Pretty Girl With Pretty Energy

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(NOT SO GOOD) ASTROLOGY NOTES: PERSONA CHARTS EDITION

these observations are based on my own personal experiences and also research. please do not reword, copy, repost without asking. I apologise if some of these observations have already been said, I do not keep track.

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༻ In MNEMOSYNE (57) PERSONA CHART your 10th & 11th house shows why and how you inspire others.

ex: libra in 10th = your style, your fair and sociable nature inspires others.

༻ your venus in MNEMOSYNE (57) PERSONA CHART can tell you the aesthetic you wish to have.

ex: virgo venus = light/dark academia aesthetic, fairycore aesthetic.

capricorn or aquarius venus = grunge, alternative aesthetic or even goth (cos saturn goth bitches).

༻ the sun, 5th house or where leo is in VENUS PERSONA CHART can tell you what type of characters you like.

pisces in 5th house = you may likes pisces characters like light yagami, nana osaki, vinsmoke sanji.

aries sun = energetic fireballs like hashibira inosuke (man's too energetic and chooses violence 24/7). you may also like leader-like characters and ones that can fight like levi ackerman.

I have aqua sun in 10th house, leo in 8th house with saturn and the characters I like are tomioka giyuu, shoto todoroki, ray from the promised neverland.

༻ where aquarius/uranus/11th house is in in your VENUS PERSONA CHART tells you what kind of videogames/online games you like to play.

ex: aquarius in 6th house = you may like those games where you serve others or maybe you like nursing games. maybe you even like nintendogs.

cancer in 11th house = cooking games like cooking mama.

I have Libra in 11th house, aquarius and uranus in 3rd house and I liked games like moviestarplanet and imvu, the ones where clothes and communicating with other people is involved.

༻ the ascendant of URANUS PERSONA CHART can tell you what your most 'shocking', 'unique' or 'eye-catching" feature is.

ex: gemini rising = arms and hands, perhaps you have attractive hands, long arms or you have tattoos on your arms.

I have pisces rising and people actually always notice my feet and it's because I walk funny.

༻ mars or any planet in 1st house in DESCENDANT PERSONA CHART tells you what you 'first' notice about other people. It can also tell you your ideal type.

ex: taurus mars = their clothes, money, scent, or even neck.

I have capricorn rising and taurus mars in 4th house and funny enough, I've always talked about liking intimidating, family oriented people with good fashion sense and good careers.

༻ chiron, 7th and 8th house placement in MOON PERSONA CHART tells you what makes you sad/cry.

leo in 8th house = not receiving recognition or attention, children being hurt or mistreated, people not having a childhood.

I have capricorn in 7th house where venus sits, my hardwork not being paid off or being recognised and seeing no improvements makes me sad. the thought of people losing all their hardwork when they die makes me cry.

༻ your 8th house placement in IC PERSONA CHART is your most secret self, what you hide from the world.

༻ the ascendant or descendant in NEPTUNE PERSONA CHART tells you your 'alter ego'.

capricorn rising = classy, rich, intimidating and CEO vibes alter ego.

I have sagittarius rising where mars and pluto sits, my alter ego is dat bitch that is intelligent and knows how to fight and is also seductive. so... natasha romanoff aka black widow!

༻ 7th house or venus in PLUTO PERSONA CHART tells you how you deal with breakups and what you're like after them.

ex: pisces = you deal with it by secluding yourself.

I have aquarius venus in 5th house, I deal with them by flirting and (I would) deal with it by having flings with my friends.

༻ placement of pluto in IC PERSONA CHART tells you what you miss most about your old self or the past. It also tells you how you've changed and what shadow traits you've overcome.

ex: pluto in 5th house = you miss your creative self, you miss when you were happy and going to playgrounds.

I have pluto in 2nd house, when I was a kid I was very stubborn (still am lol) and was very greedy and gluttonous. I'm not anymore ofc.

༻ your ASCENDANT PERSONA CHART tells you more about your body parts than your natal chart.

ex: moon in gemini or 3rd house = soft hands.

I have aquarius mars and my legs especially calves are very toned, they look like I've been working out (which I haven't).

༻ lovelock (51663) in JUNO/GROOM (5129)/BRIEDE (19029) PERSONA CHART tells you what will keep you/get you and your person together.

ex: lovelock in leo, the fun, romance and excitement will keep you together.

I have it in pisces 10th house, our reputation and career will get us together.

༻ the ascendant in IC PERSONA CHART tells you what your early life was like. It can also tell you what you're like at home.

ex: leo rising = you perhaps received a lot of attention and was very artistic and joyous in your early life. at home, perhaps you do a lot of art or are dramatic.

I have scorpio rising where moon also sits, at home I am very secretive and also emotional, no one ever knows how I'm feeling or what I'm up to.

༻ union (1585) in JUNO/GROOM (5129)/BRIEDE (19029) PERSONA CHART can tell you about the meeting of you and your person.

ex: in libra 9th house = you may meet them in foreign lands or in college/a place of learning, you will find them attractive.

mine is in scorpio 10th house, it's been said that I will meet my future spouse at work and I will find him mysterious.

