- Sylvia Plath, From The 'Unabridged Journals Of Sylvia Plath' (Pg. 522)

Affirmations i use to study/get things done!

"You've prepared the whole year for this. Don't let it go to waste." "I can and I will." "It doesn't matter how hard it takes to reach my goal." "It doesn't matter if the other person is more talented than you. There's no rule for them to work more harder than you." "You can wake up anyday and decide to change the person that you are." "Who cares if I'm pretty if I fail my finals?" "One day, you'll leave this world behind so live a life that you'll remember." "If it's a million to one. I'm gonna be that one.” "You can't be perfect. No one can. But you can try to be the best." "Failure is a part of success. Use it in the best way possible." "You are more than capable of handling yourself and your textbooks." "Study like you haven't prayed and pray like you haven't studied." "You came this far only to come this far?" "There is no way I'm going to come back with something I don't like." "Study because learning is better than being ignorant." "Grades aren't everything but they do make your life somewhat easier." "I know more than i think I do." “There are no shortcuts to any place worth going.”  "Progress > Perfection." "You're doing this for you. Only you. Don't forget that."

“if i told you about the darkness inside of me would you still look at me like i am the Sun?”

-𝘏𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘒𝘢𝘶𝘳

the suffering never ends

i got a C in maths then and was pissed

feel this anger, darling? preserve it. keep it. never let it go. give it a room inside your heart. make it part of your soul. bury it deep inside of yourself and never show it to anyone. it's your secret. It's what keeps you going. it's your dearest friend and your worst enemy. keep being angry. keep standing up for yourself. steal everyone's anger. it is yours now.

Me studying for my math exam like

who the fuck invented the tag hurt no comfort I just wanna have a little friendly chit-chat with them

having a really cool art teacher brought the best artistic abilities in me, abilities i didn’t know i fucking had. 

I draw for myself? the fuck is that. boring. what the hell

I draw for arts class? oh my god how did i do this? did i get possessed by an artist? do i have hands?

my grandpa saw my gemsona on facebook and now he wants me to draw him a gemsona

hahahaha so i ended up not sleeping at all. stress and energy drinks dont mix well. welp i guess ill start day 4 early. its 5 am rn so i can get a lot of stuff done!!

3/100

for some reason this day felt like 3

so i woke up and started taking astronomy notes

watched motivational clips only cause i was feeling pretty down

tried to make a to do list but i didnt manage to do much. I argued with my mom and that truly killed my mood to do anything, so i just took a nap

after the nap i went out

and when i came home i wrote a poem and submitted it for a magazine!!! I am actually pretty nervous about this one, its the first time doing anything like this

also i had some pretty neat ideas for the plot of a story im working on so i wrote them down

anyways now im just sitting in bed cause i got a sharp pain on the side. it doesnt phase me that much its just annoying at this point

i might try to read something before going to bed, it's 2 am and i doubt i can sleep

tomorrow im getting the exam results, i think ill share them and my thoughts on it :D