was he just blowing off steam, or doing something worse. You then thought to ask the AI if Steve was in the building, again getting a reply of no.

Three more days passed as you started to get worried, you still hadn’t left your room. Not that the others hadn’t tried to get you to at least come out and get something to eat or drink. Even Bucky tried to get you to come out of your room, F.R.I.D.A.Y. stopping him from getting in as you instructed. You then heard when Natasha, slapped him upside the head and dragged him away from the door. You mentally said a “thank God” for the redhead, for the first time in a long while. You left dozens of messages and tried calling on day 5, but found Steve’s phone was off, sending you straight to voicemail.

After day 7 you sent a message to Tony, asking if he’d heard from Steve, hearing a no from him got you even more worried. “You don’t think he’s in trouble, do you? What if he’s hurt? Or Hydra has gotten a hold of him?” you asked Tony frantically over the phone.

Tony sighed into the phone, "Y/N I’m sure he’s fine, I can’t track him because he’s turned everything off, cell phone, comlink, trackers. He probably just needs a little time to collect himself. I’m sure he’ll be back as soon as he’s ready. Don’t worry yourself hon, ok? Now, will you please come out of your room and eat something? I’m pretty sure when he makes it back, he won’t want you to be skin and bones.”

You spoke with Tony a few more minutes, agreeing to come out of your room and eat something. When you came out of the elevator, you weren’t expecting everyone, minus Bucky and Natasha to be there. Tony had pulled one over on you, making you believe everyone was otherwise occupied. You tried to head back to the elevator but Wanda caught you before you could and steered you towards the table. You sat, too ashamed to look at anyone, you weren’t exactly in the mood to sit for the judge and jury.

Tony broke the ice saying that you were still their teammate and that you and Steve’s personal business would remain personal and wouldn’t be up for discussion. You gave him a small grateful smile and ate, you declined the invitation to watch movies and retreated to your room.

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