༻ mars in MC PERSONA CHART can tell you your drive, why you work.

ex: virgo mars = you work because you want to help others and feel needed, it is beneficial for your health.

I have taurus mars in 3rd house, I work because of the possibility of learning something new and I only work if I know I will treat myself after the hardwork.

༻ ascendant in MARS PERSONA CHART tells you how you express your anger, what you look like when you are angry.

ex: aquarius ascendant = when you're angry, you could give a lot of silent treatment or ignore the person. you look cold when you're angry.

I have aries ascendant, I express it by doing a physical activity like sports and sometimes violence.

༻ the ascendant in MARS PERSONA CHART can also tell you about your speed (running speed and reaction speed).

ex: taurus ascendant = can be pretty slow or you choose to run slow because you don't see the point of running fast and using all your energy for no reason. your speed for senses is pretty good and fast ngl.

I have aries ascendant, I am pretty fast at running and I have fast reaction speed and reflexes.

༻ your mars in PLUTO PERSONA CHART is how you react to danger.

taurus mars in 8th, I will mostly likely fight or just sit there and die, no in between LMFAO

༻ PLUTO PERSONA CHART can tell you the stages of your death.

I have virgo rising and ik imma die because of health problems. mars is in 8th, it will most likely hurt or perhaps the pain/cause will be unnoticeable, it could also happen quite quick.

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What's in your pheromones?

A tarot reading

Intoxication was her pact, people killed to be in the line. Last thing they saw, white eyes!

Pile 1

She has a charm same as that of a hurricane!

(The Hanged Man Rx, 10 of Pentacles Rx, 2 of Wands, 9 of Pentacles Rx, Temperance, 6 of Pentacles Rx)

Your skin is what appeals to the people around you. It makes them imagine scenarios with you. Wondering what it feels to touch you or be touched by you. That soft, supple look as if using the most hydrating moisturizers ever. They could compare it to a baby's skin, the smoothness like it was made yesterday. Protected from all the external ruggedness.

The same is what they get the vibe from you. Innocence. They think that you are a protected child. Or just the mere look at you, would want them to think about taking care of you, for them you deserve the world. Getting protective over you, letting no harm come forth in your path. They find such a quality rare where they feel as if the purity is what is consuming them and making them want to devour it at the same time. Wanting to be the only one to be able to experience this heaven you make on earth. Would definitely want to touch you, not to taint you but to make sure that they are not in a dream.

When you walk in the streets, you make people stop in their tracks, you get their attention with your presence as that of an elixir which brings the soul, the much needed serenity. You get their mind geared up and their heartbeats erratic. They would then try to get a grip. They need to process the fact that they encountered someone who makes them feel complete and more so, safe. You calm their beast. For years they had been searching for you and finally they found you. They more often than not would be plotting ways to get closer to you anyhow. Because, you may be a bit shy or don't like to meddle with people too much when outside. You may find many people wanting to talk to you, all at once.

Your cheeks, more the skin around the bones which shines a bit can be more appealing to the people you encounter. Wanting to take your pretty face in their hands and admire you for the whole day, just like that. The way your features sit is indescribable, the perfection is too much for them. It makes them feel things. Near feral. You arouse their passion for the most dangerous thing in the world, a person's innocence. They would want to build something with you, romantic, platonic anything that makes them see your angelic face every single day. You might find that the people you encounter online would ask you to meet them, frequently. Your pheromones give you the characteristic presence.

You don't even know many hearts you have broken. How many times you just get imprinted in a stranger's mind. The get surprised too but soon realise why! You give them the feeling that everything is fine or you could be that magical being that could make it happen. People could want a family with you, a proper one where the roles are very much distinguished, where they provide you the things you lay your eyes on. They may want children with you or may have imagined them in picture alongside you. You could give such a vibe where you would care about children a lot. Also, you seldom would hear the word no because people can't, they really can't, to those eyes specially. 'The real fantasy'.

Extra messages- pink barbie like purses, transparent bags, sharpies, french/round nails, small feet, thicker booty I mean body, blue/purple glitter tattoos, bucket hats, journals, aesthetic skincare, watery persona, white cardigan, butterflies, raspberry icecream, vanilla icecream cake, cafe mocha, no I'm not an angel baby, I can handle it all, psst you know nothing, I didn't know!

Zodiacs- 2nd/4th/11th house placements. Cancer/Pisces Moon, Taurus/Pisces Sun/Saturn, Virgo/Libra Venus, Aquarius/Gemini/Sagittarius Mars. Big three having a Taurus/Libra degree. Asteroid Bella (695) in earth/water signs especially Virgo. Aphrodite (1388) in Natal/Persona chart in 4th/12th house, Pisces rising in Venus Persona Chart, Earth Rising in Moon Persona chart. True Lilith (h13) in 4th/11th house. Asteroid Eros (433) on the angles. Could be Water dominant with second being earth. Signature could be Cancer either Western/Vedic astrology.

