Things That I Want To Do Sometime Soon

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Why do I love this sooo freaking much but yet I'm questioning my moral compass HUHHHH WHAAAAT I- but my love for this woman outshines it All......

look what you made me do - natasha romanoff

part of the greek chapter - college au

Summary: she did this for you

Warnings: dark fic, mentions of blood, murder, toxic behavior, stalking, power bottom!nat, strap on use, slapping, scratching, possessiveness, smut 18+

Word Count: 4k

A/N: it’s my reputation era (i’m just a simple gay trying to manifest reputation (taylor’s version))

i obviously do not condone this behavior. 

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Natasha Romanoff wouldn’t call herself a possessive person. She was never one to hold on to things for a long time, or really care about them sticking around. 

Until you came around.

From the second you saw Natasha you were hooked. Her smug grin and carefree snarky attitude immediately lured you in. You’d never wanted anyone else so bad in your life, and the redhead never felt so wanted. But the feeling of wanting and being wanted was not one Natasha was familiar with. The fight between wanting to keep you to herself and her detached personality an everyday battle.

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Reality

Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Summary - Natasha had always had nightmares, but your imagination seemed to cover your grief as Nat wakes up with tears in her eyes again. Goodbyes never were pleasant.

Warnings; Sad.

Not my GIF!!

The gentle sounds of snores lingered in the air. Natasha's warmth radiated off her body and onto your own, relaxing you into a state of serenity you wished you could keep forever. Still, the quite relaxing atmosphere wasn't enough to put you back to sleep. Your eyes traced Natasha's features as her gentle breathing fanned your face.

She was stunning. Everything about her was so perfect it felt surreal such beauty existed. Her eyes, when they were open of course, were tender while her jawline sharp. The perfect contrast.

You got lucky. Really fucking lucky. Maybe the younger you. The one before the world corrupted your head, the happy you, wouldn't question if you deserved such love. Maybe someday you'll realise that you really loved her, more than life itself.

You were still waiting for that day. The small whine escaped Natasha's mouth pulled you from your thoughts. Her brows were now furrowed, a slight frown visible in her features. You lifted yourself up with the help of your elbow, lightly pressing your palm to her cheek. She flinched, still deep in sleep.

Your brows creased in confusion, your thumb wiping away the single tear that ran across the bridge of her nose.

"Hey, Nat?" You whispered, careful as not to scare her more than she already seemed to be. She only got worse, her body curled up into a ball, her hands flinching up towards her face as if to protect herself. Your heart broke as you sat up fully, carefully grabbing her shoulder and shaking it to wake her up from her nightmare. She flinched yet again at your touch, but relaxed into it when she realised you weren't going to hurt her.

Her breathing became rapid, breaths short. She brought her knees to her chest, burying her head further her into the pillow as one of her hands scratched at your leg when she felt contact on her body. It didn't hurt, you were more concerned about the state she was in.

Sweat appeared on her face, a thin layer covering her forehead as she whimpered pleads into the air.

She woke up with a gasp, her hands instantly grabbing your wrists in self defence. She squeezed your skin harshly, sitting up as her breathing hitched.

"Love, you're okay. It's me." You whispered and she immediately let go of your hands. She was shaking, her whole body now covered in a thin layer of sweat. She wouldn't look you in your eye, only staring at your wrists where she held you seconds before, then her gaze turned to look at your leg where she'd scratched. Then her head dropped completely.

You covered the scratch marks with one of your hands while the other caressed strands of hair behind her ear.

"Nat?"

Her whole body shook, hair sticking to her wet forehead. Gently, you moved your hand so it gripped the back of her neck, bringing her closer to your chest. It wasn't long before she was sobbing into your shoulder, soaking the material of your shirt with her tears.

You kissed the top of her forehead, whispering sweet nothings into her hair while drawing shaped into her shoulder. She hand gripped your shirt, trying to pull you impossibly close to her. You didn't mind, you continued to try and relax her as she calmed down, slowly but surely her breathing returning to normal.

Her hand caressed where she scratched your skin, where she left red marks in your leg. You intertwined your fingers with hers, stopping her from touching the scratches.

"Don't worry about it," you told her, giving her a final kiss before lifting your arm, her hand still interwoven with yours, to lift her head from under her chin. Her eyes glistened with the tears she sobbed out seconds before, eyes red and puffy.

"Love, it wasn't your fault,"

She stared into your eyes a little longer before dropping her head back down and placing it on your chest.

"Why aren't you mad?" She whispered, running her thumb up and down your hand.

"I'd never be mad at you, love."

A scoff left her throat. "No. Why aren't you mad I left?"

"What?"

"I saved you, I brought you back."

"What are you talking about?" You questioned. Her body disconnected from yours, lifting her head she smiled up at you, bringing a hand up to your cheek.

"You need to move on. I brought you back. Go live it with someone real. Someone who'll take care of you." A tear escaped your eye. Nat was quick to wipe it away.

"Don't leave me again," you cried in a whisper. "I need you Nat."

She smiled again, the tears that once represented sadness now gone, eyes filled up with hope, a feeling that told you that you were ready.

"I need to go now. Don't push everyone away. For me please. Remember I loved you so much,"

"Come visit me again?" You sobbed, still holding her in your arms. "I can't do this without you. Just one more time, please. I love you so much,"

"You said last time 3 times ago." She giggled, dropping her arm from your cheek. "Promise me, you'll let me go,"

You shook your head immediately, breaking eye contact from her gaze. You wiped your nose with the sleeve of the hoodie you wore.

