Still Can Never Let This AU Go

call me an electron the way i change my behavior when being observed (i have anxiety)

THANK YOU. JESUS CHRIST THIS DRIVES ME INSANE EVERY FUCKING TIME BE NICE TO THE PSYCHROLUTES GOD

The Good Place

"Picture a wave. In the ocean. You can see it, measure it, its height, the way the sunlight refracts when it passes through. And it's there. And you can see it, you know what it is. It's a wave.

"And then it crashes in the shore and it's gone. But the water is still there. The wave was just a different way for the water to be, for a little while. You know it's one conception of death for Buddhists: the wave returns to the ocean, where it came from and where it's supposed to be." Chidi Anagonye

I truly don't think I will ever be over The Good Place. Especially Chidi and Eleanor.

Chidi, who agonizes over every single decision to the point of causing himself physically pain, because making a decision to deliberately hurt or inconvenience someone, even a stranger, in the slightest way is objectively, in the binary, black and white sense of the word, bad. This man basically tortures himself his whole life (a la Doug Forcett) in an impossible quest to be, objectively, good to his fellow man. To be a good, ethical person, because that is his duty as a human being.

Eleanor, who couldn't give a flying fuck about other people. Who was, in all but the legal sense of the word, abandoned by her parents. She just wants to be alone. Why should she care about other people when, inevitably, they leave her? Why put energy out into the world when it never seems to come back to her? So, she does exactly what she wants, what makes her happy, other people be damned.

And so, these two people are put together in the afterlife to torture each other, but instead they make each other better. Eleanor teaches Chidi that it's okay to be selfish some times. Telling her to shut up when she is being annoying, does not make him a bad person. That going after what he wants without stressing over the consequences can lead to new paths that he never would have otherwise had the courage to. Chidi teaches Eleanor that life is better when we are kind to each other. Connecting with other people, even though it's scary and messy and not always good, can lead to wonderful things. That when you open up and put your best out there, you will find people that will love you and want to stay with you, even through your worst moments.

These two were put together to bring out the worst in each other, and instead, their "worst" brings out the other's best. Chidi stops worrying about the consequences, Eleanor starts caring about her fellow man. Is there a word for when two foils perfectly balance each other?

Disenchamtment "Goodbye Bean"

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