Pile 2

She had a depth only the sky could measure!

(The Hermit Rx, Devil, 7 of Pentacles, 10 of Cups Rx, The Moon Rx, Page of Pentacles Rx)

Your hair is your thing, periodt. Your head, baby hair, your brows, your lashes! People just get obsessed with one look, one touch. It's silky, super fine quality, flowy, bouncy whatever maybe the type. You harness your pheromone energy in this way. Because they are actually chemicals which bring about ritualistic actions. People would try to get a whiff of your hair to know what it smells like, your hair invades their mind. The brows could be naturally set making you look cute and sexy at the same time.

People on the streets when they gaze upon you can feel a primal reaction within them. Almost animalistic. Stopping themselves from touching you, for it could be too much for you. You would encounter a lot of strange events where people might unconsciously turn towards you even when they are meant to walk in a different direction. If not then, unconsciously would atleast try to lay their fingers on your hair. You are that drug that stimulates their soul. They buzz around you, you awaken the beastial energy. Your essence is super volatile that even a person not looking at you can sense your vibe. The range is far and far beyond.

You bring about their darkest, hidden selves to the forefront. Almost, telling them to look at what they actually are and what they actually want. The intensity that you have. People would do anything to be in your place. They feel as if you know the secrets, know what goes under the table. And this makes them scared and more than that, super attracted to you. You help heal their shadow sides, you make them accept their most neglected side. They become grateful, they want to worship, you are their goddess, their saviour. You could humble even the most arrogant person by just being in your presence. You have slightly different energy than most people, you feel as if different creature like a siren, incarnated to show what it is to be like when we become what we are supposed to be.

This makes for the people being extra nice to you. If they give flowers to others, they would give you exclusively big bouquets. Gucci? Nah, Have a Berkins Bag. People would give you things what they would not even use themselves, they would keep you higher than anyone else. They would boast to people about how they are friends with you or how you in general talk to them. They are more so addicted to the soul satisfaction you bring within, you make their raging stop, only to bring in a different one which revolves around you. The way you flip your hair is the way their heart flips. You trigger them in a good way and they absolutely, madly love every second of it. You could haunt their deepest part and say " Wasn't I always your fantasy".

You make them so emotional sometimes, but that's the contradictory part that they never see you even a slightest bit bothered and it makes them hot. How you bring havoc and have the audacity to keep everything in place. You could have this energy where you know how much to enjoy and when to let yourself free. And, when time comes you retreat back, you almost can have a legacy. Because there is this power within you. You sweep off energies and transmute them into something good, something useful, not only yours but others. People imagine you in romantic terms. They see themselves standing proud and high with you, wanting to come on that level because they know it is not easy, nope, not at all. In a way you flirt but never commit unless you find the one who deserves you.

Extra messages- black pants, pumps, stilettos, grunge/dark/square nails, blue shirts, pink hoodie, vintage makeup, dramatic eyeliner, belly button piercing, biker boots, brownies/fudge, iced brew vanilla latte, butterscotch flavour, pain au chocolat, face wipes, red lips, hoops, mirrors, I'm not anyone's anyone, you sure wanna cross me? Well, I can do this!

Zodiacs- 1st/5th/8th house placements. Scorpio/Leo Sun. Fire risings, Capricorn/Aquarius Moon. Gemini/Pisces Venus. Gemini/Sagittarius Mars. Saturn in air signs. Aphrodite (1388) in 5th/8th/10th house in Natal/Persona chart. Asteroid Bella (695) in fire/air signs. Fire rising in Venus Persona chart especially Leo, Air rising in Moon Persona chart. True Lilith (h13) in 1st/7th/10th house. Asteroid Eros (433) in water signs. Can be Air dominant with water as second. Signature can be Leo in Western/Vedic astrology.

Pile 3

Nothing got the souls like her sizzle would!

(The Sun Rx, 4 of Swords, The Chariot Rx, 9 of Cups, Justice, 3 of Wands Rx)

Your smile can be the death of someone, someday. The curves of it, the way it spreads on your face slowly, can glue people's eyes to your face. They would just be looking at the way you light up their world with just a sweet giggle. Some of you even have a tilted smile which is a cherry on top. As if you are smirking all the time, knowing who you actually are. Your pearly white teeth has gotten into notice by EVERYONE. You have the sparkle.

This attribute of you makes people look at you. They could be doing their thing, then they feel you, hear you and they swerve their heads, snap from what they were focused on and look at you. You direct everyone's attention on you. Natural charisma within. People around you might never be able to resist looking at you, admiring you as soon as they know you are there. You activate people's senses. They get heightened, they can even feel the palpitations of the air. How the room temperature rises up as soon as you decide it's time for yourself to shine, to glow. Where others just burn in the mesmerizing beauty of yours. And they gladly accept it. After all you are their nectar in the times of hunger.

