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Birth Chart Indicators of being a Generational Curse/Cycle Breaker

Having Aries, Scorpio, Taurus or Libra as your North Node.

Having North Node in your fourth or tenth house. Fourth housers especially, though.

Having your sun sign at 0, 1 or 29 degrees.

Having Aries as your sun sign.

Having Aries, Taurus, Scorpio or Aquarius as your Chiron sign.

Having Saturn in houses 1-6, especially in your first house.

Having a lot of first, fourth or tenth house placements.

Having a lot of Aries/Aquarius placements or Mars/Uranus aspects.

Significant Saturn or Mars-Sun aspects.

Having your Lilith sign in Cancer or Aries.

Aries breaks familial generational curses, Aquarius breaks societal generational curses.

Having Virgo, Leo or Cancer as your moon sign.

Uranus or Mercury being in retrograde.

A smaller detail is that these people usually either have fixed or cardinal Jupiter signs. I rarely see someone with a mutable one.

Yods in the birth chart, even just one. These particular curse breakers also might come off as odd or spiritually gifted in some regard from a young age. Prone to panic attacks/anxiety and also tend to fixate or have one thing they're really good at. They tend to get thrown off MUCH more easily than any other generational curse breakers, though.

Having a lot of Trine aspects.

Having a lot of cardinal placements.

Mercury in first house.

Please keep in mind that these are just my personal observations.

Also that having just one or a few of these in your chart doesn't necessarily mean this applies to you. I notice that people who fit this bill tend to have at least three (usually more) of these qualities in their charts.

Astrology placements and aspects that are stronger than the US Marines:

1. Saturn in 1H

2. Moon in Capricorn

3. L7 in 12H

4. L11 in 12H

5. Venus/Saturn

6. Mars/Saturn

7. Pisces Rising

8. Aquarius Rising

9. Venus in 1H

10. Stellium anywhere

11. Mars in 7H

12. Scorpio Rising

(more to be added)

Argichi River Valley, Armenia

“Leah was my absolute best friend.  She was an only child too, so it was this next level sisterly bond.  Her boyfriend Rasual became like a brother as well.  He valued Leah’s friendships, so we became like a family.  One night the two of them were driving home and lost control of their vehicle.  Both of them passed away, instantly.  My grieving process was very hard.  People were worried about me.  The everyday, basic things became so difficult.  I wasn’t cooking dinner for my kids.  I wasn’t painting very much.  Then one year after their death, I got invited to exhibit at an art show in Cleveland.  It was on the anniversary of Leah’s funeral.  I’m not even sure why I accepted the invitation.  While I was getting ready in my hotel room, I remember saying a little prayer.  I said: ‘Leah, I love you so much, but help me get through tonight without talking about you.  Just one night.’  I arrived at the event and noticed that I’d be sharing my wall with another artist.  His name was Bonic.  He was deep in conversation with someone.  The first thing I noticed was his voice.  It was a very strong voice.  And it was so familiar.  I introduced myself, and told him: ‘This is going to sound crazy, but your voice sounds just like my friend who passed away.’  And he said: ‘Do you mean Rasual?’  It turns out that he’d known Leah and Rasual for years.  He recognized me from their memorial service.  That was over a year ago.  Since then, Bonic and I have done so many collaborations.  We’ve been all over the world together.  He’s great with my kids.  He’s my soul mate.  Without question, he was the reason I was at that show.  At the end of that night, I went back to my hotel room, and I wrote an entry in my journal.  I wrote the date, and a single line: ‘Leah, did you send him to me?’"                     #quarantinestories

sisterly bonding time

scorpio: a rich conspectus

*the zodiac sign of Scorpio, Luigi Gonzaga (1500/2-1532), with inscription: Qui Vivens Laedit Morte Medetur (Who wounds when alive, heals when dead).  

The aforementioned phrase is all you need to know about Scorpio. They will cut you down to size for seemingly no reason only to build you back up when they see you down and out. This is the Pluto in them. They’re not designed to make sense - hell, I’m sure they don’t even understand why they do the things they do. Scorpio is the zodiac sign that is possibly the most unnecessarily calculating and sneaky yet they’re intensely irrational and emotional as well. They are always on guard expecting someone to cross them which makes them paranoid about betrayal. The paranoia leads to the sneakiness. It’s as if they always have to stay ahead of you just in case you do something to betray them/their trust. I enjoy watching their emotional and mental gymnastics most of the time, because I can’t understand why that behaviour is necessary and I wonder if they ever get tired. They’re the ones who confide to their closest friend their guilt over the shitty way they’ve treated their family/friends/love interests. This is the only zodiac sign represented by an INSECT…a poisonous one, but an insect nonetheless. Like the scorpion and the frog, it’s in their nature to sting. Since they’re so full of venom, they feel the need to distribute it on others and/or self-immolate on their own bile. You see, even if their perfect match fell into their lap, they are too controlling, self-destructive, reactive, and stupid to not destroy it. It’s funny hearing Scorpios call themselves “loyal and honest” yet they are constantly playing the game of not revealing, and leaving things unsaid, to people they claim to “love”. Very passive aggressive. But of course, unlike everyone else, there’s separate laws for them because they are “super sensitive and scared of being hurt” LOL. It’s funny that they brag about being “super-tough” annihilating machines, yet are such snowflakes that they demand special treatment and require protection in case they get hurt. Fascinating.

