How Was Your Day | Tsukishima Kei X Reader

how was your day | tsukishima kei x reader

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You meet him at the first day of a museum summer internship. Because he’s in all of your courses, the two of you begin to text about the work assigned to you, and then eventually about things other than the internship. Tsukishima Kei is devastatingly sarcastic, funny, sharp, and a little bit cute. You keep the last bit to yourself as the friendship becomes more and more cherished.

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R u okay

You look at the chat on your phone. You had forgotten that you added Tsukishima to your private story a week ago, and posted a crying selfie. You’re a little embarrassed and debate your response.

Honesty always works best, right? Just got into a fight with my parents, you type back.

You see his bitmoji pop up, and then down again. Then up again. He’s typing.

Wanna ft?

Yes, you reply.

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“You’re going to regret it,” Tsukishima says. Through the call his voice comes out crackly and distorted, but no matter how much white noise your phone expels you can tell your best friend is disapproving.

“It’s ice cream. I don’t think anyone could regret eating it,” you offer as a rebuttal, peeling the cover back. “Plus it’s mint chocolate chip.”

“Which just means you’re going to finish the entire pint,” Tsukishima points out, “not feel hungry for real food, and then crash from your sugar high and spend the rest of the night depressed.”

“Sounds like the plan,” you reply, digging in. The first spoonful melts into your mouth and you shiver, grinding the chocolate chips against your molars. “Mmh...”

“Have you eaten anything other than ice cream today?”

This you have to think about. “Soup? An apple?”

“Why do I even bother with you,” he sighs.

“Because you love me... oh! Brain freeze!”

Tsukishima rolls his eyes, but he stays on FaceTime with you until your parents get home, snaps you at 8 to remind you to eat “real dinner—this means vegetables”, and responds to your text at 12:03 in the morning when you’re at a sugar low, needing but unable to cry. He tries to fill your emptiness with his blunt words, and you try your best to swallow them.

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“So you two just don’t talk anymore?” Your friend Yuki asks, pushing her pasta around her plage with a fork.

“Mmhm,” you say, mirroring her. “Well, it’s not like I’m loosing sleep over it. Besides, he’s a third year, and has to worry about being vice captain of volleyball and applying to university and all of that...”

Yuki shakes her head. “That’s so weird though. You guys seemed so close... and not to mention cute—”

Before she’s even finished her sentence, you’re shaking your head. “We were only friends. And not even good ones at that! I was always unloading on him, he never told me anything about him and I never asked. I’m at a better place now and I hope he is too.”

Yuki shakes her head. “Well, do you miss him at all?”

“Of course, he was my best friend,” you say. The admission takes you both by surprise, and you rush to shove a mouthful of pasta into your mouth before you can say anymore.

Yuki smiles brightly. “Well, you don’t need him anymore! You have me now!”

Long after both of you have gone home, you think about Yuki’s statement. You don’t need him anymore. It’s true, you think, technically. You don’t get into frequent fights with your parents anymore and you no longer rely on social media to broadcast your insecurities and you no longer need anyone else to fulfill your need for attention. Was that all he was, someone who gave you attention? Someone who made you feel a little less alone? The thought makes you sad. You fall asleep feeling a familiar loneliness.

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You’re mildly surprised when you see he’s responded to your instagram story. Thanks, you reply.

He likes the message.

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Did u hear? Tsukishima collapsed yesterday.

You’re already on your way to meetup with a fee friends when you get the text message. Doubling back, you search for a contact in your phone, then press it frantically. When nobody picks up you text one of your friends: Sorry, won’t be able to make it today, something came up.

Then you reply to Yamaguchi: where is he now????

When you see Tsukishima Kei, pale, skinny, and exhausted, look almost at home in the hospital bed, your emotions explode. He looks surprised to see you. You’re surprised that he’s surprised, and also a little angry, and also a little upset.

“You,” you hiss. “What the hell are you doing here?”

Tsukishima has the audacity to laugh. “That’s my line.”

“Is it really? Wow. I can’t believe I respected you so much. I thought you were a smart guy. I thought you knew how to take care of yourself. I didn’t know you wanted to be an anemic.”

He winces. “It’s nothing. Why are you here anyways? You don’t need to be here. I didn’t ask for you.”

You walk up to his bed, place the plastic bags with vitamins and bananas and his favorite energy drinks and a slice of strawberry shortcake on the nightstand, and leave without a word.

He texts you three hours later with a picture of an empty plate. Thanks. I’m sorry. I was embarrassed. For u to see me like that.

Take care of urself, you respond. You’re genuinely concerned for him.

Yeah, he responds.

Then: Will you come again?

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“I think I’m going to go,” you tell Tsukishima, pumping your legs to go even higher. He sits on the swing next to you, watching you amusedly. You are talking about the summer festival.

“It’s going to be crowded,” he says.

“Snacks,” you continue. “Fireworks. Friends.”

“Aren’t you going to be a seventh wheel?”

“Besides the point, Tsuuuukki. I’ve been waiting all year for this.”

He looks at you. You smile, “What?”

“Nothing.”

“Rude.”

“That’s me.”

“Yeah, yeah,” you laugh. “Hey, the sky is so pretty right now.”

“Yeah,” he hums. You don’t know what he’s smiling about but you smile anyways.

