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Life in an Autism World

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 Its funny her name is pap-rika

Poison Ivy #9 (2023)

written by G. Willow Wilson art by Marcio Takara & Arif Prianto

Dieselpunk cars, trucks and half-tracks from the garage of Jomar Machado

extraordinary attorney woo showing us two very different types of female friendships with long lasting loyal friend geu ra mi who knows everything about young woo bc they grew up together and grudging teammate choi su yeon who doesn’t always understand young woo but is always trying her hardest to learn more about her is so wonderful. i love how different the two friendships are and beautifully woo young woo’s affection for both women is portrayed.

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Source: Happy Kanako’s Killer Life Shiawase Kanako no Koroshiya Seikatsu 幸せカナコの殺し屋生活

by Toshiya Wakabayashi

Cissy's Mom Tames a Tease

“Someone’s been such a naughty little tease, haven’t they?” The words took Kendra by almost as much surprise as the fingers; she recognized the voice, of course, it was Cissy’s mom, but she’d never heard the older woman’s tones filled with so much power and confidence and carefully controlled lust. “Walking around my house in nothing but her underwear all the time, acting like she doesn’t know what she’s doing when she bends over and shows off the outline of her pretty pink pussy through her panties. Well, I knew what you were doing, my darling girl. And I knew you were just waiting for someone to tame that hot little body of yours. Just like this.” She pressed a little harder over Kendra’s clit, causing a surge of pleasure to go off in the brunette’s head like fireworks.

Cissy’s mom followed it up by swiftly and neatly undoing Kendra’s bra with her free hand, exposing the slightly paler flesh of her breasts and contrasting her suntanned body, then stepping in until they were pressed tightly against each other and kissing Kendra’s neck right at the hollow of her jawline. “It won’t take more than a few moments, really,” the older woman murmured between nuzzling caresses, her lips constantly finding new spots to tease and tickle while her fingers continued their relentless stimulation. “You’re such a horny little girl, so weak and wet and needy for more, and all you really need is permission to sink into the pleasure and let your mind shut down and allow your pussy to do the thinking for you. Your pussy knows what it wants. Your pretty titties know what they want. You’re the only one who’s confused.” The other hand began to squeeze and pinch Kendra’s nipples, and she gasped in hot, tingling arousal.

This wasn’t what she’d expected when she agreed to spend Spring Break with Cissy at her mom’s house in Mendocino instead of joining the crowd down in Daytona. Kendra thought that she and Cissy would wind up getting together, spending their days sunbathing topless and their nights in the same bed. But it turned out that Cissy genuinely only saw her as a friend, and furthermore that she was there to reconnect with some old boyfriend who was happy to explore what college had made of the leggy blonde. Kendra barely saw her after the first day… but she saw a lot of Cissy’s divorced, independently wealthy mom. And apparently Cissy’s mom saw her, too. “Confused minds stop thinking, don’t they, pretty girl?” the older woman asked, and Kendra’s head lolled up and down in thoughtless acquiescence.

“Good girl,” the seductive voice purred, a pleasant contralto that tickled Kendra’s neck with every panting breath. “I’m going to keep rubbing you just a little while longer, just enough to make sure you don’t have a single thought left in that pretty, empty head of yours. And then I’m going to bring you into my bedroom and I’m going to throw you onto my bed and I’m going to tonguefuck that wet, horny pussy of yours until you see stars. Do you understand, little girl?” Kendra nodded. “Do you want that?” She nodded again. “Do you want to be a hot, needy slut for Mistress?” Another nod, the sense of amiable acceptance daisy-chaining from one agreement to the next until Kendra couldn’t even remember what she was saying yes to. She only knew she wanted it all, she’d never been touched like this by any of the boys or girls on campus, and her mind finally collapsed into perfect obedience as she shuddered in the first of many climaxes for her new owner.

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As someone that has been diagnosed with both avpd and autism, I am curious about that post Shinji was talking about between how avpd and autism could be comorbid. Would you like to share?

Hello.. Thanks for your interest. Sorry this took so long to respond to. These thoughts are still a work in progress, so… If anyone has any input, please feel free to give it!

Just to be clear, I’m not a professional. I’m working off the research I have done, personal experience, and observations of others. Unfortunately, it is really hard to find information on this kind of thing because of the little research done about autistic adults, and how so much of it treats us like we are incapable of complex emotional behaviour because we are autistic.

The basic idea is that I think autistic people can be more inclined to develop certain personality disorders than allistic people due to how our brains are wired, how susceptible we are to abuse, and how autistic people process trauma compared to allistic people. Here, I’m talking about Avoidant Personality Disorder specifically.

#tw for talk of abuse and ableism

For AvPD, I think that when you look at the causes of it, it becomes apparent that an autistic person could easily develop it. A study taken about the relationship of those diagnosed with an autism spectrum disorder and personality disorder criteria found this:

“When markedly avoidant behavior is present in individualswith PDD/ASD, it could rather be seen as a consequence ofthe PDD/ASD. For some individuals with AS, their disabilityin interpreting social cues leads to a major concern aboutwhat impression they make on others and even a disablingfear for social situations, thus increasing the risk for avoidantbehavior. Moreover, elevated sensitivity to stressful environmentsbecause of visual and auditory perceptual difficultiesmay well contribute to avoidant behavior.” (source)

So, we can see that there is a significant portion of autistic people that display enough avoidant behaviour to mark off most if not all the criteria for the diagnosis of AvPD. I mean, this isn’t news… It’s why the differential diagnosis between AvPD and autism spectrum disorders are so controversial. There was always this assumption that many people diagnosed with AvPD were actually autistic, but with new information coming out about personality disorders, I think it’s kind of silly not to consider you can have both. 

(Obviously the world of medicine is starting to believe that it’s silly, too. Being diagnosed with a PD and an autism spectrum disorder is really common now. I don’t have any statistics for this, but I can confidently say 2/3 of the autistic people I know are also securely diagnosed with a PD.)

There is a lot of controversy about the ‘nature versus nurture’ debate with personality disorders, and that’s why PDs used to not really be diagnosed alongside autism. There’s been a lot of new research on this in general, but with AvPD, it has generally been confirmed to develop from things such as neglect, abuse, incest and peer rejection. Some people do develop AvPD and feel they have nothing that conditioned the disorder, but you can’t ignore the apparent link between PTSD/C-PTSD and AvPD. 

“… it is generally believed that these biological substrates exist within the avoidant personality as a biological foundation for the emergence of the disorder itself & that full development of APD is likely due to significant environmental influences (Millon & Everly).”

So, if we take this all into account: AvPD fully develops due to environmental factors. These environmental factors are often abuse, neglect, peer rejection, and related things. And there are studies confirming that not only do autistic people experience the world more intensely, but that they are much more susceptible to neglect and peer victimization/rejection than allistic people, and twice as susceptible to physical/sexual abuse.

Being autistic in an allistic world means living in a world that is constantly telling us to be smaller, to be quieter, to not exist. Trauma can develop in several different ways, of course, but the main point is that autistic people experience the environmental causes of AvPD at higher rates than allistic people - so why would autistic people not be more inclined to develop it? Why wouldn’t an autistic person develop AvPD when the world is constantly pushing us to be exactly what AvPD turns you into: out of mind and out of sight?

I hope someday in the future more research is done about autistic adults and trauma, as well as personality disorders. (I also hope it can be done in a way that isn’t full of stigma and demonization of autistic people and the mentally ill.) 

Anyway, um, that’s just my take on it. Sorry that it got so long-winded.

- Shinji