Scorpios honestly think most signs find them “sneaky” and “mysterious” but the reality is that they just don’t feel inclined to tell their business to everyone. They feel that they have to stay one step ahead because they feel like they can pick up on certain patterns and behaviours from other people. Like Virgos, they do overthink, but they’ve literally predicted the future when it came to certain situations, believe it or not. I don’t find them particularly mysterious, especially if you start observing them. After a small amount of time you can tell what their triggers are because they’ll start to act from their shadow side (shit talking, shit stirring, manipulating, backstabbing, etc). Scorpios, like Cancers and Virgos, are primarily a defensive sign - they generally don’t come at you unless you come at them first. Where it gets tricky is if you’re dealing with an unevolved and/or insecure Scorpio (of which there are MANY, hence the hate this sign gets). Those people don’t just go for the defense, they are equally as offensive as they are defensive. Those Scorpios tend to be toxic people who confuse someone outshining them or not falling in line kissing their ass as an attack, they’re like all the other fixed signs (as well as Sags and Virgos) that way. Further proof of how pathetic they are is the feigned indifference to being hated and also felt the need to summon other Scorpios to defend what’s left of their deservedly shit reputation. Cancer and Scorpio are the signs for survival/self-preservation. If they feel their survival is at stake, even the nicest Scorpio will hit overdrive and do their absolute best to evade or shut down that threat. Remember, like Aries, Scorpio is also ruled by Mars. However, that warrior Martian spirit is intensified by the presence of Pluto. The two planets together (and both rule Scorpio) can be really destructive - and Pluto makes sure the damage lasts. Pluto is an abysmally RUTHLESS planet.

Like the rest of the fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Aquarius) Scorpios have a HUGE ego but they also tend to be about value. Evolved Scorpios value authentic, preferably intense, emotional interaction and connection. Devolved Scorpios value obsession, worship, sadism, and sycophancy. This is a sign of passion and extremes. Moderation is not in their makeup and the balance embodied by the previous sign of Libra is the anathema to their very being. So that means if Scorpio discovers that another person has used that connection or those interactions to play them for a fool…it can get ugly real quick. Their intensity cuts both ways. It’s a violation of one of Scorpio’s primary values. Hence they, the sensitive water signs that they are, get hurt to the core. It hurts. And so they take protective measures. That could mean severing the connection with you. Why? Because they valued that connection and it’s been exploited. They don’t know how to live with that. Hence they cut you off. It may seem unfair. But that usually is because the person Scorpio sees as exploiting the connection, didn’t value the connection. It could also mean an aggressive, combative interaction with them - although interestingly enough, that’s actually kind of uncommon with healthy Scorpios. It’s hard to explain. It’s not like Aries, the sign whose Martian association they share. When Aries blows, it’s destructive but they get over it really quickly. Scorpio does NOT. It generally takes longer for a healthy Scorpio to blow and when they do, it’s more like a volcano erupting in that whatever happens, however things are resolved, the landscape of the relationship is permanently changed. Aries is a destructive storm that blows over. Scorpio changes the landscape. From what I have seen, if anything, despite their sneaky ways, oddly enough they’re some of the realest signs in the zodiac. They’re like Sags because they’re blunt and don’t like to sugarcoat anything and that’s what I like about them. But then again, I don’t like overly fake, pc people.

Scorpio takes all that Martian energy and weigh it down with the destructive lead weight of Pluto. Incidentally, lead is the metal associated with Scorpio; iron is Aries’ metal. Lead is softer than iron. But lead is also toxic. It can poison you very easily in small amounts. It also is one of the few sure containers of radiation. If a toxic level of radiation is coming your way, you better jump behind some lead real quick. It will block and protect you. But if that lead container is opened, you get exposed to a level of damage that can’t be cleaned up, at least not easily. If you get wounded by an iron weapon and aren’t killed, you can most likely be fixed. However, if you get poisoned by lead…well, you better act fast cause if you don’t, you’re toast. In other words, Scorpios can be TOXIC. And as self-aware as they like to think themselves as, they have fixed-sign delusions of grandeur and they won’t necessarily see that they are toxic. About the vengeful part: yes, they also make a mission out of seeking revenge. This is a misuse of Scorpio energy, and too many of them do it. Scorpios should always avoid that behaviour as best they can because, like Saturn (planet of karma) -ruled Capricorn (and unlike Pisces, as well as a lot of the fire signs - damn, you people get away with murder!), Scorpios always pay for their misdeeds, sooner or later. And it’s usually kind of ugly. Deservedly so. So it’s best for them not to dish it out.

