I Hate How People Martyr The Pre-transition Version Of Myself, As If They Were An Innocent Victim I've

I hate how people martyr the pre-transition version of myself, as if they were an innocent victim I've killed.

When they speak about my past, they use my old name, and always in a somber tone, as if they're mourning this poor innocent person who had so much promise, who had achieved so much. When I remind them it was me, I'm still here, I'm told that it was them who achieved these things, that I need to remember that.

That person they remember so fondly, mourn so much was a shell. They mention how pretty she was, how accomplished she was. They speak about me now with disdain, like I've ruined her memory. Like everything I'm doing now is an affront to what she did. They attribute the achievements I made to somebody else, somebody who doesn't exist.

I was miserable. I made all of those achievements in spite of my suffering. On paper I was the perfect granddaughter, the oldest daughter, the golden child. In reality, I couldn't imagine a life where I could ever feel happiness, barely took care of myself, was numb to everything. All of those achievements are nothing in comparison to the joy that living my life authentically has brought me. The passport showing my sex as male, with my chosen name, is worth so much more to me than my degree certificates.

Doing what was expected of me what easy, nobody would have shunned me for being the perfect daughter. The efforts I've made over the past year to build a life worth living, just for myself, in spite of how I've been treated for it, that has been hard. But that is worth it.

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There are a few states that actually have Shield/Refuge laws designed to help trans people fleeing from trans-unsafe states, which also guarantee trans folks access to healthcare. These states are:

California

Colorado

Illinois

Oregon

Vermont

Washington

Minnesota

New Mexico

Maine

Massachusetts

Rhode Island

Connecticut

Washington D.C.

Additionally, some states have "trans sanctuary" executive orders signifying safety for trans folks seeking healthcare. These states are:

Maryland

New Jersey

New York

Living as a resident in these states means you are protected by state's rights and state government to continue or begin receiving trans healthcare. These laws have been codified in their states so everything has been a-ok'd by their state governments.

Stay alive. You got this. I love you.


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[Start ID: (tw Suicide, Briefly Mentioned! Also Family Issues/transphobia.) A Comic With OP As The Character

[Start ID: (tw suicide, briefly mentioned! Also family issues/transphobia.) a comic with OP as the character (medium/long hair, male, with glasses and button up shirt). First panel is him looking content, with an arrow pointing to him saying “completely fine”. Second panel has him looking devastated, with text behind him that reads “I have no friends or family to rely on. The world is burning, horrible people rule the world, and the ones that aren’t completely horrible are at least complicit in my suffering. Every “happy”moment I spend with my family is ruined by the fact that they don’t support me, and don’t think I’m capable of doing anything. I can’t die, because I refuse to be buried as a girl, so I have to suffer in silence with no one to help. Even when I (hopefully) move out and transition, what if I’m just faking it and my family doesn’t take me back? Best case scenario is that I get a found family, and good friends/maybe a partner, but for several years I will have nobody and will be mocked endlessly by my blood “family.” I am truly alone on this barren earth.” The third panel is the same as the first, with him standing there content with an arrow pointing at him saying “completely fine”. /End ID]

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