"It's okay." She cooed.

"Let me go,"

You blinked down at her. Her body no longer there. Tears rolled down your cheeks, arms holding the pillow she used to sleep on. You sniffed, trying to regulate your breathing, trying to fight to urge to call her back. But you knew. You knew she wouldn't come back. Maybe the younger you, the one when Natasha was alive, didn't realise that you were unconditionally in love with her.

Now that day has come. And you spend it alone, cradling the pillow she slept on while you lay in bed with her favourite hoodie hugging your shoulders.

You were ready. Both of you were.

At least she knew you loved her in the end.

And you knew she loved you back.

Masterpiece 🥺

The Accords

Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Tony had called a meeting within the compound, stating it was of the utmost importance. Most of the team attended, just to tease him for using the word ‘utmost’. When you all arrived to the room, you were greeted by political people standing ominous at the front of a long board table. You raised your eyebrow at the situation, questioning why this meeting was serious.

“What is all this about?” you gestured to the rooms set up, along with the uptight people that have yet to say a word

“The government needs us to sign these accord papers” he threw a book onto the table, it slid all the way down to you

“Just like that? Are we allowed to read them?” you were hesitant, something felt off about the situation

“Of course, read over every page but just know that there is a time limit to this offer” one of the mysterious men stepped into view with a concerning smile on his face.

The meeting was filled with political terms, the governments agenda and how the avengers were a flight risk. When the heads of the government left the room, each avenger took their time reading over the accords, trying to decipher what it all meant. It left a heavy feeling within the room and divided the group equally. This lead to a debate that no one planned on having when they work up this morning. You were the first to erupt from your chair in the corner.

“I honestly don’t think anyone read the fine print of the accords” you heavily sighed at your statement, knowing full well that this will cause more tension

“Which part?” Tony countered, stepping forward as a tactic to overpower you

“The part about enhanced beings, the even bigger part where it says I have to relinquish my powers.” you picked up the accords and flipped through the pages, stopping at a specific page. “They are to be used for the government use only” you mocked the written words, using quotation marks as you spoke

“That’s not a big deal” Tony scoffed at your statement, simply shrugging off the bigger issue

“I don’t think you understand. If they told you to give up your suit, you could because it’s not a part of you. I was born with these powers and will most likely die with these powers. I can’t get rid of them, they are me. What you’re saying is that I should surrender myself to the government and archive who I am so they can use me as a pawn when needed. Do you understand how fucked up that sounds?” You could feel the heat rise to your face, every part of you was buzzing, gearing up for the fight ahead

“Babe, there are ways around that, I’m looking into it” Natasha offered a gentle hand on your shoulder

“Don’t get me started on you. You would have read the accords inside and out. Which means you also agree to all the terms and conditions. You would sign an agreement that states that your partner needs to be subjected to medical testing? It’s like a casual drug test to them except they are stealing my DNA to do god knows what. I will be poked and prodded for the rest of my life, they will make me weak so I won’t be a contender on their board” your voice had changed ever so slightly, only Natasha picked up on the change

“(Y/N) it’s not like that” Natasha debated, you could see she was at war with herself over this decision

“I can’t believe you’re fighting me on this. I thought that you of all people would be against this. A few months ago, you were the one telling the government to shove it. And now all of a sudden you’re willing to give me up for what you think is the greater good?” You pleaded with her, you needed her to be on your side

“It’s what needs to be done” a final statement from Tony who was over this conversation. He collected his things before making his way out of the room.

“Why should I sacrifice my body and my powers just because you want to do the "right thing” for the first time in your miserable life?“ You had the last word, you used it by rubbing salt into his wounds. Tony came to a halt, you could feel the anger radiating off his still body. You waited for a response but you were left with empty space as he squeezed his fists shut before stomping out of the room. It was as if a weight had been lifted off your shoulders and you began to shake. Your tears fell at a rapid rate as your breathing became unsteady. The betrayal of your team, hitting hard enough to knock the wind out of you. As you cry silently, you felt a pair of strong arms wrap around you.

"It’s going to be okay” Natasha’s calm voice filled the room

“I don’t think it is” You mumbled between your tears, leaning into the familiar touch. She turns you around so you were face to face. You could see the challenging emotions she was trying to make sense of. Her most prominent was worry and a hint of fear.

“I will do whatever it takes to protect you from this, I’m only agreeing to the accords to gather as much information as I can to fix this” her eyes melted into yours as you both stood still in the middle of the room

“Thank you” it was above a whisper but nonetheless Natasha heard, she placed a soft kiss on your head and held you closer to her chest.

I wanna date someone that...

 -Makes me want to pin them up against a wall and kiss tf outta them, but also someone that just down with me like rubbing their hand while I hold it, because I just fucking crave your touch that much

-Will listening to me rant about feelings that I don’t even understand, and hugs when when I’m losing my shit and crying so fucking hard that I can’t breathe, and just supports me

-Makes me want to look at them for hours, so that I can remember details of their face, and their laugh, and all the other cute things about them

-Is intellectual. Stimulate my brain, talk about life and the things that you never really understood

-Won’t runaway because I’m difficult, or just because

-Is 100% down for me and I’m 100% down for them 

Nice blog 💕

Thank you darling

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Wild Ride Part 2

Y/N and Alexia texted for weeks after the event. Their schedules were all over the place, especially after Alexia received her second Ballon d'Or. On a random evening, Alexia took advantage of her afternoon off and FaceTimed Y/N out of the blue.

