Though it’s been a while since I’ve started my new room project, I’ve surprisingly faced no burnout so far. It seems like life’s being suspiciously nice to me, which gets me a bit on edge- but I’ll do my best to enjoy it while I can.
My parents have approved of my drawings for my room plan, thankfully. That’s a greenlight for me to continue to clean up completely motivated! And even though I can’t exactly feel it on account of some amount of emotional numbness, I do prefer the kind of energy I’m getting from this than anything I’ve felt before. It’s just a happy feeling, out of the blue, unprompted. I no longer want to do nothing, sink into the ground, or cry- I just want to continue and smile?
It feels good to make progress on accomplishing my dream! I’ve also made a custom search engine for myself earlier today- just to fit my dream as well.
Usually I’d show it to my friends, but if they ask why, “I’m trying to change my entire personality and life” doesn’t exactly sound swell from the other end. No worries though- they’ll know a completely different person by the end of this!
I’m off to clean, I’ll make another post later!
<3 Caramel
Aughhh I can't focus any longer!!
Studying is hard, but the midterm on Wednesday will be harder... Hopefully, I'll be okay. For now, I'm going to take a rest with some dessert...
UR SO CUTE I LOVE YOU MORE MWAH MWAH
Omg....
Dinner after an exhausting day
:)
Awhhh hello <3 :)
You keep me going!
/silly <3<3
PFFF BAHHAHAA I REALLY NEED TO GET OFF THIS SITE AND FOCUS ON MY STUDIES
This made my day, thank you <3
Maybe there's something in the air, maybe I'm sick, stressed, or just plain old lazy— but I can't seem to get myself to work these days. I sat by my desk all afternoon and evening today, but could barely get any work done at all.
My first final is tomorrow... are things really going to be okay..? I'd like to say I need a break, but what would the break be from? It's not like I've made enough progress on anything yet.
I wish it were spring or summer again, when I could go wherever I wanted with my friends. I miss taking the train.
I hope my short term manic obsessions aren't just my brain compensating for a ton of social problems I have
Because I think they're actually pretty cool sometimes and I'm actually planning to put my most recent obsession into action and I hope I hope I hope this is for real this could make me so happy but. I don't know.
For the record, though, I'm done being left at the mall bc people forget I'm with them
So maybe my problems are bc I get clingy to people who I shouldn't be
It's really late, though, so I'll be heading to bed for now, with sweet, sweet thoughts of my project!! :)))
<333 Caramel
i knew it. I really can’t trust myself to do the right thing I can’t believe it