You bring happiness with you. Real genuine happiness. When someone is in your company, they can never be sad. You lighten up the mood. People approach you when they have a slight inconvenience, knowing you would help them, ease their problem. You would make someone go from 'sitting all alone to dancin' with their hearts'. Your laugh is deep, rich, something you don't encounter everyday. Some of the people would want to record it or just anything you say and play it on loop. When you speak, everyone's listening. You got all ears. You make people drool and their mouth hang with your presence. They way you interpret things is life is what amazes people. You are a keeper and have some extensive qualities within you.

You stir justice wherever you walk, wherever you go. Making lives so so much better. The hypothetical situation where flowers grow with your footsteps. Who wouldn't fall for such a person. You can bring back the charms in things that lost it a long time back. That is, you put value in things, you make them worthy. People assume that you are a magician otherwise it's impossible. You make friends instantly, you get connections super quick, all with just a 'wink'. Lot of focus on the way you sit or stand, maybe you have a tilted pose or just put your leg on top of another. People may like to impersonate you here.

Apart from heavy physical attraction, people love your rich inner world. Your actions drop slight hints to it. The energy here is cosmic. Too many things going on all at once yet there is the perfect amount of everything. This sums up your characteristic presence. Further, the mental play is what has a grip on people, so much that they find it stupendous. You even make people blush. Everything Gourmet. Others might fantasize a getaway with you to places where only you two exist, no one would then disturb from taking in everything you do. And they are always ready to come your way, even though you talk to everyone, but giving a piece of your world only to the ones who deserve. Never gonna stop trying. You strut past, knowing all of the things they imagine about you, smiling!

Extra messages- palettes, paintbrushes, abstract, prints, skirts, fuzzy socks, sneakers, ankle highs, rings, nail art, pretty, roll cakes, espresso shots, dark chocolate, Cookies n' cream, denim jacket, Coke, who's she? Let's be friends, where have you been, no way that's true, 5:00 pm, it's time, twilight, coming right there, could you help me?

Zodiacs- 3rd/5th/9th/10th house placements. Aries/Leo Sun. Capricorn/Gemini Moon. Pisces/Virgo rising. Capricorn/Aries/Taurus Venus. Libra/Sagittarius Mars. Cancer/Aries/Sag degree in the big three. Aphrodite (1388) in 5th/7th/9th house in Natal/Persona chart. Air rising in Venus Persona chart, Fire rising in Moon Persona chart. Asteroid Bella (695) in fire signs. Asteroid Eros (433) in air signs. Could be a fire dominant with air as the second. May have Sag/Libra signature in the Western/Vedic chart.

This is a card+intuition reading. Take what resonates and let the rest slide. For entertainment purposes only. It is a metaphorical reading what the general effect you have on people. Self-worth can never be decided by Readings. It is decided by what you are inside. Also, it depends on aspects, orbs, strength and the whole chart. Different people have different results. Will wary. Nothing above is meant to hurt anyone's sentiments.

The above pictures don't belong to me, credit to the respective owners.

Me, a Scorpio Moon: I’m such a sensitive bitch

Me, a Scorpio Moon: *meets ppl with Pisces Moons*

Me, a Scorpio Moon:

Me, a Scorpio Moon: Y'know what, no. I take it back, I am apparently very well put together

trust your subconscious.

so many people are still walking on egg shells with their subconscious minds. it becomes quite obvious when some still view the subconscious separate from themselves. it’s something like… "your subconscious mind never sleeps!! be careful with the music you consume!! it always listens!!".

you are your mind.

relax. actually, don’t. slap yourself in the face right now. my guy, you ARE your subconscious mind. furthermore, you are both: the conscious and the subconscious. when we say "you are the only operant power" or "you are in charge", we aren’t just transferring all of that power to your subconscious. we are stating that YOU hold all the power and YOU are in control of everything.

yes, the abilities of the mind can be intimidating. but those abilities and what your mind is capable of creating, THAT‘S YOUR ABILITY! whatever goes for your subconscious mind ALSO goes for you!

have faith in your abilities.

your subconscious mind knows you better than you do right now, consciously. it knows damn well when you make a joke and MEAN what you are saying, because … YOU know it! you don’t need to be afraid of it.

just trust it. trust is one of the keys in manifesting. when you manifest, you need to have faith in yourself. therefore, you also need to trust yourself. allow yourself to feel easy about the things that you are doing mentally but also physically. don’t be too harsh on yourself. again, it’s called the law of assumption! whatever you say, goes — use it to your advantage!

  ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀love and light, ella.

MY SUCCESS STORY ☆

warnings: mentions of abusive relationship, depression, self harm & ed.

long post ahead. i decided to share a long rant about how my life was before i found out about the law & after i did. how i managed to cope with traumatic events & recurring suicidal thoughts. if any of these topics trigger you, then please skip the first part of this post! my success story will be on the third fragment of the post.

