My Face Feels Rather Exposed

unlike instagram this is not burdened by watchful eyes and my second guesses of “i want to post this, but dont want X or Y to see it”

she and i both leave each other again and again knowing full well we are very likely going to see and do things with other people. said people and experiences occupy her mind as well as mine. does this mean we are just that confident in our paths crossing once more, or that we simply dont care that much about each other? havent figured this out. maybe both.

sometimes i wish i was cat or a raccoon, they probably dont worry about this sort of thing. or maybe a toucan, i think i would make a good toucan.

maybe its time for a man

this is stranger than i thought, there are like SO MANY pictures of him there… am i, God forbid, unknowingly joining a polycule? his name also starts with J…. so many questions and so few answers

“we should do something next weekend! :)”

yes we should! we should also delete the pictures of your ugly ex boyfriend off your instagram!

Hanako Footman, from her novel titled "Mongrel," originally published in 2024

Stalhrim Armor

the early bird gets the worm but the second mouse gets the cheese

you guys are so annoying. why do i have to see discourse every year that's like "was tolkien really a woke king or was he your conservative uncle?" the guy was a devout catholic and a genteel misogynist who maintained lifelong friendships with queer people and women, and this isn't even paradoxical because that was part of the upper-class oxford culture he was immersed in. tolkien told the nazis to fuck off (and in doing so demonstrated a real understanding of what racism is and why it's harmful, beyond simply "these guys are bad news because they're who my country is at war with right now") but his inner life was marked by internalized racism that is deeply and inextricably woven into the art that he made. he foolishly described himself as an anarcho-monarchist, and it's kind of crazy to see people on this website passionately arguing that he likely never meaningfully engaged with anarchist theory, because...yeah, no shit, of course he didn't. tolkien didn't have to engage with most sociopolitical theory because as an upper-class englishman of his position, he was never affected by any of the issues that this theory is concerned with. what is plainly obvious from reading both his fiction and letters is that tolkien's ideal political system was that the divinely ordained god-king would rise up and rule in perfect justice and humility; he didn't want a government, he wanted a king arthur, even though (obviously) he was aware that outcome was impossible. why is it so hard for people to accept that he was just some guy! his letters aren't a code you have to crack. no amount of arguing or tumblr-level analysis is going to one day reveal a rhetorically airtight internally consistent worldview spanning jrrt's fiction, academic work, and personal writings, thereby "solving" the question of whether he was a woke king or your conservative uncle. his ideology was extremely inconsistent because, at the end of the day, he was just some guy.

hmmm

i told her i like eggnog its over💔