I Took Half My Morning Dose Of Hrt This Morning, I Guess With The Intention Of Getting Myself Back On

ugh i need to have her or something like her

estrogen is cancer

i’m not sure science supports this

send me whatever cringe and gross stuff you want and ill jerk to it, preferrably women, to really drive home that I'm a straight man

Yo im horny wtf

When you honestly can’t tell what’s kink thoughts/beliefs and what’s your real thoughts/beliefs anymore…guess it means the brainwashing/conditioning is working? 😅 still don’t know if that’s good or bad…

Welp okay at least I have an explanation for things now.

I just had an appointment with my psychiatrist and he put two and two together that I actually have a rare condition that causes episodes of sleeping too much, hypersexuality, psychosis, and extremely impulsive behavior, among other things.

This is probably why every once in a while I have a stretch of a month where I’m constantly sleeping and when I am awake I can do nothing but goon in increasingly self-destructive ways.

Feels kinda nice to know I have a medical condition and I’m not just a loser.

The other cool thing about it is that in most people it goes away some point before they turn 30 meaning that I might actually have a functional life before long.

everyone likes you better as a man

realistically this is probably not the case, a lot of people in my life prefer me as a girl, which is the main reason it’s tough for me to commit to detrans

What's the most depraved thing you've done for the sake of getting off?

A lot of my answers to this would be some variation of pretending to be someone I’m not. My biggest kink is transformation and that has led to me doing some catfishing or giving falsehoods about my identity.

I think specifically the thing I feel most guilty about is when I was doing some detrans rp and I sent a pic of my face and they *recognized me* (I know I keep alluding to my micro-celebrity but I’m really not that famous, still, sometimes people know who I am) and I, in my horny daze, decided it would be super hot if I pretended to be some random person catfishing as myself. This really hurt the person I had been talking to as they had previously seen me as kind of a role model and they got really upset and threatened to blackmail me. All that sent me into a deep depression and resulted in me not uploading any videos for months.

Not really a sexy answer, more of a sad one, but this blog is nothing if not honest.

detrans is so hot

literally I can't think of anything hotter than seeing a cute girl(male lol) turn back into a hot man. The t pumping through him changing everything on his body, making it pointless to ever try and go back. It's so fucking sexy. Like give yourself up for your penis. It's actually great for you lmao

love freckles + braces 😍

ANYONE WHO CALLS ME MALE TODAY, OR EVEN AMAB, I WILL REMOVE YOUR SKIN ONE SQUARE CENTIMETER AT A TIME.

I AM NOT LIKE YOU.

I AM BETTER.

I AM A REAL GIRL.

I AM A GOD.