one of my professors says that “no one comes out of childhood unharmed” and i think its important to know all the trauma you carry with you, because a lot of people do possess some. this isnt to say that you have to get along with everyone just cause you can see why they are the way they are. however, realizing, or trying to realize why people do or act in certain ways is powerful. i dont like to use the word trauma because its been beaten into the ground. but all the good and the bad you have experienced shape you who are now, and theres no running from that. i think that both positive experiences and pain make you stronger. i do not trust people who attribute themselves to one or the other. i was just thinking about this as i make a futile attempt to fall asleep, and i have nowhere else to put this XD
after not wearing this sweater for 2 months because of my new green one i am now just realizing how floppy she is.
this is stranger than i thought, there are like SO MANY pictures of him there… am i, God forbid, unknowingly joining a polycule? his name also starts with J…. so many questions and so few answers
“we should do something next weekend! :)”
yes we should! we should also delete the pictures of your ugly ex boyfriend off your instagram!
i asked her if she wants to hang out again but i kinda want her to say no… i could have just not texted her. whatever.
hmmm
Every month or so my mom tells me of a relative i have never heard of. yesterday I learned about this guy, an apparently wealthy man who divorced his wife of 25 years because he realized he was gay, who now lives in the Arizona desert. apparently he does not like wearing shoes. his glasses kinda eat tho
dental floss if anything
I love eating women out but I don't like the feeling of hair in my mouth. I actually like a bit of hair, just not in my mouth. Any ideas?
Grow up
white guy on the bus with dreads sits behind me and smells like fish pellets…
you guys are so annoying. why do i have to see discourse every year that's like "was tolkien really a woke king or was he your conservative uncle?" the guy was a devout catholic and a genteel misogynist who maintained lifelong friendships with queer people and women, and this isn't even paradoxical because that was part of the upper-class oxford culture he was immersed in. tolkien told the nazis to fuck off (and in doing so demonstrated a real understanding of what racism is and why it's harmful, beyond simply "these guys are bad news because they're who my country is at war with right now") but his inner life was marked by internalized racism that is deeply and inextricably woven into the art that he made. he foolishly described himself as an anarcho-monarchist, and it's kind of crazy to see people on this website passionately arguing that he likely never meaningfully engaged with anarchist theory, because...yeah, no shit, of course he didn't. tolkien didn't have to engage with most sociopolitical theory because as an upper-class englishman of his position, he was never affected by any of the issues that this theory is concerned with. what is plainly obvious from reading both his fiction and letters is that tolkien's ideal political system was that the divinely ordained god-king would rise up and rule in perfect justice and humility; he didn't want a government, he wanted a king arthur, even though (obviously) he was aware that outcome was impossible. why is it so hard for people to accept that he was just some guy! his letters aren't a code you have to crack. no amount of arguing or tumblr-level analysis is going to one day reveal a rhetorically airtight internally consistent worldview spanning jrrt's fiction, academic work, and personal writings, thereby "solving" the question of whether he was a woke king or your conservative uncle. his ideology was extremely inconsistent because, at the end of the day, he was just some guy.
on the bright side i was able to do a full split last night for the first time