I lurk,repost and post stuff I like here. Rants, self reflection & art oof -astatine (she/they)
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okay so I decided I may be using tumblr more frequently now because a) I know no one irl who I follow or know on this app and it feels like a safe haven for me to speak (insta and tiktok gives off puts too much of the "social" in social media) and b) to finally slowly get back into old fandoms cuz I've slowly been regaining new & old interests after a hiatus of 2 years of doubting my existence lol
Anyways, my account my rules so whatever shitposts or updates abt myself will really only been seen by me, myself and I and no one else cuz not many ppl know me here (or even will see the stuff I post [if I were to keep my word])
When I first read this, it really hits me knowing I could've recovered faster mentally if I had reached out earlier. Don't drown yourself again in the sea of loneliness
(also cuz I've seen this post afew times this week so reposting it as a reminder)
i know it's hard. but i so firmly believe the strongest antidote to loneliness is reaching out first. and continuing to reach out. again and again and again. excise any scrap of shame you hold about being the person who texts first or pitches the plan or asks to get lunch. everyone is tired and busy and struggling. and afraid of feeling unwanted and unimportant. don't let the people you love feel that way. reach out first. don't be a ghost in your own life.
MONOSHIN FIC RECS
A compiled fic rec list of the more longer monoshin fics. All fics can be found on ao3. You should be able to click the title of the fic and be directed there!
this is for @fraisaa and the very few other monoshin enjoyers in this fandom đââïžđ pls write more fics.
My Cat's Name is Jalapeño! by Perkykitties - 100k wordcount & complete - SINGLE HANDEDLY THE BEST MONOSHIN FIC I'VE EVER READ. cough sorry, bias is showing, post cannon fic after they graduated U.A.
Golden Days by hanwritesstuff (hannahkannao) - 208k wordcount & complete - five years after graduation, two heroes are brought together by coincidence, work together by necessity, and stay together by choice, trust, and maybe just a little bit of love.
Welcome To The Better Class by orphan_account - 200k wordcount & incomplete, post-cannon monoshin fic that broke my heart and put it back together again and idek anymore.
I want to kiss (your dumb fucking face) by gingerbreadshinsou - 126k wordcount & incomplete - it irks my soul that this is incomplete, it really really does save yourself and dont read it because you will be hooked and you will cry. Monoma develops a big gay crush on Shinso and his life descends into absolute chaos.
once more, with feelings by orphan_account - 50k wordcount & incomplete, in which Shinso Hitoshi transfers into Class B.
Resilience by Lilac_Demetrius - 43k wordcount & ongoing! Neito Monoma just wanted to enjoy his summer. Falling in love with his roommate's obnoxious boyfriend was never his intention. (omegaverse fic, dont say i didnt warn you.)
Now you know by albanyN - 42k wordcount & complete, in which hitoshi shinsou and monoma neito have more in common than they think.
Get Ready to have a Bad Time by despurrito - 41k word count & complete, honestly i was very very very hesitant on reading this fic because its an alpha/beta/omega dynamics fic. not to yuck anyones yum though! i cannot deny its still a good fic and if thats your thing, read it!
Sore Loser by SmolPidge - 33k wordcount & complete, After Hitoshi's transfer to the hero course is formally approved, he finds himself at the mercy of one Neito Monoma, who will stop at nothing to get him to choose Class B. Unfortunately for Hitoshi, it's working.
Like Turning Against Traffic in a Crowded Intersection by yanderegiran - 31k wordcount & incomplete, In which Shinso's in a relationship and everyone knows but him.
Smoke Rises, Water Falls by KiroAngel - 31k wordcount & incomplete/abandoned, postcannon soulmate au fic where shinsou finds himself growing more attached to monoma than he ever thought he would, but in a world where soulmates mean everything, what is that really worth?
Pink Summer by chromochaotic - 27k wordcount & complete, tooth rotting fluff and honestly the summer camp counselor monoshin fic no one asked for but we all deserve. đ
Empathy by AuspiciousWhiskers - 26k wordcount & complete, in which Monoma Neito puts the pieces back together, and for once, they aren't just the pieces of himself.