The midfielder, happy that she could see Y/N's face for the first time in a week in something else than an Instagram post or from a news outlet, waived to her favourite racing driver "Hiiii" she exclaimed. Shocked as she realised Y/N was still in bed and appeared to be topless. "I caught you in a bad time huh" she laughed nervously. "Um... no I just woke up don't worry" the driver laughed rubbing her eyes in an attempt to wake up "Oh I gotta get ready to catch my flight actually" the driver added.

Alexia, who started to pout, tried to keep the driver on FaceTime for a little longer "Aw really? And you are going to leave me here all lonely with nothing to do?". The driver, who had gotten to know Alexia's mischievous side quickly realised what the midfielder was implying "If you want my media team to get a show go right ahead hottie" she teased sending the midfielder a wink. "There is someone there with you?" Alexia asked worried at the possible answer Y/N could give her "What!? Nooo" the driver laughed before she changed the topic "I'm sure I'm getting a room for my home race in a couple of days ya know" she started "You could make that room feel a little less lonely" the driver added inviting the midfielder.

Alexia started to blush "Oh- Actually I already have tickets for the race" she bragged as she recomposed herself "There is some hot driver racing for a team I'm ambassador for" she added teasing the driver back "Hot you say.. now would you introduce me to said driver?" the driver played into Alexia's teasing.

The driver got ready for her flight as she chatted to the Barcelona midfielder on FaceTime making sure she got her to sit in the VIP stands of the Cupra team.

Being their home race, the Cupra team got the race track all to themselves the night before race day, so as per Cupra tradition, the team rode their bicycles for a whole lap, talking about possible strategies. Y/N, who had invited Alexia out on track opted to walk "Why are we the only ones walking" asked the midfielder clearly confused "Well you just started your recovery for your knee" the driver replied "I didn't want you to force it for a silly ride out on track" she added. The midfielder was stunned at how considerate Y/N was "So you decided to break your team's tradition" she teased "Hey-" the driver replied giving Alexia a slight nudge "I could just leave you out here alone in the middle of the night and ride with them" she added.

The two of them kept joking around as they made their way around the track, when they got back to the pits, Y/N was called to their team's dinner "You hungry?" Y/N asked the midfielder leaning her phone away from her mouth. The midfielder nodded "Add one more to the table please" Y/N said before she hung up. "We shouldn't make them wait long" the driver said "They are like gremlins when not fed" she joked leading Alexia to the elevator.

The elevator stopped abruptly making Alexia scared "WHA- what is happening" the midfielder grabbed onto the drivers arm "Don't worry" Y/N tried to calm the midfielder down, bringing the Barcelona player closer to her body, "There is an emergency line for a reason" she added. "Hi- um we are stuck in the elevator" the driver talked to the emergency line "Yes, remain calm, help is on their way" the caller replied making small talk with the two stars.

Alexia, who was still scared, held on to the driver harder. "So... does the elevator have cameras?" Y/N asked the emergency line, the voice on the other side of the call laughed "No, no we aren't allowed to film inside the elevator" they replied. "Great! Well we will leave you to you other emergencies" the driver joked, politely insinuating that they wanted to be left alone.

"She was flirty huh" Alexia mumbled, her neck buried in Y/N's neck "I sense some jealousy coming from somewhere" the driver joked "I- I just can't point at the source" she added as she grabbed Alexia's face. Pointing to her cheek "From here? I don't think so" she said, looking at Alexia's eyes "Nope not from here either" she added before she placed a finger on the midfielder's lips "Oh maybe-" the driver kissed Alexia as she pulled away the midfielder replied cheekily "Looks like we'll be trapped for a while..." she pulled the driver in for another kiss "Might as-well make the best of it" she added.

It's freaking perfection 😍😭😭😭 . lil Nadia had both parents reunited OHHH MYY GAWDD 😭😭😭🥺❤️

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pairings: natasha romanoff x fem!reader

warnings:18+ um just read it :p but honestly not proofread sorry

summary: After helping Clint with Yelena, an unexpected visitor shows up.

word count: 4097

part 1

moya malen'kaya petarda = my little firecracker

The figure moves, taking a few steps down the stairs, "I thought you would be more happy to see me"

Yelena, still in shock, stalks towards the person, pulling them into her arms, sobbing in their shoulder.

"sestra"

"Hey, Lena" Natasha holds her close, tears rolling down cheeks as she breaths in the scent of her sister, who she never thought she'd see again.

Clint and you stand there, still in shock to move, not wanting to believe that the redhead you grieved over was now alive, standing right there.

Letting the blonde go, Natasha makes her way to Clint, pulling him in her arms, he breaks down, crying in her shoulders. You could hear her whispering to him, 'Shh it's okay, it's not your fault, it was my choice’, as she rubs his back.

Pulling away, Clint gives kisses her cheek, clearing his throat as he steps away from her. Natasha turns towards you, green eyes licking with your e/c ones. You felt all the air in your lungs vanished, your brain still not believing the love of your life is now standing right in front of you.

"Hi, my sweet girl"

Completely forgetting about the ice under you, you ran full speed into her arms, wrap her arms around her neck, crushing your body against hers, a small 'oof' escaping from her lips as she quickly wraps her arms around your waist.