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐈: before the law of assumption

when i was fourteen years old i had my first ever boyfriend. he was, initially, what people would call “prince charming”. the first few months of dating him were perfect: he always made sure to look after me, bring me flowers, cuddle me when i asked him to and much more. he was also very cordial and well mannered; almost every person who knew him spoke highly of him. but little did i know, that i was actually living in a farce.

three months into our relationship and his demeanour started to switch gradually. at first, it was the smallest of things that made me question if he was still the same guy as before. he would no longer give me any of his attention, call me, comfort me or even buy me gifts (something that he often did). then, he started to mock me in front of his peers, get mad at any given time and verbally harass me. but nonetheless, i kept staying with him.

not long after, verbal abuse turned into physical abuse. he would lure me into his house after calling me, crying like a baby to convince me to come over. he would purposefully get angry at me for not tying my shoes “the way he told me to” or for not drinking water from the tap. after screaming at me and verbally abuse me for god knows how long, he would pick me up and slam me against the door and start chocking me. or he would slap me and beat me repeatedly on my stomach, arms and legs. he would do this for a good whole hour every time.

tw: sexual abuse after that, he would gaslight me and blame me for his behaviour. he would start crying and tell me “sorry” as i was lying on the floor with bruises all over my body. it wouldn’t take long before he would take me to his room to sexually assault me. i won’t go into detail about what he did, but you get the idea.

before taking the bus to get to my home, i would cover myself up as well as i could to hide my bruises and welts, not before trying my best to mask them with the makeup i had brought in my purse. this is why no one ever suspected anything bad going on. my parents are NOT to blame for this. i was the one hiding this from them, partially because i was ashamed of myself for being weak and frail and mostly because my boyfriend would threaten to kill me if i ever said a word to anyone.

this went on for months. after being abused, i would go home and lock myself in my room; i could do nothing if not cry and tear my hair apart from my scalp. unfortunately, this was the time i started self harming. i would do it in places where no one could see my scars and target my inner thighs. i was so ashamed of myself, but i just couldn’t stop hurting. all i wanted to do was die. what abuse did to me was: cause severe anxiety attacks to occur often, insomnia, fatigue, faint and so on. i even reached a point in life where i would stop eating completely or vomit the little food i ate during the day. in simple words, i became depressed.

at some point, i couldn’t hide this anymore: i was forcing myself to go to school because i wanted to make everyone believe i was fine, but my teachers & classmates started to worry about how i looked. at home, i could easily snuck into my room, stuff myself with clothes and lie to my parents about eating, but even they started to get suspicious. long story short, after passing out one day in school, i was taken to the hospital where i was diagnosed with and ed and depression. not being able to hide my body from anyone, the doctors saw all the leftover scars and fresh bruises from my abuse. this is when my parents’ worst fears came all up to surface. they immediately contacted the police to tell them about my boyfriend (he was eighteen at the time) and when he realized that he was in deep shit, he confessed to what he did, but blamed it on his “mental health”.

he was diagnosed with bpd and was left on probation, which wasn’t enough of a punishment for him. but thankfully, i found out that he was jailed not too long ago.

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𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐈𝐈: when my identity got exposed on tumblr (after finding out about the law)

after two years, i had managed to recover. not mentally, but physically. this was around the time i had opened my law of assumption blog. when i found the law (a year before opening my blog), i did a lot of research on it and wanted to test if it was actually real. that’s when i found out about neville goddard and started reading pdfs of his books online. while reading them, i found out about the “I AM” state, now commonly known as the “VOID” state.

i think some of you guys remember my void success story (the one i shared on tumblr a year ago), where i had manifested things such as my appearance, moving out of my country etc. when i posted it, it was actually a year old, meaning that i had went into the void * almost a year before opening my tumblr.

when i opened my tumblr blog (halokisses) in february of 2022, i started sharing my success stories and advice on the loass and i gained quite the platform rather quickly. in less than three months i had amassed over three thousand followers, which is a lot. but this was also the time when a lot of negative and deranged people interacted (in anon mode) with my account. I would receive asks of people blaming me because they “couldn’t” manifest or enter the void. or people threatening me in general. it was becoming super frustrating.

i have to admit, as much as i was manifesting great things in my life, i didn’t have the time to cherish them and actually live them out. although, that was nothing anywhere near what i experienced a few months later.

when i was on a break from posting in july (2022) and was only active on my Instagram, my identity was stolen and violated. someone had decided to pretend to have both of my real names (that i had privately shared with a few of you guys on ig) and plagiarize my content. when i rightfully confronted this person, they backfired and made me look like the crazy, bad person harassing them. this got a lot of people to start attacking me, harassing me, send me death and rape threats and much more.

after that, i chose to leave tumblr (not deactivate my account yet). those months were very hard for me. i kept having nightmares of my identity being completely exposed by the hands of this person, because in my mind, i thought they could find more information about me that i never put out on the internet. grief was all i could feel. i once again started blaming myself for simply deciding to say my name online and beating myself up because of this. this lead me to gather all of my trauma and link it all together.

this may sound insane to many of you, but when someone suffers from ptsd, it’s not impossible for them to let such things affect them deeply, even if, in my case, i was dealing with this online and not in real life. to clarify, i don’t compare this specific event to my abuse. but it is important to recognise that it damaged me nonetheless. i was suffering with steady negative thoughts, nightmares and even suicidal thoughts at times.

thankfully tho, i was able to expose this person a few months later and detach from the situation for a little bit. i still had a lot of work to do to fully reach internal peace. but i felt like i could finally breathe after months of impending frustration and anxiety.

