✖Trust Me ✖

“The biggest mistake I’ve ever made was thinking time didn’t exist for me. I was young and stupid and convinced it would bend to my will like reeds bend to the wind. I kept the words that could change everything lodged under my tongue, too scared, too shy, too embarrassed to say them out loud. I thought I could put it off another week, at least. Or a month. It didn’t really matter, did it, because maybe it would come naturally, without me having to make myself appear vulnerable and turning myself inside out for you. But time placed its noose around my neck and pulled taut and in the blink of an eye you were gone. You were gone before I could utter a single word. Gone before I could curse time for not being enough. You would never read the words I wrote to you. Not in a week, not in a month. I’m done waiting now. And I’m so devastated you had to pass for me to understand that some things cannot wait. If you love someone, let them know.”

— no more waiting / n.j.

What a terrible feeling to love someone and not be able to help them.

Jennifer Niven, All The Bright Places  (via wordsnquotes)

I feel it every fucking day, and it kills me in every way, I'm toxic and killing the Only human I wanted to stay alive to be around, I can't even help them with there other issues, I'm not super man, nor Wonder Woman , but god how I with I could just wirle your troubles away ...

Current mood.

Catus I'm creative 🌸🌸😂

Me

lets talk about splitting over and over again until you can physically feel that crack in your very being lets talk about getting so attached that even the slightest thought of them not being there is enough to send you into fits of hysteria lets talk about going against all your morals just to get approval lets talk about scrutinizing a conversation for days trying to pinpoint just where it all fell to peices lets talk about the dread you feel when you think that you will end up alone lets talk about the euphoria of being texted first lets talk about the days when it is a struggle to convince yourself that you fucking exist lets talk about loneliness you can feel in your bones lets talk about sobbing until your throat becomes raw and your eyes sting lets talk about going to outrageous lengths to attract even a moment of attention lets talk about desperately wanting to feel something besides anger, jealousy, fear, sadness, anything lets talk about the feeling that nothing will ever work lets talk about recognizing that awful pattern of behavior every time and realize you cannot stop it lets talk about being unsure if you can continue living like this lets talk about the feeling in your chest as you wait desperately for a response you dont know will ever come lets talk about the severe, ugly symptoms of bpd.

Do you remember the time you said that we would be together forever? Do you remember all the times we said up late talking about anything and everything because we couldn’t sleep. Do yo remember the times that you cried so hard and I did my absolute best to make you stop by making jokes at the expense of my self esteem. Do you remember all the hugs and I love you’s? Because I remember all these moments and they left scars on my heart because these moments don’t mean anything to you anymore.

I guess it’s true when people say nothing last forever (via unspokendarknessinside)

George Harrison, MBE, born February 25th 1943, was an English guitarist, singer, songwriter, and music and film producer who achieved international fame as the lead guitarist of the Beatles. Often referred to as the quiet Beatle.  

“It’s being here now that’s important. There’s no past and there’s no future. Time is a very misleading thing. All there is ever, is the now. We can gain experience from the past, but we can’t relive it; and we can hope for the future, but we don’t know if there is one.”

My house someday😂🤙🏻