"I really hope this isn't a dream" you cried, nuzzling your face in her shoulder just breathing in her scent. "I'm here baby, I'm really here" Natasha whispers in your ear, holding you close, as much as she can, "I missed you so much, my sweet"

Pulling away slightly to face her, you crash your lips against hers, kissing her with all that you have. The feeling of her lips on yours was amazing. You both pulled away at the lack of air, leaning your forehead on yours, tears still dripping down your face.

"I missed you too" you say breathless from the kiss. You two stayed like that for what it seemed like forever but neither of you mind. It was like it was just the two of you in the world, everyone else had disappeared.

Clint told Yelena that he had to check on Kate and to meet him up there. Yelena nods and watches as he runs up the stairs leaving then noticing a man with salt and pepper hair looking awkward as he makes his way down the steps.

Yelena being Yelena, she quickly goes up to him, grabbing him by his arm, twisting it to the back while holding onto his shoulders. "Uh guys, a little help" He pleads to the two lovers who were in their own world.

Breaking out of the trance from hearing Bruce's voice, Natasha looks away to see him attacked by Yelena, letting go of you, she walks to them "Yelena, no. Let him go. He's a friend"

Yelena looks at him then at Natasha before letting him go, "Sorry, you just looked suspicious"

Bruce winces, rubbing his shoulders as he backs away from Yelena a little, "I uh I'll try not to look so suspicious next time" He tells hers, making her nod and give him a smile.

"I'm guessing you were the one that got her back" You say to him in which he nods. "How? I thought you tried and it didn't work"

"Yeah but that was before Steve put the stones back" He begins to explain, "I was going to try again after but Tony wanted the machine to be destroyed in case it were to get into the wrong hands but after a while I was able to contact Scott for some help, build a small time machine and go back"

"B-but how is she here?" You asked him, turning your head to exam Natasha then looking back at him "She's obviously not from a different time time"

"You're right, I'm not" Natasha says making us look at her, "After Steve put the stone back, I came back to life but I was stuck there. The Red Skull wouldn't let me leave, not that I would be able to at least. It was impossible to leave without anything" She glances at Bruce "But thanks to Bruce, I was able to come back home" She says tighten her arm around you.

"How did you get pass the Red Skull?" a familiar voice appeared from behind Bruce making hime jump a little, he turns around seeing Clint stand there with Kate. You felt Natasha tense a little seeing Kate obviously not knowing who she is.

"Well I uh brought the raccoon, Rocket, with me to help take me there. He was able to distract the Red Skull while I looked for Nat which ended up with the Red Skull loosing an eye" Bruce tells us, wincing at the memory.

"When was this?" Clint asked him which made you perk up wanting to know as well.

"A week ago"

You clench your jaw looking down at the ice, you know you shouldn't be mad but to know that she's been back a week, would've definitely saved another week of grieving her death.

Feeling a pair of lips press against your head, you look up at your wife who gives you a small smile before whispering to you, "Don't be mad"

You give her a confused look and say "I'm not mad"

Raising an eyebrow, Natasha scoffs playfully "Baby, you forget that I know you from the inside out" Literally

"I'm not mad" You repeated to her, your inner voice screaming at you, 'LIAR'

The redhead smirks shaking her head at your stubbornness, pressing a couple of kisses on your cheek, "If it makes you feel better, I was pissed at him too for not letting me go to find you"

"You were?"

She nods her head, pressing another kiss on your cheek, "I was, baby. I wanted to be with you right away but he wanted me to stay to check on me, making sure I would be alright"

"And are you?" You asked her, you wanted to make sure nothing was wrong with her, that she was fine and healthy.

"I am" She nods smiling at you "especially now, having you in my arms again"

You blushed at her words, even after being together for seven years, she still has that affect on you.

Then that's when it hit you. Pulling away from Natasha a little, you looked between her and Bruce, "Wait. How long were you both standing there?"

Bruce and Natasha gave each a look before looking at you with guilty smiles. "The whole thing" Natasha tells you, you look at her shocked and slap her arm making her yelp.

"You watched your best friend and sister fight and you didn't stop it" You glare at her, pulling away from her fully so you weren't touching her.

"You stood there too! I saw you! You didn't stop them" She defends herself, you rolls your eyes at her, "I was letting Yelena get her anger out!"

"Still not an excuse" She says, you rolls your eyes once more "yours isn't one either"

"Either way, you BOTH watched" Clint scoffs, tried of you two arguing but amused, who would've thought he would miss hearing you two argue about the littlest things.

"Well I'm gonna head back home" Bruce speaks walking back a little, "Call me if Nat starts to not feel well which shouldn't happen but just in case"

"We will" You nod to him, giving him a smile, "Thank you again, Bruce"

"Of course" He smiles back and looks at Yelena "Nice to finally meet you"

"You're the green giant?" Yelena looks him up and down before turning to Nat, "He doesn't seem big.. or green" She looks back at him.

"I uh I turn into the green giant" He tells her then looks at Kate and introduces himself, "Uh Bruce Banner"

"Oh right" Clint remembers about Natasha and Bruce not knowing about Kate, "This is Kate Bishop, uh she's uh"

"I'm his partner" Kate says smiling brightly, Natasha raises an eyebrow at that.

