beqnis
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HI GUYSSSS. I have more Soukoku for you :)
This idea came to me in a flash of inspiration.... I got this drawing done SO quickly uhhhh. Yeah I love drawing the difference in ADA Dazai and PM Dazai's eyes.... and..... I thought there might be a certain someone who noticed the difference too :)
Ouuhhh they make me sick.....
Friendships as a teenager: we used to talk 5 hours every night now it’s down to 3… are we still friends 🤔? I wonder if they don’t like me anymore
Friendships as an adult: omg I’ve finally cleared up 20 minutes of my schedule to talk to my friend I haven’t spoken to in 4 months #bffs #we will find eachother in every life
wikipedia no longer being anywhere near the top of search results when looking up anything feels eviscerating
I don't think so, sweetie!
Dazai’s gonna chase you… dressed as a bush!?
Another official art redraw bcs I needed something simple and easy to draw to clear my head
So I decided to rework my old BSD tattoo and flower shop au
I finally decided to come back to this au after a lengthy hiatus from it, why did I suddenly come back to it? I just recently got a tattoo for myself and it reminded me of this thing I made so why not improve it since I'm bsd obsessed again.
Character lineup:
ADA (Armed Design Agency)
Additional Info:
Their shop is one of the best in their area
As intimidating as the place is, the people there are fairly welcoming
Kunikida is the only person there to make sure the place stays in top condition
The owner has strong values of sentimentality and remembrance in the form of tattoos
PM (Port Meadow)
Additional Info:
A go to spot for the best bouquets
Located across the street from the ADA
Rumours say the flower shop is a front for the owner to hide crime activity
Hirotsu and Kouyou have worked in the shop the longest and both know a lot more about the place
Miscellaneous characters (+Guild Coffee Shop)
Additional Info:
Around the block is a cozy coffee shop run by Francis
Lucy and Atsushi became friends after a scar cover up session
Poe is considered Ranpo's favourite client
Kyouka's parents are alive but they're always overseas
the shrunkly
to pretend that horrible people cannot make good art is another way to conflate beauty and talent with integrity and morality. the works of monsters are best examined with knowledge of the author in mind but art is not inherently reflective. human beings are creative, and habitual liars- it'd be stupid to pretend art must always be a portrait of its creator
it's very clear why aphobia is one of the gateways to wider queer exclusionism when you have to witness these types like, make up a guy to get mad at. "what if there was a guy that was straight in every way except he was ace/aro/demi/whatever" yeah man what if? who cares? then you realize the real question being asked is "are queer people still valid if I can't tell they're queer by observing them and need to be told directly?" and it's like yeah I see why you also have weird ideas about bi/pan people and anyone else that doesn't fit your mental image of what a queer person should look like. if your basis for queerness is whether someone appears sufficiently queer to others, you cannot construct a meaningful definition of queerness that doesn't exclude some queer people. no wonder you have to keep throwing more and more people overboard to keep your narrow definition of the queer community afloat in your mind. is the next discourse going to be that happily single lesbians with boring gender-conforming taste in fashion aren't really queer? come off it
au; Kid is a bit less orderly than how Death made him to be. Or Kid and Blackstar are mad
Dialogue in Yukio Mishima, Confessions of a Mask (pg.82)
Like to charge, reblog to cast
re: Asagiri saying a lot of people working on bsd have asked him to write about Chuuya from Dazai's point of view yet Asagiri refuses because for all his intent and purposes the answer is "Dazai just doesn't like Chuuya"
Asagiri. Asagiri come sit with me. Asagiri do you realize how much this statement makes Dazai's internal monologue about Chuuya much more intriguing? He doesn't like Chuuya.
In Fifteen, his irritation comes from his perception of Chuuya as a shallow violent guy who's just looking for the biggest enemy (Arahabaki) to beat up. He doesn't like him. Turns out this perception was wrong. He still doesn't like him. Chuuya turns out to be someone who struggles with his humanity in perhaps a more relatable way than Dazai ever expected. And he doesn't like him. Seeing Chuuya and Rimbaud fight inspires Dazai to give a new go at life, and he conspires with everything he has to make Chuuya join the Port Mafia to be his underling. But he doesn't like him.
Then comes Storm Bringer, during which a guy comes along and wants to kill Dazai and take Chuuya away, and Dazai fights tooth and nail to prevent both from happening. He doesn't like him. Dazai vehemently denies the possibility of Chuuya being an artificial human. He doesn't like him. Dazai is uncomfortable for having to tell Chuuya their best course of action would get rid of the last remaining lead they have over his origins, to the point he starts planning for not doing it. And he doesn't like him.
Dazai has contributed to building up years of mutual trust between him and Chuuya. He doesn't like him. Chuuya is always executing Dazai's plans nearly perfectly. He doesn't like him. For a few minutes Dazai considered the possibility he would be drowning Chuuya for real and took the time to reminisce about their good times together. He doesn't like him. He was partnered with Chuuya for a maximum of 3 years, statistically probably a lot less, yet he insists on saying they've known each other for 7 years and still calls Chuuya partner once in a while. But he doesn't like him.
What could possibly be going on inside his head for all of the above to be true at the same time? He's admitted more than once to thinking about Chuuya night and day... but it was of ways to kill Chuuya, so it's fine, obviously, because it means he doesn't like him!!!
Asagiri. I understand your simple words of dismissal as a way to warn your readers you have no intention of pushing that particular thread further in your writing. But Asagiri. Do you not see the monster, this walking mass of contradictions, that you've created? What do you mean he "just doesn't like Chuuya"? Not Chuuya angst this ain't about him I'm holding Dazai up by the scruff and waving him around like a prop. What were his motivations then? Why does he do any of this? What unknown depth of character hides in those cracks, Asagiri?
that awkward moment when you realize you were having a moment and bonding with your partner 😔
bsd wan 192: dazai, chuuya, age fourteen – if i had the power
translation by me | don't repost outside tumblr! | << 185
im 99.99% sure this has been done before but
no sentence fills me with utter loathing so much as "i asked chatgpt"