If you don’t know who you are, they will ruin your life if you let them get close enough to you. They’re good as acquaintances if you’re looking for someone to have a good time with and keep it real with you about certain things, but I wouldn’t advise the insecure to get too close to them. Needless to say, I’ve never had my life ruined by a Scorpio but I’ve observed what they’ve done to other people and I definitely keep my doubts about Scorpios, as well as my distance; again, they only ruin someone’s life if they think that person is weak (nice, very understanding, give a lot of grace, etc.). When they meet their match (usually a Gemini, Aquarius, Capricorn, or a fire sign) they’re total cowards. They’re like Virgos because they think that they know everything and will tell you what you need to do in a heartbeat but can’t listen when you tell them the same. They will tell their business, but not everything and when you find it out, you had no clue. Unhealthy Scorpios are always best avoided - and you’ll know them by their tendency to always be bullying, underhanded, controlling, dirty, lowdown, abusive, hateful, mean-spirited, scathing, draining, willfully destructive, miserable, don’t like themselves, vengeful, irritable, nitpicky and, mostly, to have a need to control every little thing and every person in every environment they are in. They’re wayyy crazier than Cancer is made out to be. However, their “sexy” and “dark” archetype along with their courage/fixed-sign audacity and compulsion to take things to the limit makes them exciting/interesting to others, hence others turn a blind eye to their antics and ways.

If others have had the unfortunate experience of dealing with an unhealthy Scorpio, I don’t blame them for being wary of all members of the sign. But it just might be a good idea though to remember that evolved Scorpios (eagles) are actually really good to have in your corner. They’ll have your back, they’ll recharge you, they’ll show up to help in times of trouble. Like the other water signs and Leos, Scorpios are other people’s power chargers - they tend to power up the people they love and value. They tend to recharge people. That’s why folks so often ask them for advice or help. And if they love you, they will help you. A lot of times, you may not even see them every day, and then all of a sudden trouble hits you and there they are, sleeves rolled up and ready to dive in. The recipient may not realize it until they do something that damages the relationship (connection) and then they sever it. Suddenly, you’ve got lower energy levels and you can’t figure out why. It was them, charging you up, and now they’re gone. Cancer, Taurus, Capricorn, and Scorpio are the main signs that have a lot of internal power - which must never ever be willfully misused. But with the Plutonic/Martian Scorpio, it’s imperative that they don’t misuse their internal power, because it always comes back to them. With great power, comes great responsibility. Like I said, their intensity cuts both ways. And even if you fail to understand the value of your connection and violate it to the point that a Scorpio cuts you off, a healthy Scorpio will not take vengeance. They know better. As with Cancers, just don’t threaten their survival and you’ll be fine.

previous tea: capricorn • aquarius • pisces  • aries • taurus • gemini • cancer • leo • virgo •  libra •  scorpio

Astrology observations 2

Scorpio rising’s tend to hate their past. They look at it from a disgusted point of view and can be highly uncomfortable whenever it’s brought up. I think this is because they always evolve and change, they always enrich themselves and transform into different versions. Like a snake that goes through it’s skin shedding cycle. Whenever they take a peek at their past they’ll be embarrassed because they matured more and changed. Kind of like the "I’m not the same person I was 1 month ago" meme.

Following the story of someone with negative mercury-neptune aspects in their chart is close to impossible. They’ll stutter and then mention something that has nothing to do with the story then talk about one random person for way too long and it’ll take them 34 hours to get to the point lmfaooo. I say this as a mercury opposite neptune native, I swear I’m trying my best😪.

To me, Chiron in the 1st is an indicator of someone being a victim of bullying. For some reason, they’ve grown up feeling like who they are as people is not good enough. This placement is actually quite sad in my opinion.

Scorpio moons stare at people so fucking intensely and for WHAT. I’ll be here talking about how I burned my eggs this morning and they’ll be like "👁 👁 mmh okay"

If many planets negatively aspect your ascendant, it could mean you hide your real self a lot. Projecting things and expressing yourself is difficult. There’s a blockage somehow, who you are as a person is hard to show to other people.

Sun-Saturn conjunction: Feeling like you have no idea who you are, one of your biggest lessons being about your identity. People constantly telling you you’re a certain way so you internalize it and start acting that way. Feeling uncomfortable when your father is around, disliking him, not knowing who he is. Acting in ways that don’t even fit your actual persona.

A mix of 10th and 11th house placement can point to someone being an extrovert and very good with people. They know how to keep their public image squeaky clean, they’ll act a certain way in public just to appear good.