Of Kitties And Parrots by gingerbreadshinsou - 22k wordcount & complete, monoma meets shinsou on a dating website and it's all downhill from there
That's Not a Kitten! by Perkykitties - 20k wordcount & incomplete - sequel to my cats name is jalapeño! i recommend you read the first fic before this one though. takes place when monoma and shinso are married!
fics under 20k words
What Could Have Been by Madame_Hatter - 17k wordcount & complete, three years is enough to change a man, as well as his feelings for his best friend.
Monoma Neito's Foolproof Plan to Get an Awesome Boyfriend and Rule UA by truejoyofsorrow - 15k wordcount & complete, Monoma decides that he should ask out Shinsou, shenanigans ensue.
Becoming a Cat Person by yanderegiran - 14k wordcount & incomplete, aka the pokemon trainer monoshin fic we all needed in our lives.
i learnt to love for the first time when our fingers intertwined by blinding_metaphysics - 12k wordcount & complete, Monoma and Shinsou were invited to a class A and class B camping trip. What was going to be a nice relaxing day turned into a horrible event.
hope you enjoyed this list! i might make a list of the shorter fics but honestly, theres a lot of those and not a lot of longer fics. we need more monoshin content pls can a very cool long fic writer see this and make my wishes come true?
ode to a manga dear to my heart
Devil Reincarnation AU
Asta's mission even after becoming the Wizard King is to find the remaining reincarnated devils (side effect of Lucius consuming their magic) and take them in, since he's technically one of them.
oh boy i love me some delusional larpers
#socutee #lookather!!! #squishy
pocket sized allukaÂ
BABIE PIKA
Was thinking about how Kurapika does this very specific thing several times in the â99 anime which led me to thinking about little Kurapika learning Kurta traditions. Which wouldnât be Hunter x Hunter fanart without a hint of tragedy.
Hey everyone, welcome to yet another addition of HXH translation meta with your old pal hunterxhell. This time, Iâm taking a look at what I think is, hands-down, one of if not the most important scenes in HXH for understanding Killua and his feelings for Gon. In fact, Iâm going to make the case that this scene proves that those feelings are romantic in nature. Unfortunately, the translation for this scene was absolutely butchered (itâs by far the worst translation in the series), so all of the meaning was lost, including the wonderful Killugon subtext.
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galo sengen
Iâm hopping on the âAsta Is Smarter Than People Give Him Credit Forâ train with two more Asta Big Brain moments. During the witch forest arc when ladros is âbegging for his life,â trying to trick asta into removing the sword and he refuses because 1: if ladros is bluffing (which he was) asta would be giving him a perfect opportunity to attack, and 2: he deliberately hit ladros in a non-vital spot to incapacitate him without killing him.
ANOTHER ONE is at the volcano when he figures out how to activate the devil form on his own without any direction or instruction.
Welcome to the club, friend!
These are indeed wonderful moments and I'll leave them here for everyone to check.
w/Ladros: ("I'm dumb!" - Asta 2022)
In the volcano: (ilu asta lol)
And here's one of my personal favorite "Asta Is Smarter Than People Give Him Credits For, (Smartasta in short)" moments:
Alright people, hop on the bus and reblog with your favorite "Smartasta" moment, let's make a big thread!
the suspense till the chapter they meet is slowly destroying me x)
There's just so much existential horror and misery trapped within the comedy of Saiki K and tbh that's why I love it lmao.
Xxx
Forcing your entire family to lift their roots and put them down elsewhere. Being intelligent enough to see and understand the burden and strain this places on the people around you. Knowing they do it because your parents love you, they don't want to leave you. The sacrifices they've made just for you.
Your mom is afraid to make friends because what if she says too much?
Your father is constantly going from job to job, something which looks terrible on a resume, forcing him to take worse and worse work just so he can support your family. He blames you. You kinda blame you too so you don't protest it. It's not like he can hurt you anyway if he takes it out on you. He does. He doesn't hide it. Why would he? It's normal.
You've been fighting one thing or the other ever since you can remember.
It's natural for your older brother to be jealous of you - your very presence has split his parents' attentions but more now he has to learn from a young age first hand that there's always someone better than you. Your life is constantly displaced for reasons that are purely attributed to you, but you can't make those reasons go away.