𝐈. 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 with everything that happened to me was honestly a difficult task and it took me months to finally reach internal peace. i want to specify that this post was made with the intention to get my past off my chest and bury it away forever. i don’t want to discourage people or make them think that it takes “this much” time to manifest your dream life. this is MY personal experience and how i personally dealt with it. i couldn’t be more proud of myself for it. i’m such a strong woman and i’m still so young. i couldn’t thank myself enough for being so tough and for standing firm.

what i learned from all this is that it’s essential to fight for yourself and inner peace. that’s what matters the most for me. finding the loass and being able to combine it all together definitely played a big role and it proves to me, once again, that as of right now (and forever), i won’t have to worry about anything. my past is dead and so are the people who hurt me. they better try and come back, but this time i won’t be so forgiving. i won’t let anyone ruin me like this anymore.

𝐈𝐈. 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 has got to be my favourite success story ever. from the start, i had the feeling that i would succeed and justice would be made n that’s exactly how it went. but the real success happened within me. i am now free from the shackles of my trauma. i don’t worry about anything anymore. i don’t blame myself for what happened to me. i moved on and let go. i have all the means to get back at the people who hurt me and will use them with no hesitation if needed. i don’t ruminate on negative thoughts and live my life peacefully. everything works out for me & nothing gets in my way.

౨ৎ⋆｡˚ ⋆ i’m once again honouring myself and admitting how happy i am to be me. to think that i was just a little girl when i dealt with my abuse and succeeded… it makes me infinitely proud of me. words can’t express how much i appreciate my mind and soul. i worship every inch of my body and i’m not ashamed to say so. and everyone should think about themselves this way. if you went through the things i did, i hug you dearly. you are so strong and you will succeed. i love you and if you need a helping hand, i’ll always be here. there are people out there who care about you and i’m the very first one. you’re an angel, you’re a pure soul and you deserve only good things in life.

i hope that everything wasn’t too harsh to read, i tried to be as less detailed as possible, but wait! the post is not concluded yet.

here to read about my success story ˚◞♡

𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐔𝐂𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘

〔 as briefly mentioned at the very end on this post of mine, i changed many many things about my life and therefore what i might’ve manifested in the past has changed. note: this is everything i manifested in the last month or two. i worked on myself and on my mental health first of course. some of the things listed down here are very recent and date back to a few weeks, if not days ago.〕

༄ ‧₊˚ ‎WHAT I MANIFESTED

a new appearance from head to toe. believe it or not, this is actually the third time i change my appearance lmfao i knowww, but i always feel the constant need to change. this time tho, i’m pretty sure i’ll keep my appearance the way it currently is !!

moving out of where i used to live before. i won’t say where i went, but i LOVE it here! everyone is so nice & caring and i’ve been welcomed with open arms. all i can say is that i’ve moved continents and it was the best decision i could ever make. it took me a short amount of time to move out.

my best friend to come live with me. to clarify, she doesn’t live in my house, but she moved out with her parents so we could stay close. i also manifested that the both of us could speak the local language fluently and perfectly!

school to start later than most schools here. i just want to enjoy summer a little bit more before the mind-breaking routine restarts (i’m obviously joking lmao, i love school. no i don’t). ++ i manifested to go to a prestige school! i also might’ve manifested it to look similar to harry potter’s castle and i love it! i genuinely can’t wait to start just for this.

travelling a lot more than i used to. my goal is to visit as many places around the world as possible and it’s something that i’ve been doing in the course of the past month. i’m taking so many pictures too with my new digital camera that *drum rolls* i manifested in literally a day! it was insane how fast it happened, but honestly i’m not surprised anymore because everything i desire manifests instantly.

to stay safe and protected at all times. over two years ago, when i went into the void, i had manifested my fighting skills and they’ve only gotten better overtime! imagine mikasa ackerman type of fighter, yeah that’s how i am so y’all better watch out.

healing & helping people deal with their trauma. this is so important to me and it’s honestly the favourite thing i manifested. it’s pretty self explanatory, but if you guys want to know more about this (and need help), please don’t be afraid to text me.

to pass all my tests, finals, etc. and i also manifested to shift into my “school dr” five minutes before each test (whether it’s oral or written) to get all the correct answers. i can’t wait to try this out, tho i still will be studying regardless, because i love doing so! (except for maths & chem lol)

for my parents & loved ones to forget what i went through as a young girl. basically, i revised them ever having trauma after me. it was the right decision to make and i’ll forever be thankful for it.

