Drag Your Teeth Along My Flesh And Tell Me I’m Beautiful

are we gonna kiss covered in blood? are we gonna kiss with mouthfuls of blood? will u drink my blood?

Take Me With You

The Artful Dodger s01e08 - Untapped Potential

I feel like I’m not here. Although im strangely serene.

People talk to me and Im so calm and patient and conversational, like my usual mask has been boosted and it does not require the same effort it always does.

I’m floating. I don’t know what is going on around me.

I can’t centre my brain to understand emails. But I am serene.

Imagine they saw the pain inside me and asked me about it. What would I say? That’s why I can’t allow any pain to be seen.

I think that’s is why my brain has put me in this serene state.

But I am in pain. Like many books say, there is an empty whole in my chest.

Some moments are so determinant in our lives. Like knowing if we got into university, or if you got the job across the country, or if your grandma woke up from surgery.

This is one of them.

Our present could disintegrate, or our futures could be built… what will it be?

I know his eyes have touched the prettiest of skins. Curvy siluetees with the daintiest of fabrics, hosts of beautiful souls on the inside.

And I know that I’m far from it, and I don’t deserve him.

Is it that bad to want his attention? To feel his texts caress my inner world, knowing his fingers will never touch mine?

Am I hurting myself too much? Is this broken soul beyond repair?

- Yes

“To have someone understand your mind is a different kind of intimacy.”

— Unknown