You can't connect with anyone either. You're terrified that if you do, something will happen that'll trigger your family to move, again, uproot everything they've tried so hard to establish. Or, worse, you'll hurt someone. Many someones. Break the world. You've almost done it. Your morals weren't fully developed then. The guilt you carry isolates you further.
The people you love most are constantly on the run. From you.
You're aware of your capacity. Of your ability. It's frightening to the point of grey, numb, exhaustion.
You want to run from you too.
Xxx
Your little brother was the worst and best thing that ever happened to you. You hated him but he challenged you physically and creatively, drove you to work hard, inspired you constantly to do better, do bigger, because every failure was an opportunity to learn. But it got to be too much. You had to get away. He was everywhere. He was better than you. Stronger than you. Your nights become filled with nightmares once you learn he nearly killed four kids - and nobody is ever going to know he did it. Worse, nobody is ever going to care he did it. He can make it so. So you leave, go to be among people you think are like you....only they're not. Your life has been so insular from all the moving around that you never got to realize how even the brightest the world has to offer apparently don't hold a Candle to you. You become jaded. You become lazy. You become depressed. What's the point. Your life no longer has meaning.....until you realize that the meaning of your life was the very person you ran away from. The one who simultaneously terrified and inspired you, who pushed you to be the best. Your life was so much better then. You need to recapture that zeitgeist. You're terrified. You have so much love. Nobody makes you feel the way he does, nobody on this planet can compare-...but wait. That's your little brother. That's not quite right? Is it? You've never been in love. You've never connected to anyone else. Your scope of understanding on that point is narrow. You begin to misunderstand your own feelings based on the criteria you've been exposed to since goodness knows when.
Nobody else can ever understand.
Other people can never understand.
Nobody compares anyway.
They're ants compared to you, and compared to him?
Nothing at all.
Xxx
You thought you had it all - good looks, a good brain, athleticism. For a long time you were at the top of the hierarchy. You meet a beautiful girl. She loves you, you love her. The entire world is stretching in front of the two of you, mired in glorious green and hope. You want to give her a good life. And then you have children. The first one is intense and bright. He's able to comprehend so much it's scary but he's also still only a child. You can see it in how he acts, all that learning still to do, things not yet understood. You teach him. You're proud. But you're scared. His potential frightens you. But he's still your kid. And you're still his dad.
But then your second son happens. He's born with unnatural pink hair. In just days he's talking to you with his mind in full, perfect sentences. His hold on grammar is better than yours. His strength is keener than yours.
He has psychic powers.
But he's still your son. You're still his dad.
Only it doesn't feel that way at all. Your authority is in question constantly. You feel like you're looking at a grown man trapped within the unsettlingly coloured eyes of an infant. He's strange. He doesn't respect you. You lose grip. Your eldest, too, has taken note. He doesn't care about you much anymore, what you have to show and teach him. The both of you could be in this together but you're divided. And then you're moving, constantly. Your wife is all you have left in the world who cares about you. That hope you once held, the feeling of potential, it's gone. You've seen the universe. You looked into it. In return it looked into you.
It found you wanting.
Xxx
Your world used to be big. So big. So full.
Used to be.
You see your parents rarely but it's awkward and stressful when you do. Your friends? Left behind. You chose your family over them, it was the right thing to do. They don't reach out. You leave them to it.
In your home are three people. You love them with all your heart. They fulfill you endlessly. They're all good men. They love you in return.
But they hate each other.
You're an anchor tied between three directions. Pulled apart.
Then it's two.
It's easier. That makes you feel horrible.
Worse, you know eventually it'll only be one. Or maybe even none.
You're alone.
Where did you go?
Who are you anymore?
You know your husband and sons better than you know yourself.
Please don't let them ever leave you alone to those godforsaken four walls. Somehow they've become your whole world.
But then it's not. You haven't moved in a while. You've been able to make friends! Your youngest has too, thank god, the loneliness you're so afraid of is something you'd never want your littlest to experience.
But.
You open your mouth too big. Too wide. Too many times over. Your son has to swoop in and save you every time.
Loneliness was fine.
The guilt is so much worse.
saiki is paired with satou instead of teruhashi and suffers the exact same way she did
Ok, I need to watch Encanto 2957950281 times more to absorb every bit of it, but in the meantime hereâs a list with some little details I loved:
âThat habit Mirabel has of wiping her hands before touching a doorknob. We see little Mirabel do it before her magic door, excited about the upcoming gift; but 10 years later she keeps doing it, as if she had developed a subtle anxiety about closed doors. Or perhaps she just sweats a lot, lol; Brunoâs âyouâre very sweatyâ seems to back up that. It was something so mundane that I loved it.