to revise and go to the weeknd’s concert!! i had a blast y’all this was one the best things i could ever think of. last year i couldn’t go to abel’s concert because i was on vacation, but i manifested going there anyways and now i have such a vivid memory of it + all the videos i took are in my camera roll.

to never spiral or dwell on my negative thoughts. letting go of traumatic events + always reminding myself of how strong and powerful i am and that nothing can get in my way. (aka always manifest instantly and successfully)

for all of my scars to be fully healed and for internal wounds to riparate + to never get ill or get terminal diseases (this works for my loved ones as well).

plus many more things that i can’t think of right now! ♡

༄ ‧₊˚ HOW I DID IT

before anyone asks, no i did not use the void or any other method. i don’t go into the void anymore, because there’s no need for it. it’s an instant state just like ANY OTHER.

you’re always in a state (your I AM=awareness). the void is just your awareness shifting into your I AM where you’re simply assuming that there’s emptiness around you, hence you’re not in your physical world.

here’s how i manifested my dream life:

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝟏.

i decided what I wanted. i had a deep self-to-self talk and understood EXACTLY my desires and wants. i asked my heart what it truly longed for. then i made my decision

i scripted a few things out, such as my full detailed appearance, where i would move out and how my school looked like. the rest of the stuff was not scripted. ♡ TIP: i find it easier to use pictures and put them all together in a collage to have a clear image of everything i’m changing.

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝟐.

i used my all-time favourite affirmation to seal the deal and ACCEPTED MY DESIRES AS REAL. the umbrella affirmation i used is: “it is done”. here’s some affirmations you can use:

it is done

i have everything i desire/want

i got it all

i am

*any word that you choose implies that you have what you want* ie: “pink”

ACCEPTANCE of myself and HAVING FAITH were the key steps of my journey. it was somewhat easy for me to tap into the STATE OF THE WISH FULFILLED since i had manifested many things before, however this does not imply that it should be hard for others to tap into it quickly and easily. you are always in a STATE, you just have to decide which one.

i sticked with MY STATE as much as i could: if i would get discouraged or suddenly get negative thoughts, i would let those thoughts hit and dip. i wouldn’t acknowledge them whatsoever.

NOTE: i would still interact with the 3d regularly. ie: if i had to write down where i lived, i put my old city as such and so on. but i kept on EXCLUSIVELY acknowledge my imagination (=4d) and dismiss the 3d. i KNEW i lived in x city in x country in x continent and moved on.

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝟑

the 3d conformed. faster than the speed of light i might add. it might’ve felt odd, because i had never manifested such important things without the void (see, everything is possible and instant without the void), but everything worked out perfectly and went accordingly to plan ˘͈ᵕ˘͈

𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒

i would like to end this post by saying that it was 100% my choice to share about my past with you guys and in no way, shape or form i made this for others to feel pity or compassion for me. i don’t need it and don’t want it. i just felt ready and serene to share something really delicate about me to encourage people to always fight for themselves.

and this is also a rant to explain to people that if a blogger wants to share more about themselves and share sensitive topics like these, it’s because they want to. you shouldn’t be the one deciding for them or, worse, expose their personal life to the claws of the internet. this was a throughly made decision by ME ONLY.

i hope you guys found this post helpful and liked everything that i manifested! thank you for being here & for being patient and attentive.

with love, andreia ♡

self validating with manifesting౨ৎ₊ ⊹🍈

if u can visualize it, if u can conceptualize it then it is 100% by all means possible. if u visualized the pillow on ur bed for a couple minutes, and then u stopped thinking about it, would u be like "oh now i need to see that pillow in real life to know if what i saw in my head is real" NO ofc not.

stop doubting urself, stop questioning urself bcuz the only barrier between ur desire being materialized is YOU. it all starts with you.

rest easy and know, that ur never gonna have to look for ur desires, the desires will show themselves TO you. thats the whole point of why ur manifesting it. its like reading a chapter in a book, and going back to re-read that chapter over and over again and then wondering why u aren't progressing in the story. its silly.

u fulfill urself in ur imagination all the time anyways, so its so simple. regardless of old stories and old habits, we know that reprogramming the mind is EASY. monitor ur mental conversations, make sure that they align with the fact that u have ur desires and literally LIVE UR LIFE IN THE BLISS AND COMFORT THAT U DESERVE CUZ YK THAT U HAVE EVERYTHING U WANT ALREADY. u dont need to be thinking about it 24/7 for it to manifest.

dont put limitations on urself and ur manifestations, its literally the easiest thing in the world to do bcuz u need nothing but ur mind.