"O..kay" Bruce says sensing the awkwardness, "I'm really gonna get going this time. So uh "Happy holidays, try not to kill each other again" He jokes and walks away as we say bye.

"I can't believe I met another Avenger!" Kate squeals "This is probably the coolest day ever well expect for the fact that my mom got arrested and now i have no family left to spend Christmas with" She says laughing a little "But uh this day is something"

Clint gives her a sad smile, throwing an arm around her shoulder "Well you got us now and I'm not letting you spend Christmas alone, right?" He glances at me.

"Right" I say smiling at them both, "I" You glance at Natasha, "We don't know you that much but a friend of Clint's is a friend of ours and no one likes to spend Christmas alone" You trailed off a bit, remembering your second Christmas without Nat but your first with Nadia. You didn't want to spend it with Clint and his family like you would normally do but it was hard for you, especially with Nadia.

The year Nat died, you were sorta forced to spend it with them, Laura and Clint didn't want you alone especially while pregnant. Once Nadia was born, it was hard for you, it was only you who was experiencing her firsts when it should be you and Nat and December was the hardest month.

Natasha looked at you as your words trailed off before looking at Clint giving him a questioning look, he shakes his head and mouths to her 'later' although it's not his story to tell, he hopes you'll tell her.

"Okay, let's all get some sleep and we have a flight to catch even though a little someone can literally teleport us there" Clint glances at me teasingly, you roll your eyes "Okay fine but we still have to wait until morning, it's late and I need sleep asap"

"Let's go" Kate grins walking up the stairs as we follow her, you move away from Natasha making her stop walking as well as the others, "Um I'm gonna head over to my house real quick to grab the presents and clothes" You say to Clint then turn to Natasha, "I'll be back. Okay, baby?" You reach up to touch her cheek, lightly stroke it.

"I wanna go with you. It's late and I don't want you to be alone" Natasha says to you, leaning down to peck your lips. "I'll be okay, I'll take Yelena with me" You tells her making her frown.

"Why don't you want me to go?"

"I-" You close your eyes and sigh, opening them, you look into her eyes, "you caught me, I wanted to get you a gift since I don't have one for you"

"My love, you don't need to get me anything" She tells you, giving your lips another peck, "I want to" You say and softly push her away, "Now you stay with them while me and my favorite sister in law get you a gift" You wink at her while grabbing ahold of Yelena's arm, wrapping your arm under her, “I’m your only sister in law” she tells you confused.

"Bye" You wave at them, walking away and to the spot where your car was parked at. You and Yelena walked arm and arm, silently to the car. "So why didn't you want her to come?" Yelena ask as you unlock your arm from her, unlocking your care, you get in with her, "Because I don't want her to see Nadia yet" you tell her, putting your seatbelt on.

"You left Nadia alone?!"

Rolling your eyes, you start the car, "No, idiot. I dropped her off with Clint's wife, Laura. I don't want her to see photos of her yet" you tell her, starting to drive to your place, "I want her to actually see Nadia for the first time, you know?"

Yelena just nods even though you wouldn't be able to see her due to you driving. She still remembers the day you told her you were pregnant, she was so happy to be a Auntie and even more happy to know that there was still a piece of Natasha with her.

Parking your car in the driveway, you turned it off, taking your seatbelt off, "Come on, I'm gonna need help getting some boxes out of the attic"

Yelena frowns in confusion, getting out of the car, shutting the door close before following you up to the front door, "What are in the boxes?"

You glance at her, then continue to unlock the door, "Nat's clothes" you say before opening the door, Yelena following after you.

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After getting a few clothes for you and Natasha as well as grabbing the presents you have for the Barton family, Yelena and you headed to Kate's aunt's apartment. Despite are decline, Kate gave you and Natasha the bedroom, while her and Clint sleep on the floor in the living as Yelena already claimed the couch.

You and Natasha laid on the bed, facing each other, creasing each other's bodies, eyes locked in a hold, kisses on a hand or cheek, sometimes the lips, you both just laid there, soaking up the company and love, silence filled the room expect for the sound of you both breathing but you didn't mind it. It eased your heart hearing Natasha breathing, it eased the pain knowing she's back with you, in your arms and she's never leaving again.

You both didn't tell each other this but both were too afraid to sleep, afraid that all of this was a dream and you would wake up to being alone again.

But what felt like years, you began to doze off, blinking rapidly to shake the sleepiness away, Natasha smiles sleepily watching you, "Sleep, my baby. I'll be here when you wake up"

Shuffling closer to her, you wrap your arm around her waist, nuzzling your face in her chest, "Promise?" you whispered back, closing your eyes, already dozing off again.

"I promise" Natasha kisses your head, holding you close as possible as she rubs your back, helping you go into sleep, and once you're asleep, Natasha dozes off herself, hoping that sleep goes by fast because she couldn't wait to spend more time with you, to make up for the time she was gone.

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Laura smiles at Nadia, who sat in her high chair, happily eating her blueberry pancakes, Laura looks away hearing the front door open, Clint walks with presents along with you behind him.

“Daddy!” Nathaniel gets up from the floor, running into Clint’s free arm, Lila gets up from the couch as well as Cooper who goes to help you out with presents, “You made it. You kept your promise” Lila says to Clint who hands her a few presents after Nathaniel lets him go, “Merry Christmas” he says.