âThe GLASSES. As a short-sighted woman whoâs been wearing glasses for more than 25 years, I really really really appreciated Mirabelâs glasses and all the unconscious movements associated to them. Every time she had to readjusted her glasses because they fell or slipped over her nose, I was like 8D (that scene in Brunoâs room with her glasses full of sand, omg)
âActually, Mirabel herself is just amazing. I was afraid they could give us the dorky-girl-with-glasses archetype, but thank God they didnât. Sheâs unique and so tree-dimensional: her expressions, her body language, her energy, her optimistic but not childish behavior. The latter is very important, tbh, because optimistic female characters are often infantilized and portrayed as too innocent and easy to fool. Mirabelâs actually pretty mature (emotionally mature, at least), and brave and strong and soft and loving, and she seems just real, not fitting any defining archetype/trope that constrains her personality. How awesome is that, folks.
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Say it with me now,
I just need more content of them together pls
- I took some inspiration from Pinterest
We don't talk about bruno
Alma: Everyone's fine, don't worry about it!
Bruno: *Shaking in the corner*
Julieta: *Staring dead eyed at the kitchen*
Pepa: *Current rainstorm, litterally the house is kinda flooding*
Isabela: *In the other corner* I'm not perfect enough, I'm not perfect enough!!!
Luisa: *on the floor sobbing* What if I'm not strong enough for this family?!
Dolores: *Having a panic attack*EVERYTHING IS SO LOUD WHY IS IT SO LOUD?!
Camilo: *Also having a panic attack* I don't know who I am anymore, what if This version of me isn't me?! What if I'm an imposter?! Oh god!
Antonio: *Already has anxiety at 5* What if I'm not good enough for the family?? What if my gift can't help anyone?!
Alma: You... You came out fine?
Mirabel: IM STILL TRAUMATIZED AS WELL, ABUELA!!
Ohh definitely!!! Hopefully we'll have a sequel with these two :D
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yeah, I love the hc that the town call them that. Theyd be such a chaotic duo
It's funny since that's what Camilo remembers when he was like 5 before Bruno left
Bonus:
so true for the faust twins
a black clover folder mayhaps?
iâm crying all i have left is some yunos and this faust twins meme i didnât finish
Yuri and Yurio bonding time ^W^ Victorâs a little upset XD Want to see mafia AU pages before the public? Become a 1 dollar patron! <3 (see link in blog description)
NEXTâ> IN PROGRESS PREVIOUS FIRST
(Forget about the entire plot, these children need proper education)
Finally an Au that isn't Sk8 related. I was gonna do a Sk8er boi Au but then I was like nah... But then again...
Idk about the American school system so most of these might not make sense.
I really wanna write a fic about this, I mean there are a lot of Highschool based fics. But like this one is just random shenanigans.
