What's The Play Here, Beauregard?

[ID: A page of three digital illustrations of Orym from Critical Role. In all he is shirtless, his torso is muscular and dotted with battle scars. On the left Orym holds his sword in his right hand and holds his left hand up to his head, looking tired. In the middle Orym's back is facing towards the viewer, his sword in his right hand and a neutral expression on his face. On the right only Orym's torso and right arm are visible, his arm relaxed at his side. End description.]

Some muscle studies that inevitably became about Orym

[ID: A digitally coloured ball point pen drawing of Orym from Critical Role. All that is visible of Orym is his right hand and forearm. His arm is on the ground and his hand is limp, his sending stone just out of reach. Blood is spattered across his arm and the stone and blood is pooling outwards from his out of frame torso. End description.]

Sobbing in my kitchen at 6:22am

snork mimimi...i miss them

nothing weve posted are even firecrackers compared to this fucking atomic bomb of a post

[ID: A digital illustration of Orym from Critical Role. He is tucking a blue flower into the sash around his waist, looking at the flower with a slight smile. End description.]

Blue flower in a storm (remind you of someone?)

[ID: A digital illustration of Orym from Critical Role. There are four drawings of Orym, all bloodied, wounded and distressed. The Orym in the top left grimaces, he has a bloody nose and a cut on his right cheek. The Orym in the top right has a dagger stabbed through his right cheek, the blade having stabbed through from the inside of his cheek outward and the blade is still held between Orym's gritted teeth as he grimaces with pain. The Orym in the bottom left is splattered with blood, looking alarmed. The Orym in the bottom right has blood streaming down his face from cuts on his forehead as he looks up to the left with pain and alarm. End description.]

This is terribly self indulgent <3

[ID: A digital illustration of Veth Brenatto from Critical Role. She is visible from the shoulders up facing forward and looking to the right with a slight smile. She is wearing her purple cold weather outfit and antlers. Behind her is a square purple background with some sparkled around her. End description.]

She's so pretty!!

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

i have finally watched episode 94! welcome back hot boy 💜

y'all might know that i am a staunch supporter of short haired Essek, so when i learned about his new hairstyle i went mmmmm not sure about that! but it took me like. two and a half hours to change my mind. it's cool to experiment with your appearance! the dude deserves some cute fancy curls, as a treat. also zmeess you've been growing out your hair from a buzz cut for years, now he's just like you fr or whatever the kids say.

so yeah, i support you man, you go and dazzle everyone with your fabulous Xhorhassian looks

tip jar!

p.s. haven't watched eps 95 and 96 yet, please no spoilers! \o/

really hope they come back.

(emotional ramblings and the original drawing i did of them under the cut)

for the life of me i couldn't figure out why hearing orym and fearne died was affecting me so badly (i'm still on ep 32 lol). i didn't sleep, i was crying almost every few hours, no appetite and i was so confused as to why. i didn't react like this with molly! then i realized it's cause fearne and orym are part of exu and exu pulled me out of a bad place.

i remember when i decided to listen to exu. i was in one of the worst places mentally i have been in years and choosing to listen to it was dicey for many personal reasons. but i took the risk and i listened to exu and fell in love with the crown keepers (fearne, orym and opal in particular). and after that i slowly but surely pulled myself out of that hole. hearing two of my favorite members of the crown keepers were in campaign 3 was the greatest news ever for me. i know they'll never see this but just in case they do: thanks liam and ashley (and all the crown keepers as well as aabria) for making the characters and fun story that saved me. i hope they come back, but if not i'm glad they came into my life and they will always hold a special spot in my heart.