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but what if i read one of your fanfics and then went to your ao3 accounts and read all of your fanfics and left a comment on every single chapter of every single one and you got spam emails from all of my kudos and comments and it made you smile, what then? what if i brighten your day with my words like you did mine, what then???

I have some thoughts about an au where Neytiri decides to adopt Spider, but with a twist. Neytiri starts off with a cold, calculated plan to mold Spider into her weapon against the demon who destroyed her family, only to genuinely bond with Spider over time and see him as her own.

-) From the moment Neytiri laid eyes on the squirming, pink-skinned demon, she felt the fire of hatred coil around her heart. He has his father’s face. The same features, the same blood in his veins—Quaritch’s legacy, staring back at her with wide, unknowing eyes and a gummy smile. Instinct screamed at her to cast him away, to have him banished to her mate's former planet, to spare her home from the cruelty of yet another sky demon. But she didn’t. She couldn’t.

-) Instead, Neytiri shoved her hatred into the deepest, coldest part of herself and made a choice. She would raise him. Not out of kindness. Not out of pity. Certainly not out of any foolish maternal instinct. No, she would raise him as a weapon. An instrument of vengeance.

-) Quaritch had stolen everything from her—her father, her sister, her brother, her home, countless lives of her people. And now, she would take everything from him. She would mold his son into something unrecognizable, shape him into the very antithesis of the man who sired him. Spider would walk like the Na’vi, speak their tongue, fight with their weapons, and live by their beliefs. He would forsake the demon blood in his veins until nothing of Quaritch remained. And when the time came, she would watch the fear dawn in the demon's eyes as his own flesh and blood struck him down.

-) There are times when Jake watches her with wary eyes when she helps Spider take his first steps, when she shushes his pitiful bleatings, and when she cradles him in her arms and holds his little hand in hers. There is an unease in Jake’s stare, as if he sees the shape of her plan but does not know how to stop it—or perhaps, deep down, does not want to. It does not matter.

-) Neytiri is resolute. She has a path, and she will walk it to the end. She will strip away every trace of Quaritch’s legacy, reshape him, teach him to hate the sky people, to despise the blood in his veins. He will not be human. He will not be Omatikaya. He will be a blade—her blade. He will be hers. And one day, when the time is right, he will drive that blade into his father’s heart.

-) But like all well-laid plans, this one did not go as intended.

-) Neytiri had expected wariness. She had expected grudging respect, perhaps even a smidgen of pride that he was picking up her lessons with eagerness. What she had not expected was love. Spider is eager, desperate to prove himself. As he grows, he stumbles, falls, bleeds—but always gets back up. He grins at her when she corrects his stance, laughs when she gently tugs at his hair in reprimand, glows under her approval.

-) It should not matter. He is a means to an end. And yet, somewhere along the way, the pretending stops. She began to see him. To feel warmth towards him.

-) Not the reluctant duty of a mentor or the cold satisfaction of a hunter circling its prey, but the aching, unbidden love of a mother.

-) Somewhere between teaching him to string a bow and scolding him for climbing too high, between pressing healing paste to his scraped knees and watching him giggle as Lo’ak and Neyteyam drag him into trouble with Kiri chasing after them and Tuk toddling along, something in her heart shifts. She no longer sees Quaritch in his face and instead sees Miles—a boy as unpredictable and beautiful as the forest, as fierce as any warrior, as stubborn as herself. A child who saw her as a mother.

-) And when the day finally came that she looked at him and realized she could not bear to lose him, Neytiri understood the cruelest twist of fate:

In trying to make him her weapon, she had made him her son.

"Neytiri can be understood: she hit the Spider because her daughter was in danger, her firstborn was dead, and Neytiri was furious."

Yes, it can be understood, but not justified. No matter how crazy she is, it doesn't mean that she can harm children. That doesn't mean she shouldn't have talked to Spider after the incident on the ship. This does not mean that this situation should be hushed up, as if she had accidentally pushed him instead of putting a knife to his chest.

Why, if Neytiri can be understood, then the Spider cannot be understood-"He betrayed Sally: he saved Quaritch, taught them the Na'vi language." True, but it's not a betrayal. The spider was in CAPTIVITY and was used as a tool to achieve goals (not only by the deja blu team, Neytiri did it too). He saved Quaritch because he was the only adult who really cared about him. Not because circumstances forced him to do it, but because he wanted to do it himself.

In the months Quaritch has spent with his son, he has achieved more than anyone from Hellgate or the clan. Quaritch saved the Spider from torture!

In just one film, it was possible to understand that the Spider is a merciful, kind and not at all cruel hero, despite the fact that not everyone likes him, he does not treat them with hostility. His own homeland is not suitable for him to live in, but no matter what, he would not trade it for any other place, even if it were 1000 times better.

And the Spider should have had real parents, not employees who were supposed to take care of it. None of the people thought about accepting it. Even Norm, who was ready for children (he literally adopted Omatikai's orphans), did not accept him. No one thought about him.

Spider lost almost everything he had or should have had.

Even his father has a lot of fans, despite the fact that he was clearly not a super hero.

It upsets me that people desperately don't want to analyze the movie (or analyze everything related to the Spider), they only have two arguments: "The Spider betrayed Sally" and "Quaritch said he didn't care about the Spider"

And obviously, it doesn't matter to them that Quaritch calls the boy his son in the rescue scene, and it doesn't matter that Quaritch was deceiving himself in the beginning. It was safer for Quaritch to show that he didn't care about the Spider, because otherwise the Spider would once again become the protagonist of a bad story, but this time related only to his father. As it already happened in the scene on the ship!

Even Neytiri understands that the Spider is important to Quaritch!

Oh, I didn't forget to mention that two adults abandoned a child in the company of deadly guys, didn't I? And no, arguments in the style of "they saved their children" are not accepted.

I apologize if something was unclear, English is not my native language.

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This is an absolute religious experience that I was not prepared for