Bottledandspilt - Bottled And Spilt

I float, empty, a husk

In solitude, I bask

Don't let me, don't let me drown

Fill this void and anchor me down.

If I’ll ever meet you again someday

I wouldn’t know what to say

Should I smile or cry

Do I need to say hey or goodbye?

I’m wondering how would you react

Would you walk away or come back?

Would you see the misery your absence brought to me?

Or would you act as nonchalant as you can be?

I don’t even know if I’m over it or not

If there’s no more feelings or there’s are a lot

What I know for certain is this pain

And fear that I might forever wait in vain

There’s too many questions, too many regrets

If you’re not meant to be mine, why can’t I forget?

I’m trying to catch up, but you’re too fast

If we meet again, this insanity might stop at last.

Him

The way he talks,

The way he laughs

Is like music to my ears

The way he says my name,

The way he smiles

Take away all my fears

But as I think,

And fall asleep

While wiping away my tears

I know that I’ve fallen

For a man

Who won’t ever hold me near.

-jileeza

Ruthless

My heart aches as you walk near

You, who've once taken everything I held dear

You have some nerve to come to me

When you made certain to ruin who I could be

Are you here to gloat, parade your victory?

I want to go, but you won't set me free

And I'm tired, I have nothing left to give

I wish you wouldn't come back once you leave.

Will you ever come back?

i don't know how i can describe you

you're like my guardian angel who suddenly flew

leaving me overwhelmed by your greatness

since then, looking for you became my quest

you became my anchor to the real world

in the midst of coals, you became my gold

i hold on to you with everything i have

i lay at your feet all that i love

you made me happy like i thought i'd never be

in my own tiny prison, you set me free

right then, i thought something might last

but as i turn around, you became my past

as i sat there, feeling numb

i ask myself, how i can be so dumb?

that i have never realized, you were there only for a season

that you only came to teach me a painful lesson.

-D.G. Gir// 04/04/2018

Him

The way he talks,

The way he laughs

Is like music to my ears

The way he says my name,

The way he smiles

Take away all my fears

 But as I think,

And fall asleep

While wiping away my tears

 I know that I’ve fallen

For a man

Who won’t ever hold me near.

-jileeza