Tips For When Studying Is The Last Thing You Want To Do!

it just bottles up and up until you can’t hold it, and once you spill it, you don’t feel anything anymore

It’s Not Over

I think of you at night, and when hearses drive by Their trembling vibrato cracking over the uneven pavement Like the wavering voice of a gloomy love song I see you in those mournful processions People marching with memories round their necks A hanging noose dragging like an unheld leash Oh I think of you Your absence filling my head Like the lungs of the drowned fill with water

Don’t tell me I’m too young to get it Like the words I’m speaking are just braids of sounds Devoid of meaning Of course, they’ll never be enough to make you stay Nothing I could try would keep the feeling from going sour The loss from setting in But even if you walk, it’s not over Listen, won’t you It’s not over till I say it is And my mouth is stitched closed As in those grinding dreams where I lose all my teeth I can’t say I won’t say I choke on these same words It’s not over

Oh love, oh lover It was good once, it was pure Till I asked for too much Till I went and ruined it all with my monstrous hunger You’re right that I’m too young Just a kid who demands and takes but never gives Only pitiful tokens Noodle necklaces and cardboard flowers Finger paintings, where my touch still clings to your skin My heart on a platter Those poor childish offerings

I’m orphaned without you Orphaned and unhinged But even if you’re gone, it’s not over Listen, I beg of you It’s not over even as I’m on my knees Even as I’m half a person Small enough to fit in your shadow Perhaps you’re right Perhaps I’m too young I could cry and embrace your legs Cry like children do, When they still believe that tears Can turn on the light and make people come back

But perhaps I’m too old Perhaps I’m too tired And I can no longer rest my head on you In the curve of your shoulder Oh love, you should have come over

Inspired by Lover You Should’ve Come Over by Jeff Buckley, as requested by @samaya11 

Dark academia reading list ✨📚

-The Secret History by Donna Tartt

-The Lake of Dead Languages by Carol Goodman

-If We were Villains by M. L. Rio

-Ninth House by Leigh Bardugo

-The Magicians by Lev Grossman

-Metamorphoses by Ovid

-Dead Poets Society by N. H. Kleinbaum

-A Series of Unfortunate Events by Lemony Snicket

-The Hound of the Baskervilles by Arthur Conan Doyle

-Never let me go by Kazuo Ishiguro

-The Bacchae by Euripides

-The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

-Memoirs of Hadrian by Marguerite Yourcenar

-Possession by A. S. Byatt

-Les Fleurs du Mal by Charles Baudelaire

he is a master piece no cap

Oscar Wilde photographed by Napoleon Sarony, 1882.

These photographs were taken in January of 1882, when Wilde had first arrived in America for his year long lecture tour. All were taken in the studio of the most famous portrait photographer of the time, Canadian born Napoleon Sarony. The various furs, capes, velvet jackets, and stockings Wilde wore for the photo shoot reflected the attire he would wear to his lectures.

It certainly surprised me when I found out that the majority of Wilde’s most iconic images came from the same session, and were taken in the U.S. when Wilde had only published a yet to be produced play, Vera; or, the Nihilists, and a single book of verse (which Wilde can be seen holding in the first and second photographs).

October 2020 Tarot Challenge

Hello everyone, this challenge was made with the 2020 October calendar in mind but you could apply this to any month. Allow this challenge to guide you through your October up to the Samhain full moon.

What will I get out of this challenge?

What can I expect from this month?

What should my efforts be focused on?

How can I prepare myself for the upcoming week?

What is my current mental state?

What is my current physical state?

What is my current spiritual state?

What is the interaction between my mind, body, and spirit?

How can I reap the benefits of my efforts?

How can I rest my spirit and find peace?

How can I take on this week with an open mind and spirit?

What in my life is draining my energy?

How can I energize my mind, body, and spirit to take on the day? 

What am I missing in my life?

How can I prepare for a new start?

What goals are most important to me?

What is the first step to pursuing my goals?

What is the root of my suffering?

How can I let go of pain?

What am I holding onto?

What relationships should I focus on?

What is holding me back?

How can I push past my doubts and keep moving forward?

What can I expect from the sun in Scorpio?

How can I honor my ancestors?

What are my spirit guides trying to tell me?

How can I heal my wounds from this month?

How can I connect with my higher self?

What do I need to do to prepare for the full moon?

What did I accomplish this month?

What do my ancestors want to communicate to me on this day when the veil is most thin?

i was just sitting at the starbucks and wanted to draw smth as i only have any kind of inspiration when i’m here so duh, i feel like i do t have progress YET but i’m trying really hard so i hope some day i’ll learn how to drown normally but for now let’s just hope this doesn’t suck to the lowest point :))))

I’m gonna try fasting for 48 hours!! I already have 14 hours, so only 34 hours left!! That means I’ll be done by 10 pm tomorrow. But who knows, maybe I’ll go longer because I’ll be sleeping by around that time. If anyone has fasting tips, feel free to leave them !!!

My rules for fasting:

-coffee, tea, and water only

-if I do start to feel really sick, eat a healthy, low calorie snack

-continue the 30 day fitness thingy but stop if I begin to feel ill

-gum is allowed

-if someone asks why I’m not eating, tell them I feel sick/my heard hurts

this is one of my shitty art works from today :( anyways i’m feeling like i totally forget how to draw and it drives me crazy which not good and i’m tying out this new style or maybe even technic to draw when you do it by layering, which i already used when i was drawing not digitally which acril but rn in digital art i feel like i totally suck at this stuff and i just really want to learn to do it better. so for now i have goals and this whole quarantine took my motivation and power and i just want to be finally free and wish it is going to be soon because i’m literally dying which is not good yk yk