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Senior-Year foreign exchange student from Japan
Lives with his parents, younger sister and has a dog
Very kind and friendly but can get defensive, people would question those he's friends with
He writes with an ink pen and is very organized
He hangs out with Ash and Shorter a lot after they helped him out since the first day he came
A member of the Photography club, he likes taking pictures of others and is pretty skilled at it based on past experiences
His also apart of the school track team and is a pro at pole vaulting (or pole jumping)
Favourite Subject(s): Phys. Ed, Photography and English
Works for the Photojournalist, Shunichi, part time at a photo agency
Future Job: A Photojournalist
Senior-Year student with a GPA of 4.0 and is on top of all his classes
Lives with Jessica and Max (boo ya!) after being abandoned by his parents and rescued from a corrupt politician
Very popular amongst others due to his charismatic personality but can be harsh at times, gets into trouble a lot
He sleeps during his classes and still manages to get straight A's
Often seen at the school library, has a whole gang that he hangs out with
Mostly hangs out with his close friend, Shorter, who he met during detention and Eiji, since they first met, He now has a soft side
Favourite Subject(s): English, Social Science, Chemistry and Biology
Works part time as a librarian, surprisingly
Future Job: Mostly likely to become a Doctor or a Professor
Senior-Year student, does the bare minimum in school
Lives with his Older sister, Nadia, and Sing (In this Au, Sing is basically his little bro, well they're cousins)
A very loyal student and friend, but very stupid at the same time
Messy handwriting and Average performance when it comes to his grades
Hangs out with Ash, who he met during detention and Eiji, who he met when he first came
Favourite Subject: None (Don't see him as the type who likes school)
Works part time at his Sister's restaurant, Chang Dai
Future Job: Probably end up working at his Sister's restaurant
Freshman-Year student, struggling with his first year at high school
Lives with Shorter and his older sister, Nadia
A very smart ambitious student with great leadership skills yet his brain is burnt chicken
Pulls an all nighter almost every since day and also sleeps during class
Sometimes hangs out with Shorter and the others, mostly hangs out with Yue (Used to hate him, but after learning about him, he felt bad for him)
Apart of the Self-Defence club, mostly teaches there (Some schools have those kinds of clubs)
Favourite Subject: Phys. Ed, Social Studies
Works part time at a Café (suprise suprise :D)
Future Job: Hasn't thought of it
Sophomore-Year student who takes a lot of AP classes
Lives in the household of a famous politician, who passed away, his mother also mysteriously passed away (there's more to it tho) and is currently living in a toxic household with his step-bros
He raises his hand for every since question, often reminds the teacher about homework
Hangs out with Sing, used to hold a grudge against Ash and Eiji but later befriends them
Acts kind and polite but really he's a stone-cold person, but then he warmed up a bit after befriending Sing
Is apart of the Archery Club and is pretty good at it
Future Job: Medical Scientist or Herbalist/Naturopath
Favourite Subject: Chemistry, Biology, History, Art
If this AU were to be a show, it would be one of those Netflix highschool drama shows, I don't know why, I just see it like that
Shorter is the stoner of the bunch (no I won't elaborate)
Kong, Bones, Cain and Alex are also Seniors that hang out with Ash
Michael is often babysitted by Ash since their parents sometimes work overnight, him and Skip are friends (I can't get over the fact that Skip and Michael didn't interact at least once)
The gang mostly hangs out at Chang Dai, sometimes at the Café Sing works at
Almost everyone plays with Yue's hair when he's asleep
The gang would sometimes go on mini road trips after school
Ever since Sing started working at a Café, he learned a lot about brewing and baking
Since Yue lives in a toxic household, he always sneak out of his home to hang out with the others, now he stays at Sing's place
Yue used to seek to his teacher, Blanca's, house and gets taken care of by him, but after false rumours of them being intimate started spreading around, Blanca ended up changing school
Shorter and Sing both teach Yue modern slang and western meme culture because he's been living under a rock and didn't even have a childhood
Eiji would sometimes make bento boxes for Ash and purposely add a pumpkin sticker on his note
Ash hates Halloween parties at school... because of goddamn pumpkins for fucks sake
The gang would have movie nights and they'd watch a lot of horror movies, at one point they ended up watching The Ring and Yue would always jumpscare everyone because they look similar
âYou come here so often, you must really like apples!â
Clover Tea: Maybe on mundane days (2)
Nachtâs devils and the Bullsâ animals.
If Nacht makes it out of Spade Arc alive, I hope his devils will get to interact with the Black Bulls.
i love this hc! our marx deserves more recognition
Marx has such a precious design and interesting personality that is especially entertaining when heâs dealing with Julius⊠so I just had to. Sorry, I have a tendency to give characters dark pasts, so before you read on, note that thereâs going to be some darkness in there.Â
Also, ignore the relations headcanon if you happen to like Julius/Marx as a crack ship⊠because then that would be just weird.Â
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loll Jack's one was cursedđ
Just some random idea that came to me today while reminiscing on what the Captains do in their free time. I began to picture how it would play out if each of them were instructed to show us their art skills! Here's what I came up with.
This man is not too bad at art! He doesn't put a lot of pressure on himself to make perfect sketches and he has low expectations for himself... So he mainly considers it a hobby set aside for his rare moments of leisure time. Since he's so chill about it, his sketches come out looking nice when he's more relaxed. This is usually the case since he prefers using his bird journal - he likes to bird-watch and put together little drawings of the winged friends he sees while laying all content out in his garden. He's no prodigy but his hand-eye coordination is pretty good and after years of practice his birds and trees turn out pretty impressive. Very embarrassed if asked to show people though.
