Almost 3 Months And I Still Can’t Believe I Was This Close To Him During Robbers 💔

Wong Kar-Wai's In the mood for love deleted scene.

Taylor wrote Question…? to haunt me specifically forever

thats becuase it is.

This is what Christians think gay marriage is

Exactly this!

Backstage at New York’s Latin Quarter nightclub

Gordon Parks, “The Girls Backstage,” Life, Dec 22, 1958

So next week I’ll either popping my ass to Slut! (Taylor’s version) (from the vault) or crying my eyes out to Slut! (Taylor’s version) (from the vault). I’m very excited to find out.

I didn’t spend my entire summer finally feeling like an empowered woman and trading friendship bracelets with the girls and gays for Taylor to be the heterosexual poster child of the NFL; for her to be an accessory to a man who uses her name for clout and disrespects her grind by acting like he’s just as special as she is. The mere thought of Taylor’s name being included in locker room talk is actually so sickening and embarrassing. Taylor aligning herself with an organization that has closeted so many men and has a history of protecting men who are violent towards women is such a slap in the face. At least I know Barbie would NEVER date Travis Kelce.

Well loved books.

I am in firm belief that books should be well loved. they should be written in, the spine should be cracked, the pages should be folded, things you find during the adventures you take squished between the pages. The more damage done to a book, the more memories and love are in it and there's something so beautiful about a well loved book. it tells a story. it's like a scrapbook of that time in your life whilst you've read it and when you pick it up again after a while of finishing it you can look back at the life you lived while the book traveled with you.

I've started packing my things to put into storage while i'm away at college and I picked up my very well loved copy of Red, White And Royal blue that I read last summer and was flipping through it. it had water damage from me accidently dropping it in my pool and writing in it and different keepsakes from things I did that summer. it has things that I wrote that i never spoke to another living soul, thoughts of love, insecurity that the ink on the pages written by the author reminded me of.

"I don't think I ever thought I would have proper true friends until gr. 12 and now with september almost here and half of my friends going to college it's definitely gone. I hope to feel this truly happy again soon" is messly written on page 201 in pink glitter pen. I wrote that at 18 about the loss of my huge friend group leaving while I stayed and went back to school for another year, needing a missing credit to get into college. I was already feeling like I failed having to go back for another year and losing my friends and reading about Henry, Alex, Nora, and June partying and Alex having that moment of realization of found family made me realise that I most likely won't have that comfort again. Looking back at it now being on the cusp of 20, that friend group was the farthest from friendship, I had just romaticided it. We had moments where it was friendship, in its purest form but overall it turned into something toxic and by the end most of us hated each other and we split into two groups, but the girl who left the scribbled note in the pool water damaged book didn't know that yet. She didn't know what came from that friend group. The friendships that truly blossomed from it, the trips and adventures she'd have with the few friends that made it out of that friend group. She got so, so much closer to her favorite people. She has never been happier then she has now starting the new chapter of her life in a big city, and having the best friends she could ever ask for.

The seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, the well loved book i've brought on my most recent adventures. Lies sand in the crevices of a few pages where I had been reading it on the beach with my friends this summer, the ones that made it out of my Red, White and royal blue adventures.

damaged books are well loved books,

well loved books keep memories,

and well loved books are scrapbooks.

Aquamarine, moonlit swimming pool. What if all I need is you;

I need them to dress up as bert and erine .... for the lore

My mother asked me if Dan and Phil are married…which like reasonable question. But when I told her they weren’t like officially dating, at least in the public eye so we can’t say we know anything about their relationship but like they are two gay men who bought a house together and she just nodded and said

“like Bert and Ernie”

Which, explains everything perfectly I think

Anyway who is Bert and who is Ernie?