VAVOOM

I am the eldest daughter, which is to say that I am a sponge that absorbs all the trauma of the household. Life is spilt milk and I am a kitchen cloth burnt at the edges. I am falling apart at the corners, threads coming away, rips and ripples like I am torn and trembling in an ocean of nothingness. I am the eldest daughter, which is to say that I emphasize with everyone. The love of my life marries someone else, and I find myself hoping that he loves her the same. My brother wishes death upon me and I toss and turn in my sleep over the tears I saw in his eyes. Life is an accidental fire and I am water. I attempt to stop a tragedy I did not start, to go blindly into a catastrophe that I cannot halt. I am the eldest daughter, which is to say that I am silent in my needs. My father asks me what I'd like to eat and I say that I am not hungry. I will chew on my guilt and swallow my pride before I even think of asking for anything. I buy myself a sweet and nothing tastes as bitter as it. Life is a metaphor for debt and I am drowning in the desire to be as insignificant as possible. I demand nothing and nothing demands me.

Massive fuck you to everyone who is talking about Palestinians as if we’re already all dead and sharing more solidarity with our corpses than us living. “We will never forget the beautiful Palestinian people-“ how about you stop “making peace” with Palestinian extermination. My people are not going to be forgotten because we are going to live. Palestinians have already survived one genocide and have been surviving one ever since.

Do not ever let the idea that all Palestinians are going to die exist in your mind. Mourn the dead, fight like hell for the living.

The best ship dynamic is actually just. "I love you and it terrifies me. I'm terrified how much I need you and how much I want you to need me. I'm terrified I'm no good for you and I'm going to hurt you and ruin you and I'm terrified of how I feel when you're around me but I can't bear to push you away completely because I'm terrified to be without you so now we're stuck in limbo and that's terrifying too. I'm terrified that if I lost you now it'd destroy me and I'm terrified that it's too late to do anything about it. I love you. And it's terrifying."

And the thing about, “He saved my life but he couldn’t touch me,” is that it absolutely goes both ways. Before they meet, there is the implication that they have both been struggling and lack a personal companionship with emotional commitment and support to see them through. The possibility that they have considered suicide is introduced, even if they aren’t necessarily suicidal in nature.

Meeting each other quite literally saves each other, gives them what they both need for fulfillment, connection, and support. But the one aspect missing is the actualization of deeper affection, something expressed by touch. They saved each other, but can’t touch one another. They both are emotionally committed, very much life partners, and yet can’t touch the person they saved, the person who saved them. Each feels that they are not allowed this; each feels it is not an aspect of their partnership that would be cherished and reciprocated on the same level. “He’s straight,” or “he doesn’t feel things that way.” And neither of them realize they are mirroring each other even in this.

the guy refuses to shake hands with Watson

and Holmes really takes it personally

our favorite detective and his GFY energy

"are they lovers?" worse, they're sherlock and watson variants.

Sherlock AU ↳ Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind crossover.

After the fall, John hires Lacuna, Inc. to erase all his memories of Sherlock. And Sherlock does the same.

The Tenth and Fourteenth Doctors with the wonderful Donna Noble too

Parallel portraits

just realized that the reason I wanna be left alone in complete darkness and silence is because I grew up in a household where yelling and shouting and screaming and drowning in chaos was my world so now I need to shut the world out to be able to feel safe and heard