aka. headcanons
He has deep repressed feelings for Charlie Dalton. I will die on this hill. Charlie goes around flirting with the poets and Richard absolutely hates how easy he makes it look, and he hates that Charlie keeps putting himself out there because he’s right here so why would he need to flirt with anyone else?? But he can’t express that because he’s Cameron so he tries to make Charlie stop by acting like a dick.
Cameron’s dad is similar to Neil’s, but his mom is more affectionate (only when he behaves correctly though). He obviously is feeling a lot of pressure from somewhere, but, unlike Neil, whose family is determined to hate him no matter what, Cameron’s family has expressed approval and affection when he brings home all As or talks about how badly he wants to be whatever they want him to be. He feels there’s something in it for him if he lives how they want him to, whereas Neil doesn’t ever see himself being enough.
Neil’s death scared the shit out of him. He was finally beginning to open up and feel like a part of the Dead Poets, but when Neil died, ultimately because of his father, Cameron knew that could be him if he kept acting this way and hanging out with the Poets. That’s why he kept talking about self-preservation, he wanted them to understand how important conformation was. In his mind, he was taking care of his friends. He didn’t want them to die.
Sometimes he tries to come out to Charlie. “Hey, Charlie?” “Yeah Dick?” “I told you not to- never mind.” pause “How do you do it?” “Do what? I do a lot of things.” “You know, flirt with everyone... you make it seem so easy.” “Richard Cameron, are you asking me for advice?” “Eat shit, Dalton. Forget it.”
The whole “I love the clarinet” was an attempt to impress Charlie. It evidently did not work.
After that crazy year, Cameron’s mental health declined hugely. He got a taste of genuine happiness and was basically slapped in the face by life. He didn’t really believe in what his parents wanted anymore, but he was too scared to pursue his own desires.
TODD ANDERSON FROM DEAD POETS SOCIETY?????
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eat chocolates and truffles for breakfast
wear that one perfume that’s too decadent, too extravagant for daytime - wear as much of it as you want
pick a volume of poetry. how old are you turning? read as many poems and consider what you can learn from them for the next year - not necessarily regarding morals and deeper meaning. take in the grace and beauty of the words, enjoy their melody
at night, turn off the lights and dance with your moonlit shadow
scatter roses in your own path
enjoy the selfless hedonism of your childhood - play, read, dance and dream wholeheartedly
look at art - in a museum, ideally, but books etc will work as well. recognise yourself in a gesture, a nose, a thought expressed in an arrangement of fruit. recognise that just like those pieces of art depict humans and were made by humans, you are art.
look at your own reflection. fall in love a little.
write down how you’d like to be 12 months from now. be specific, visualise your ideal self. reread those visions once a month.
wear your favourite lipstick. kiss your own wrist. (a lover’s token, a promise)
take every step with grace, feel roses woven in your hair and gold dripping from your fingertips
indulge in sensual luxuries
write a love letter to yourself, to be opened on your next birthday
even if you don’t have the time or the means for grand gestures - treat every little thing you do today as a gift to yourself.
feel the centre of your universe shift, ever so slightly, until the sun rises for you.
Web weaving about the untold story in you !
watched neil gaiman's new gay pandering show today and it's kind of indescribable. created by destiel king steve yockey and starring the actress who played rowena on spn. episode directed by legendary lesbian filmmaker cheryl dunye. canon fujoshi character who talks about her explicit yaoi. an amnesiac medium named crystal palace. gaiman's typical vaguely autistic hugely gay dandy who's never been kissed but also literally every man he meets wants to fuck him so bad it makes them clinically insane. also he's a ghost and died in an accidental demonic sacrifice in 1916. and he tries to confess his love to his best friend and is interrupted by being sent to hell. he then confesses successfully while his best friend is bringing him out of hell in a named orpheus and eurydice allusion. this show needs 12 seasons.
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has anyone else noticed that ants dknt carry away picnic baskets like they used to
A friend I recently made sat down with me for supper today and asked if I’ve read The Secret History because I “dress as someone who would’ve.”
Poetic Cinema…
Someone should have told the dude bros that Venom 2 was never meant for them. They should have known that after Venom (2018) made almost a billion at the box office.
A full time student. Primary bread winner and loser of this family (of one). (She/They)
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