my experience with psych k

hi, i wanted to share my experience with psych k bc i personally belive it's helped a lot :)

so a few days ago i decided to try out psych k I watched the videos @chaisshitposts recommended and so i basically sat down on the edge of my bed, crossed one ankle over the other, and crossed the opposite hand with my other hand (it's hard to explain but you can see in the video) and then i set a timer for 3min and 30 seconds. I then put my tongue to the top of my mouth and breathed in and as i breathed out i whispered my affirmation. after the 3 mins were up i switched positions and did the same. I did 4 sets, the first 2 saying "i am the void" and the other 2 saying "i always enter the void state easily" after this i went to sleep and the next day i woke up i felt just completely relaxed and felt no resistance when thinking about the void. i really do recommend watching this vid

https://youtu.be/rNGssAsz7gY?si=UD6mzOKnzSFhX_5V

bc it explains everything and also when you do this you need to make sure you are really letting all your resistance and doubts out. just let everything go and let your thoughts be. (as the vid says)

anyway i think this has been really helpful overall and i recommend it! when i used to think about the void i had lots of doubts and resistance come to mind and it always stressed me out, and I'd try to push it away but it never helped and it all came to mind, espec when i was trying to do methods, and now that's all gone! i haven't attempted any methods after that but today i will and im pretty certain ill get in. 💗

GUYS GUYS GUYS OMG OMGGGGGGH

so I entered the void for the first time ever AHHHHHHH

but i got too excited and woke up from it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i did the FILD method by @gorgeouslypink and it literally happened so quickly, i was focusing on my fingers for a moment the next is literally darkness but stars were there. i genuinely yelled🥹😭 when i woke up because i wasnt able to affirming anything

literally my first ever enterance. im fuckin crying 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 now i KNOW that I'll enter again cuz that was crazy. im im imajajxhdjwk as

edit: forgot to add this BUT i made a big bundle using @lotusmi @fleurlx and @rosellesworkshop and a bunch of other subs continuosly the past week b4 this so definitely do check out their subs cuz they're TOP TEIRR

@fleurlx BIG NEWS! AHHH IM SHAKING

gemini in your chart shows what area of your life you just can’t stop entertaining!

credits for the idea to @/melanatedmomma on twitter.

☿ gemini 1H: geminis usually tend to change their appearance up a lot so this could mean you just can’t stop changing your looks! since air signs are prone to be indecisive this could be because you can never decide which look suits you the best

☿ gemini 2H: always chasing your dreams/goals/ambitions (which is a good thing) you can’t settle down until you make yourself happier and you might get anxious if you don’t feel comfortable in your life, you hate the feeling of anything being pointless.

☿ gemini 3H: you’re literally always thinking of everything/something, mind like a pisces! lol you will for sure speak your mind and you just have the need to share your opinion all the time 

☿ gemini 4H: you can never stop worrying about family issues or your family members. you want to fix everything or any problems (your love language might be acts of service) if there isn’t a problem you’re just very generous with ur family and you’re always making sure you always show them love and spoil them with gifts/affection

☿ gemini 5H: this placement is even worse if you have a gemini venus lmao but you can never stop thinking about being in a relationship or you can never stop thinking about spreading your creative ideas around - you might’ve even been the kid that’s the best in art class! you could be a sweet talker and very charming so people are easily attracted to you but this placement can indicate high standards so you might just flirt for fun. [you might even daydream of sex a lot 👀 or having kids depending if you want one or not ofc]

☿ gemini 6H: similar to gemini 1H you’re always worrying about your appearance do i look good? you’re the person that will always dress to impress. this placement can also show a workaholic so you might pay attention to your job a lot

☿ gemini 7H: well i’d say this placement really depends on your other birth chart placements and your faith/destiny 💀 you could get married more than once in this lifetime and simply bc a gemini 7H gets betrayed a LOT in relationships. you might even be a somewhat naive person so you jump from relationships into relationships without thinking

☿ gemini 8H: correct me if i’m wrong but do you get betrayed a lot or have many enemies? because you’re a very revengeful person who easily builds hate for other people. you’re always planning of revenge and you can’t relax until you know they got their karma. you might even experience a lot of one night stands which you don’t mind having ;) LMAO

☿ gemini 9H: you’re the type of person who thinks being away from home when you’re stressed is the answer. you want to explore the world and go on many vacations just to put your mind at ease.. you never stop doing what you want and what’s best for you. (love this placement omg!!) you could’ve also been the nerd in school who always makes sure they get good grades or you were the teachers pet at some point

☿ gemini 10H: similar to gemini 2H you’re always chasing your ambitions and dreams! due to 10H having to do with your public image you could also worry a lot what others are thinking of you so you might always entertain your bank account’s loss of money 😭 you love to spend (not judging you i do the same lol)

☿ gemini 11H: if someone has you as their friend they’re a lucky person for sure!! you love to spend on your friends and make them happy.. you won’t be able to go to sleep peacefully without knowing your friends are happy. you might even see your friends as your family/second family (so adorable) <3

☿ gemini 12H: you’re so invented into spirituality and mystery. you’re the person that always wants to know why, how and when !? you might put a lot of time into astrology, spirituality etc. or you might even be interested into the meaning of your dreams/you’ll try to lucid dream

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