Synastry: I know someone who has lilith, pluto and chiron in their 3rd house in scorpio. All three end up in my 1st house conjunct my ascendant and this person has been a pain in the ass. They’d project so muchhh on me and whenever I tried to defend myself they’d start gaslighting me. Most of the time it was always about my appearance (1st house/asc). I think it’s an interesting observation because the way they insulted me was sneaky, below the surface (Scorpio) and with words (3rd house). They were always sneaky and lowkey comments that seemed harmless but in reality they were much much more.

Leo placements are talented!!! Everyone’s talking about how Leo’s want the spotlight, the fame and blah blah but the real deal is them being talented especially in arts.

Whatever planet or sign is located in your second house, it’ll show how you treat yourself. How you speak to yourself, how you view yourself. Malefic planets in this house is hard because it shows how someone will have no mercy or empathy for themselves. They are so harsh on themselves.

I cannot stress this enough but chart rulers are literally so important. They describe such a big part of us and i’d recommend looking at it the first time you get someone’s birth chart. If your chart ruler is in the 10th house, you could care a lot about your reputation. What people think of you and how they view you is super important. This can become toxic if you always try to appear a way you aren’t. Perhaps you feel at times that people around you have no idea who’s the real you? If it’s in the 1st you could be someone who’s highly focused on themselves and might even be very self sufficient? You’re very independent and don’t need others in life. Which is good but know that relaying on others can help too :).

Mars conjunct ascendant in synastry will have you throw alllll your morals away💀 you find the person just so fine, nothing else matters. You just wanna get physical.

uranus conjunct/opposite mc: Feeling different from everyone your whole life. No one ever understanding the way you are. People calling you weird, cringe, annoying. Getting told to be like everyone else, not knowing what’s wrong with you.

It’s been said before but people really do misinterpret what people with mercury-neptune aspects say. I experience it on a daily and it’s so annoying. My words constantly get misinterpreted and im always like "that’s not what I mean???"

People with high scorpio/pluto/8th house energy might get gaslighting a lot. I’ve mentioned it before but these energy all live below the surface and always see whats hidden under. The subtexts and undertones to them are so obvious and that’s when there can be problems. It can lead to people telling them they’re crazy for thinking a certain way though they are right. Because they’re the only ones who see the real thing, what’s actually going on. When they try to reveal what’s actually happening (smth most people can’t catch) they’ll get called crazy and shit. I hope I’m making sense but yeah anyways it really sucks!

If you have neptune+uranus in your 3rd house 💀💀💀 good luck passing that driving test (I’m talking to myself)

Plutonians rarely get sympathy from anyone. Everyone romanticizing pluto energy have no idea how mentally challenging it really is. People never showing you empathy, constantly being left alone, people reacting to you in not so normal ways, getting ignored and hated when you’ve done nothing wrong, people laughing at your misery and I could go on and on.

The truth is the house’s energy cannot be associated with the signs because they’re literally so different. I might make many posts explaining the differences between the sign, house and planets because I can’t stand the simplification of astrology.

Never force a cancer stellium into being less shy and more outgoing because they will hate you for it and will not even try doing anything you say. Cancer’s love their home, their shell and forcing them out of it will only cause problems. If you want to be part of a cancer’s inner circle just be patient and. understanding.They’ll let you in eventually.

Virgo mars are SCARY when they’re angry. They will literally attack your ass so well with such sophisticated words. They rarely get angry but when they do run for the hills💀. Also don’t tell them to calm down cause it’ll annoy them.

The sign that is over your 11th house is probably the sun sign of many of your friends. I have virgo over my 11th house and am surrounded by virgo placements. I also realized virgo energy is something I lack a lot so that could explain it.

I had a moon-Saturn conjunction in Aquarius in my 2022 solar return chart and I found myself constantly rationalizing and thinking my emotions rather than feel them. And I’m a whole ass cancer moon. It was so weird, every time I felt like crying I would just start thinking instead of just letting it out.

Aquarius moon will not stick to the rules. No.matter.what.

Taurus moon can be very selfish when it comes to pleasure. They’ll only think about themselves and their own satisfaction.

Saturn in 4th: Trouble with vulnerability and opening up. Feeling like crying in front of others is weak. Being unable to express emotions normally. Having a childhood that you do not want to talk about. People calling you heartless or emotionless because you have trouble expressing your emotions.

Saturn in 12th: Overthinking, insomnia, heavy trauma, nightmares that are connected to some sad memories. Restlessness, feeling like your mind is your worst enemy. You can be very wise tho, what you’ve been through has shaped you into someone with plenty of knowledge.

I have a friend who has pluto in her 12th house and she told me that when she was younger she used to make nightmares every night about this kind of creature. She told me it scared her so much she didn’t want to go to sleep. She’s better now but this placement really is scary.