You give Cooper a big hug and kiss on the cheek, who blushes a little making you chuckle. Kate and Yelena stood by the door with Natasha behind them, staying out of view from the kids.

“Auntie y/n/n!” Nathaniel runs into your arms and you quickly pick him up, spinning him around, giving him a big kiss on the cheek, “hi, baby boy!”

“I missed you auntie” He tells you pulling away to face you, you smile and give him another kiss on the cheek before letting him down, “I’ve missed you too”

Lila comes to hug you next, “Hi, Auntie”

“Hi lilabug” You hug her back, kisses the top of her head before letting her go. “Guys this is Kate and Yelena” Clint tells the kids, pointing at Kate and Yelena, Kate smiles brightly at them, waving her hand with a little ‘hi’ while Yelena gives them a small wave and smile.

“We also have a little surprise for you” Kate tells them before moving to the side with Yelena to show Natasha, making the kids gasp, “Auntie Nat!!”

“Hi, kids” Natasha smiles brightly with blurry eyes, hugging them close to her as much as she can, it’s a little hard hugging three kids but she made it work. She closes her eyes, soaking in their warmth that she never thought she would get to feel again.

Laura, who’s still in the kitchen cleaning up Nadia, almost drops the baby, hearing the kids yell Natasha’s name. ‘What the?’

Putting Nadia down in her now cleaned high chair, she quickly cleans up the rest to see if she heard right.

You walk away from the heartwarming scene to the kitchen where you saw Laura at. You smile at the sight of Nadia who looks at you when you walk in.

She smiles, her two front teeth in show, holding her arms out to you, “mommy!”

“Hi, baby love” You grin at her, picking her up from her chair, holding her close, kisses her hand, you turned to Laura hearing her speak.

“Did I hear right? Natasha’s here”

You nod grinning, eyes teary as well as Laura’s, who flies the kitchen.

Laura gasp at the sight of Natasha, who looks at her, letting go of the kids and pulling Laura in a hug, “You really are back” Laura croaks.

“I am”

“Um Nat, we have a surprise for you” Clint says, when he sees you walking back to the living room with Nadia.

Letting go of Laura, Natasha looks at him, grinning hearing a baby babble, “Did you have another Barton baby?”

“Nope. You and I had a Romanoff baby” You say, looking at her holding Nadia on your hip, tears pouring down your face. Laura moves away to let Natasha see, moving to Clint’s side watching.

Natasha gasp, holding her hand to her mouth with teary eyes, taking in the sight of you holding their baby. She takes in Nadia’s features, seeing her features, the red curly hair, doey green eyes, the nose, chin, her dimple on her chubby rosy cheeks. She was definitely Natasha daughter, a mini her.

Nadia stares at Natasha, her confused look slowly turning into a smile, “Mama!”

Natasha smiles tearfully as do you, you move Nadia, bending down to put her on the floor. Nadia stands staring at Natasha, then walks to her. Natasha falls on her knees, taking Nadia in her arms, hold her close, one hand behind the one year old’s head while the other held her up by her bottom.

You walk over to them, crouching down, placing a kiss on Natasha’s cheek as you wrap your arm around them.

Clint pulls Laura with to go sit on the couch, gesturing for the kids to do the same which they do, followed by Kate. Yelena watches the scene, smiling brightly, happy her sister got to met her daughter.

Pulling away, You chuckle tearfully wiping Natasha’s tears, while Nadia glances back and forth between her moms.

“It worked” Natasha whispers to you, you nod smiling brightly, “It worked” Glancing at Nadia, you kissed her rosy cheeks, “It definitely worked” you chuckle as Nadia leans forward, kissing your cheek then Natasha’s.

“Present time!” Nathaniel yelled excitedly as Clint passes out the presents. “Pesents!” Nadia squeals, wiggling in Natasha’s arms, who chuckles letting her go. Nadia waddles to them, then screams in glee when Yelena picks her up.

“moya malen'kaya petarda” Yelena blows raspberries on Nadia’s cheeks, walking around the couch and sitting with Nadia on her lap, “Yeye!!” Nadia grins up her auntie.

Natasha laughs at the nickname Nadia gave Yelena causing her sister to turn back at her to give her a glare. “Stop laughing at her” You kiss Natasha’s jaw, before pulling away and standing, holding your hand out to her, she grabs it standing up, “It’s hard not to, the name is cute though”

Wrapping her arm around your waist, she pulls you pressing you against her front, “I wished I was there for you” She says, leaning her forehead on yours, “Me too. If it makes you feel at ease, I captured every moment as If you were off in the military or something” You laughed as well as Natasha, “Well I can’t wait to see it all” She pressed her lips against yours, kissing you softly before pulling away and rolling her eyes, hearing Yelena comment, ‘Gross! your child is present’

Chuckling, you pull back grabbing Natasha’s hand and pulling her towards to others, “Come on, I want to see our baby open up her gifts”

Natasha smiles going with you, glancing at said baby who is trying to tear apart her gift while Cooper held it down for her.

Our baby.

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The rest of the day consisted of opening all gifts, board games, and movies, as a snow day was planned for tomorrow. You were happily watching at Natasha and Nadia bound, those two were attached to the hip and you wouldn’t have any other way. At night, Clint walks around the house, checking that all the doors and windows are locked when he notices that your and Natasha’s room light was still on. Curious, he walks up to the door, to check if you and her were alright, seeing the door still crack open, he soft knocks it, opening it once hearing a hushed ‘come in’

Walking in he sees you asleep, cuddled up against Natasha’s side who was wide awake and Nadia fast asleep in her playpen, looking at Natasha, “What are you doing still awake?”