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“Is that... Tsukishima?” Yuki wonders put loud. “Yeah, I think that’s him! Y/N!!”

Your yukata is not fitting right. “No, he said he wasn’t coming,” you argue, twisting around trying to fix the bow.

“Who said that?” A familiar voice cuts in, amused. You look up to see none other than Tsukishima Kei. He pulls you to him and turns you around, tying your ribbons tighter.

“Thanks,” you mutter.

The festival is crowded and loud. You have to strain to hear him, but his response makes you smile.

“Anytime,” Tsukishima says.

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THERE ARE PEOPLE OPENLY ADMITTING THAT THEY ARE ATTRACTED TO CHILDREN/CONSUMING CHILD PORN ON THIS WEBSITE!?!??! THERE’S 13 YEAR OLDS ON HERE!!!

so my dudes, how to flag “maps” (minor attracted people aka pedophiles)

1. click “flag this blog”

2. click “this violates tumblr’s community guildlines”

3. click “someone is at risk of harm”

4. click “harm to minors”

5. type “pedophile” in the box

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ash-needs-sleep

4 years ago

with all the trafficking going on y’all better stay safe!!

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4 years ago

I’m back!...Well not really?

Hey it’s Ash! I know I haven’t really uploaded any works and I apologize for that. This week is finals week for me and I have been working on Time Forgot Him and a few other works, that I’ll introduce later, when I can. While being away I got to thinking of another series I’d like to add.

The series would just be about the dreams I have. This came to mind when I was talking to a friend about one of the dreams I had once. They mentioned how I can remember great detail about the dreams I have and since I’m pretty sure my friends are lowkey sick of me rambling on and on about said dreams, why not post them here and see what others think of them?

Would that be interesting to you all? Just let me know if it’s a good idea or not.

Again, I’m very sorry for the lack of uploads but I will be posting chapter two to Time Forgot Him for those who read it and are curious of when the next update is!

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ash-needs-sleep

4 years ago

Reblog if it's okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

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4 years ago

Mental Health Resources

You hold the power to a happier mind in the palm of your hand.

I’ve noticed a need for mental health resources in this little circle I write for. Unfortunately, the United States especially is not great about advertising these resources, so their existence is widely unknown. These resources are mostly U.S. resources, however going through your country’s healthcare system, your employer, or your university for information should put you on the right path.

I will maintain and update this list as I have time and more information, but I wanted to get something out ASAP.

Please, do not entrust your mental well-being to strangers or venting areas. You deserve proper attention and respect paid to your pain, and at any given time, you can approach someone going through an equally tough time and end up feeling unheard.

You have control over your mental health to a certain extent and that, to me, is empowering. Healthy habits as well as affordable treatment and even online resources can help get you on the right track to a better life, and put you on a path to healing. Please also check with your university, if you attend one, as they will have counselors and other information available to you.

Resources

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Available 24 hours. Calls in English, Spanish.1-800-273-8255

If you’re considering suicide, I beg you, call this number. You will not be harmed or taken to a mental hospital. Just tell yourself, “If I make it through this call then-” and start setting small goals in the world of the living for yourself. One step at a time. No matter how badly you feel about yourself, someone, somewhere, cares about you. This is an excellent resource to use if you’re considering acting on those thoughts.Talk to another human who is ready to help you 24/7.

Mental Health America (MHA):

This is the absolute BEST online hub for locating mental health resources in the United States. If you live in another country, you should have similar resources, so please do a quick Google search to check. However, they provide universal information such as nutritional information, healthy habits, etc. They also have a screening tool to help you decide what action you can take to improve your situation.

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) Helpline: call 1-800-662-4357

They will help you find treatment for mental health and substance abuse issues. Free, 24/7, in Spanish and English.

“I can’t afford therapy” MHA info on how to proceed

Excellent information on how to speak with insurance and tap into other resources in order to address and improve your mental health. Group therapy is a great alternative to individual therapy, which is more expensive. There are even free support groups (maybe not so much in the world of COVID) that meet online and you can speak with others facing similar issues.

LGBTQIA+ resources for mental health

Resources for those with the specific needs that may exist as a member of this community. These include crisis text lines, directories to local resources, assistance with finding discrimination-free treatment for mental and physical health issues, and information about caring for your mind in a world that isn’t always accepting of you as you are. They also provide educational tools for family members to help better understand LGBTQIA+ individuals experience.

Therapy for Black Girls.ORG

“ Therapy for Black Girls is an online space dedicated to encouraging the mental wellness of Black women and girls.” Using this resource Black women and girls can find a therapist who may relate to them on a more personal level, and better understand their challenges and experiences.

Racial stress Information and resources American Psychological Association (APA):

The self care section of this is near the center. You can reach it through the “related” link directly to the right under the header.

People of color face unique challenges in the United States. The APA provides information on how this can impact parenting, how to take care of yourself as you experience racial stress, and resources to help with a multitude of issues you may face.

MHA National “31 tips to boost your mental health”

There are things you can start doing RIGHT NOW to improve your mental health. Don’t let others be in control of your well-being. Asking for help is of course encouraged, but at the end of the day, you want to hold the reigns and control your life. From healthy sleep to exercise, all these tips have been proven to have a positive impact on your mental health.

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