Fresh Air
Fresh air
I'm not sure if it's just the maturity and thoughts that come with growing up, but recently so much of my mind has been taken up with thoughts and plans for the future- finally being able to accomplish goals and dreams I've had forever. Opportunities opening up to fulfill empty wishes and feelings I've had for as long as I remember, and finally being old enough to work on them- yet somehow still young enough to keep my dreams alive. Feels like I've stepped above the clouds.
Is anyone else feeling like this? Is this how growing up feels like?
There's so much I want to do and so little time, but maybe I can prioritize and ration myself to each and every thing I'd like to accomplish, maybe I can live more than I've ever thought I could.
When I'm all old and grey, I'm going to miss this feeling of growing up. It's alright, though- I'll make sure to treasure it as it passes.
<3 Caramel
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My friends are big fans of BABYMETAL, and plan to go to a concert in the summer. I'm not really a concert person, but I do appreciate the crowds of fashionable people they bring about. I wish I had that courage.
:)))
hehe I wanna look like those cute chinese kids with fitting clothing and strawberry milk + pocky
none of my clothes really fit me so one day I’m gonna get stuff that is pog!!
sometimes I think I like to swarm myself with schoolwork to have something to take my mind off anything bad
Scrambled eggs
God, I wonder what kind of life I could have if I could just motivate myself normally. Maybe I'd have more integrity, having enough courage to tell the truth sometimes. Maybe my grades would be straight hundreds. Maybe I'd already have a proper job.
Looking at studying guides like this makes me kind of believe I can work hard and work focused - and maybe, I can. I guess I'm moving onto my "getting in character" part of my new life, and that excites me like nothing else! I really hope I can get this done.
I'm tight for time right now, though, so for now I'll just keep this image posted here to save it for myself later.
<3 Caramel
no
no I don’t think I deserve this. Doesn’t help me get out of my situation but I really don’t see why I deserved all this because I do try to be decent I really do try it’s just that misfortune gets me and now it’s got a grip on my motivation.
This time I really don’t think I brought this upon myself because at the start I didn’t do anything wrong, I wasn’t lazy or anything I just suffered the consequences of bad luck and since then it’s been a negative feedback loop
I wish God existed because then maybe things would’ve been alright and maybe people wouldn’t need to suffer needlessly and have their lives withheld from them
But still I’ve been praying a lot more recently
-Caramel
Little effort, little give
I ended up cleaning up most of the floor and a couple corners of my room. It's really, really, messy. Tomorrow's Monday, and that's when March break officially starts- so maybe I'll be able to wake up early and clean up my bed and desk area? Hopefully my closet can be cleaned out too.
After thinking for a while, I've decided to pack all the stuff I'd like to keep and bring into my future room into boxes as if I were moving- it'll keep me minimal and I think it'll really help.
For now, though- I haven't even been able to find a box to put my things into. Instead, I'm using garbage bags.
Not too much of a looker. But once my room's done, I swear everything will look great! That's right- I'm hopeful for once. So hopeful, in fact, that I've drawn out a little plan for what my room will look like- hopefully by the end of the break!
A big goal to be finished in a week and a half- I hope it all end well.
It's pretty late right now, so while I'm so focused on turning my life around, I'll be fixing my sleep schedule too. My grades are next!
<3 Caramel
Results?!
Starting to see some changes in daily life once I decided to finally crack down and improve whatever feckless dance around life I was trying to do.
Finally getting a new bed for the first time in my life, I'm giddy with excitement since I no longer have to have a broken, splintering woodframe that catches on my hair and makes me want to cut it off. Big win!!
Time to happy clean I guess, today is good :)
<3 Caramel
hi
hi markus
School air is unbearable... Let me out of here! I want to sip drinks with heart-shaped ice!! I want to take a warm nap in the softest pajamas! I want to pet a cat!!!
No matter how much comfort food I treat myself to these days, I always wake up the next day feeling the same.
Maybe it's the world telling me to just lock in and work without caring...
(´д｀、)
on the bright side one of my packages arrived but the quality kinda sucked :/ That one’s on me though, ordered from a bad seller
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