“Can’t sleep” She replies, running her hand up and down your back, “I’m just taking all of this in”

“Too much for you?” He asked, crossing his arms, leaning against the doorframe.

“Not enough” She smiles lightly, “I know I said I can’t sleep but honestly I’m just afraid to sleep” She tells him, Clint gives her a look to continue.

“I slept yesterday but I woke up early to just stare at her” The redhead looks down at you, “I’m just scared that all of this will be taken away from me”

“It won’t” He promises, she scoffs shaking her head, “We don’t know that. I mean I basically cheated death, something can happen again and this time..this time no one will be able to get me back and I won’t have this anymore” She sniffs, wiping her tears.

“Well that won’t happen” He tells her, “I’ll make sure of it, it’s been almost two years and this was the first time i’ve had an enemy and that was only because of the Ronin, you’ve worked with SHEILD for years and the only enemy you had was Hydra..and the Red Room but from the stories I heard, that’s gone”

She shakes her head lightly, “and what about the people I’ve killed while in the Red Room, Clint?”

“If they wanted to kill you, they would’ve tried during your SHEILD time and right now, the world thinks you’re still dead so I doubt someone will come after you” He chuckles as well as Nat, who nods, “Yeah, you’re right about that, still doesn’t mean it doesn’t scare me”

“It scares all of us” He says, looking at a photo of his family that was hung up on the wall, “but we just gotta push it down, keep going on with our life and know that our family is safe and protected with us. If we can save a whole city, we can save our families”

“Yeah.. thank you” Natasha looks back up at him, smiling, “No problem, now get some sleep, we have a long day tomorrow” Clint pushes himself off the frame, “Goodnight”

“Goodnight” Natasha gives him another smile before he shuts the door. She looks down at you, smiling as you snuggled closer into her, in your sleep, sighing softly.

Hearing shuffling next to her, Natasha turns to look in the playpen to see Nadia moving before being still and sighing making Natasha chuckle softly, Nadia may be her twin but she definitely takes after you.

It’s funny to her, she never thought she would get any of this. A wife, a child. She thought she was gonna be alone forever, especially after Bruce, she really thought she wouldn’t get any of this but you.. you gave her that hope that she would.

You became her hope

then Nadia became your guy’s hope.

A hope that became reality.

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Alexia, mi reinita, mi amor, mi todo | Alexia Putellas x Reader

A/N: Not me wanting to get this out still on Alexia's birthday like I'm turning an essay in at midnight. Ok honestly I would write a part two of this but that's only if people are interested. Again requests are closed for now.

So it's a little angsty, has a little hurt/comfort (I know this woman gives the best hugs let's be real), and some Alexia fluff.

Based on this prompt list: #4, #20

Warnings: Anxiety/panic attack symptoms

WC: 1860

Alexia had resolved it in herself that she would use whatever leverage she had to have you stay at Barcelona. She was not the type to use that card…she was not that kind of player…the type to threaten to leave to get what she wanted, but the thing she wanted was you. She had tried to speak with some of the staff about it but they were “conveniently busy”. With no success, she texts you “Voy a casa, te veo pronto, amor” (I’m going home, I’ll see you soon, love)  before driving over to your shared home.

Barcelona was dragging their feet with regards to your contract of whether you would be renewed or be traded to some other club, some other league, some other country. You had spent 4 years dedicated to Barcelona and had earned your spot in the midfield. The statistics you pulled throughout your career there were phenomenal, the kind that made your girlfriend proud to see because she was there from the beginning. So why was Barcelona playing a cat and mouse game with your livelihood?

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“Alexia, mi Reinita, mi amor, mi todo (my little queen, my love, my everything),

You know that I am better with my words written on paper than spoken to you. You still make me nervous when I look at you; I still blush as quickly as I did when we first met. I write this to you because I’m going to America to Bay FC…the deal has been done and the announcements will be out in a couple of weeks, but I wanted you to be the first to know. 

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The amount of times that Alexia had found you at that kitchen table with your head covered by your arms crying out your frustrations at another deal that went nowhere. She would never say a word and just quietly wrapped her arms around you and kissed the back of your head before laying hers on it. Once the crying stopped her hand would gently rub your back until eventually you began to move and pulled her into a hug with your head at her abdomen with a quick whisper of “let’s go to sleep”. Her only words would be “of course, cariño (dear)”.

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I know how you are mi amor (my love) but fighting the club is not worth it. It is hard to swallow the reality that the club that I grew up watching, grew up to play in, does not carry the same love and dedication I had for them…for me. You were one of the first people I met 4 years ago when I transferred from my club team in Mexico. It was a big move and you were there to just welcome me in, you knew immediately that I did not take change very well and was uncomfortable with everything. 

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Alexia, at some point, blocked some sports news outlets on your social media because of how overwhelming the “(y/n) Transfer Rumor” posts were getting for you. You did not want to leave Barcelona, you had made a home there with Alexia and the thought of leaving all of what you had terrified you. 

You could already hear the comments from the “fans” questioning your loyalty, why you couldn’t just confirm that you would be staying at Barça or leaving the team all together, why you were silent on the rumors? Alexia would be there with her head on your shoulder quietly holding you in the kitchen quieting the noises in your head with a simple kiss to the temple.

