Maybe Saying Goodbye To My Most Oldest And Beloved Fandom.

maybe saying goodbye to my most oldest and beloved fandom.

I don't want to feel alone on this one

but who's been a nightmare before christmas fan since the 90's ?

Yeah I'm a fan of a movie since I was 5 years old (1999)

And before I felt alone to be the only one in my french town to know it actually existed (and loved it).

But now I feel alone because the fandom has grew (I still view it possitivally don't worry ^^) but I can't seem to connect with the artistic and movie fans.

Maybe I should quit it, because I feel like a drop in the ocean which is this fandom since it has grew from zero to hero, before it was easy, it was what made me, well me!  But I can’t just give up on my all time favorite childhood movie! especially the one where I dare to defy my parents otherprotection by watching it over and over non stop while they were like “Stop watching it! You’ll have nightmares!”.

And oh! For some, the tears trigger in a disney licence were or bambi’s mom or mufasa’s deaths (or both) , to me both of them got a stupid “meh!” from my young simple minded 5 years old self, to me it was when an army guy blow up jack in the sky and when the werewolf howled while sheding a tear that got my breaking point (and I wouldn’t stop crying until Jack got back up with his confidence).         

But I can’t seems to connect with no one of the fandom with that because online I don’t know what curse is upon me, or in the street and I see someone nearby in the fandom and we cross eyes, they don’t stop by to talk a little (even a tiny bit about it) (of course street talk is the most of the stranger danger happening in all the minds I understand that don’t worry^^) but ...... it seems that I can’t have a connection with the fandom. I like the lone wolf (if not the grizabella) of the fandom. So I kinda felt a tiny weedy bit pissed to not have connection with the large growing fandom, I’m like an unknown veteran, the “thanks for giving me your fan love but now I’m popular, bye!” rejected.  

It’s sad............