Nico's Love Is So Raw And Heavy And Powerful

sometimes i start to like my dad. i love him, because he’s my dad, but i don’t like him. When i start to like him, he just finds a way to remind me that no one will ever be enough for him. not me, not my mom, not my brothers, not the church. i try to remind myself that this is his first life, and he never had a parental figure to learn how to be or not be a dad. But it’s our first time too.

i honestly don’t know how this happened but somewhere between my childhood and formative years i forgot how to exist like a normal person and started to either overthink everything or make disastrous choices without any proper thinking at all. no middle ground whatsoever

that scene in tlo where thalia tells percy he can't start feeling sorry for luke bc luke made his choices. and thalia reveals that the reason they couldn't make it to camp in time for all of them to make it to camp was bc luke kept picking fights. and annabeth never saw this as wrong bc luke was her hero. so thalia had to pick up the pieces. and percy thinking both that luke was put in a cruel position and that luke was putting others in a cruel position. and percy is the only character who understood both sides of luke bc annabeth sees only the best of him and thalia sees only the worst. and that's why percy is the prophecy kid and the one who gives luke the knife. bc annabeth had spent the entire series essentially giving luke the knife when he didn't deserve it. and thalia was never going to give luke the knife. but percy is the only one who can see exactly when luke deserves the knife.

no matter how much i think i person might love me, i know there is someone there who they would choose over me without questioning

im gonna write my heart out here.

It feels like im talking to someone.

So girls, i like a man. Awful news, i know.

But his heart and mind and soul still belongs to someone else. And even tho we are close, i just… i know it’s not the time

im on my third day strike of binging.

I want to hurt myself

tired of being brave about things i will now be openly pathetic

why did God give me these battles (getting dressed and leaving the house)

tbh when someone tells me that if i lose weight/body fat im gonna lose my period too, it’s a win-win situation for me

i can already see my parents fighting, my older sibling mad af and just the situation becomes so uncomrfortable when she’s around. Fuckkkkkk

And the worse, she always says that she has friends and that everybody loves her, well then, why she doesn’t go somewhere where she won’t be a burden?