“Mi princesa, go sit down.. I’ll make dinner” she’d whisper into your hair as she led you to the table and made dinner while you watched with warmth at the woman before you. 

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I remember you would tease me about my accent when I spoke Spanish and said you would give me lessons if I made you a bag after you saw me crocheting mine on the bus to my first away game. I know that the Spanish lessons were just a way to spend time with me. You could have asked me to be with you at any point and I would have said yes. I remember you teaching me how to dance in our kitchen one night after saying that I was worried about making a fool out of myself at my brother’s wedding. I’m going to miss our 3 am dances we would do when I was pacing the kitchen stressed out of my mind on this transfer.

As you said, “Here I don’t want you to walk back and forth alone, just dance with me instead…I'm here”. I still remember the feeling of you under my palms; every curve, every line as I would take the lead of the dance and you would look at me calmly guiding my hands like how you did when you first taught me…yeah I’ll miss those quiet moments the most. 

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You had not gone to practice that morning due to stomach issues and you had to basically push Alexia out of the door so that she went to practice. 

“I’ll get some rest do not worry, mi Reinita” You say as she answers with a quick kiss.

She grabs her bags and gives another kiss pulling you in,“I’ll be home as soon as I'm done ok?”.

As Alexia entered through the doorway of the shared home and saw several moving boxes littered on the floor. Confused, she looks for you as there is not the usual soft music that you play when you are doing chores and finds you wrapped in a blanket sound asleep on the coach.

Her bag is gently put to the ground as she rounds the corner of the coach. She sees the coffee table littered with papers and your phone with an unread message from her.

She quietly looms over the papers, seeing a copy of your original Barcelona contract, the proposal, the rejection to the proposal, another club offer and, finally, the letter to confirm intention to transfer. Your phone lights up with another notification; getting the attention of Alexia who notices the handwritten letter that remained unfinished under your phone. 

You were a semi - heavy sleeper so she picked up the letter and began to read as her soft smile appeared, fell and then reappeared.  The boxes made sense now, you were organizing your things ahead of time to leave. Seems that you received the news that morning, explaining why the staff were busy when Alexia tried her best to speak with them.

She looked down at your handwriting again…she’s so familiar with it as you have always littered her spaces with sticky notes of encouragement, love and everything in between. You always thought she had thrown them away but on your 2nd year anniversary she showed you the box where she had kept every single note that you had written to her. 

It didn’t matter to her; she kept all the ones that said “Hi Ale, can you get some milk?”, “Reinita, there is dinner in the fridge”, “I’m too lazy, I ordered pizza oh and I guess Patri is coming over?’ 

This letter no matter how long she will keep especially close to her.

Alexia sat at the other end of the coach and began to read the last bit of the letter.

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I know that I will be so far from you and that you will miss the things that I do. You were always a romantic like that mi amor (my love). That’s why I am going to leave you my favorite book, the one that I always read way too many times and have cried over just as much. The only thing that I ask is that you don’t open it until I am gone and you are missing me. Just saying not to is going to make you want to open the book even more but please listen to me on this one. :)

I don’t know what the fixtures of the NWSL are yet but I know that you will want to -

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You stir and stretch out your legs pushing Alexia in the process. The resistance pulled you from your sleep.

Alexia laughs softly as she pats your leg, “Sleep well, cariño (dear)?” 

You only nod as you rub the sleep from your eyes. Without a word, you sit up and look at Alexia who fiddles with the note that you had written. 

“I wish I was at least awake when you found out, amor (love)” you start as you shift over to be closer to her.

“Are you mad at me?” your head now lying on her shoulder.

Alexia looks, almost, offended at the comment as she turns to you.

“This is your decision, cariño, you know that I will support in whatever you do and wherever you go…I’m sad, yes, but seeing you living out your dreams has been a honor for me…so no I’m not mad solamente bien orgullosa de ti (only very proud of you)”.

She pulls you closer, her hand softly rubbing your arm as she hears the small sniffles coming from you.

“Promise me you’ll watch at least one game” you say softly.

Alexia laughs and kisses the top of your head, “Amor, I’ll watch every one”.

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The announcement came and went and so did you. You found yourself preparing for the inaugural season for Bay FC. The fans had taken a liking to you immediately and the management welcomed you with open arms. 

Alexia, remained in your shared home that now was quieter without your presence. The spaces that normally were filled with little posts were bare, the days for chores weren’t filled with your questionable music, and Alexia no longer needed to dance in the kitchen at 3 am.

After a particularly hard practice, Alexia returned home missing you more than usual. As she plopped down on the coach her eyes fell on your book that you left behind for her.

She remembered that you had asked her to not open it until you were gone to your new club.

Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe by Fannie Flagg, it was the book that you read every year during the summer without fail. No matter how many times you read it, Alexia would see you tear up and close the book to compose yourself before continuing. 

She got the book and opened to the first page and seeing a small, sticky note,

“I miss you, mi reinita”.

Alexia flipped the page and found another one,

“You can text my mom for her soup recipe, she’d only give it to you”

A laugh escapes her as she continues through the book finding more and more of your notes that you had written out. She skips to the end and finds an older looking note.

“I love you, Alexia Putellas…” with the date of your 1st anniversary with Alexia.

And below with newer ink and dated the day that you had left.

“And I… I still love you, even after all of this time”.