Credit: Found in a "how to draw" guide.. no name
He prefers appreciating sophisticated art made by others.. and really doesn't care much for making it himself. If he draws anything, it'll usually be rushed - as he knows he's got more important matters to focus on.. Still, he is capable of putting together a sketch every now and again of something simple. Usually plain posable objects. At the end of the day, he's not really a big art freak and even at a nice art museum he gets bored after an hour or so.
Credit: unlisted. Message if you know where it's from!
He likes art, a lot! Like William he's no prodigy, but it makes him happy so that's enough for him. He prefers to paint, and his subjects are often women, focusing on anatomy because he enjoys exploring movement / dimension through bodily posing. He likes painting silhouettes that are dancing and often have flowing clothing, or hair. Definitely focuses on the beauty, passion, and artistic self expression side of it. He isn't as open about it because Mereoleonna poked fun at him for it so much and he'd rather not deal with any of that again.. but people who know about it always talk about how he's quite talented.
Credit: Anastassia Orehova
He's listed in the manga's assorted questions brigade as the #2 ( Behind Rill) judge of artistic style and taste! He's got an excellent eye for art, and he can be really creative medium wise, but I still feel like he's a bit too lazy to sit down for a long time and really commit to a canvas or sketchbook. He doesn't find it rewarding enough for his attention span.. but he seems to be pretty good at making simplistic, cartoon styles really expressive.
Credit: Olga Shvartsur
He is ALL about color, vibrancy, and bold presentation! His paintings are always so full of vivid life and brightness, it's clear to see he's a person carrying a wondrous imagination and endless creativity. Everything he's made seems like it's bursting with optimism and excitement, as if the artist couldn't contain himself. He is extremely versatile and can tackle almost any subject, which is super impressive for his age. His one flaw I'd say is that sometimes his paintings, despite being gorgeous technicality wise, can get a little busy or cluttered as he struggles to not get carried away with all the different expressive ideas he comes up with. He's still learning!! ( Bonus headcanon: Rill has a mandatory weekly art class set aside as "training" for the Aqua Deer magic knights.. Everyone attends regardless of their actual interest levels because nobody wants to handle seeing Rill devastated that people didn't show.)
Credit: Svenja Jodicke
Pretty self explanatory? She's a kawaii sailor moon theme anime waifu. All her drawings are magical anime girls... But they only appear in her dreams, so nobody knows she can draw well!!
Credit: source link to deviantart page was a removed account đ please lmk if you know the artist
Nobody wants to talk about Jack's art. He doesn't wanna draw and nobody wants him to draw. Anything he makes is simply a cursed image, no questions asked. He's got the artistic skills of a grade schooler... And even though he can be somewhat creative, the fact that there's always some kind of disturbing / violent undertone incorporated within the picture... It just looks like a demented child's drawing.
Credit: could not find name but it's a canvas displayed in "The Museum of Bad Artwork" labelled as "The Butcher" and tbh that makes it even more terrifying
She's listed in the top three WORST artists / judges of fine arts in canon... Which is interesting to me, lol. I think she probably stopped trying a long time ago after being teased for how her stuff turns out, lol. She tried drawing or painting and would get frustrated with her inability to create an image she's picturing in her mind.
Credit: could not find name but it's a canvas displayed in "The Museum of Bad Artwork"
I don't know a whole lot about him tbh but I know he is also listed as an excellent artist next to Yami. I think he'd be really into sophisticated art! Kinda like Nozel but far more dedicated and passionate about it. Still-picture images, but he finds a lot of joy in shapes and objects, and messing around with shading.
Credit: unlisted. Message if you know where it's from!
And that is all my friends!! I am still trying to hunt down some art credit for these images, some were on Pinterest or just unlisted altogether. I'm gonna put them down once I come back and edit this post when it's not 3am đ plz let me know if y'all can help me out with that. I know there's an online site somewhere that's made for this but I forgot what it's called???
This was a lot of fun to make though. If you disagree or have thoughts, feel free to reblog or come chat in my ask box! Goodnight luvs đ„°