has anyone ever said that this is a neil abram josten song…….
cause i mean look
And the blood of the man who killed my mother with his hand / Is in me, it’s in me in my veins
i don’t think these lines even need explaining. it’s him. it’s him and mary and nathan
So, touch my skin and tell me where you’ve been
to me, this feels like neil and andrew and their truths game. neil’s need to hear andrew’s past and to know his truth and the way their game makes him feel real
You showed me how to keep myself from burning out
and
You showed me how to hold my skin
neil learning to confront his truth and his lies and transform them into something real. andrew helped him figure out how to become something more than his lies and how to stand as himself instead of being a pile of lies that burns out and replaces itself with another fictitious person
i know i said i would be making the homes in california next however that was actually just me pulling a neil josten so instead here are some more places from the first three books because i had their images in my head and moving chronologically called to me
perhaps most importantly is the monster's home in columbia. i am not sure if the books actually say this is a split level home but it makes sense to me and i have picked up on nora liking split level homes from multiple descriptions so that's what it is. we know nicky's room is on the first floor and so is the bathroom which means aaron and andrew are upstairs. andrew's room being second seemed right because its farther from the front door and because of the vague way my brain played out that scene of him coming downstairs before going to easthaven. not sure if i love that there's only one bathroom but we don't learn of a second one and i honestly don't think nicky could have afforded the jump in price a second bathroom would bring
okay. this one is painful. and for the record, i am sorry. but its mentioned so here it is. as you can tell i didn't want to or feel the need to fully fill in this house. i just added enough so that you can vaguely get the point and put labels for the rest. mainly i just did the kitchen, the back screened in porch where they ate, and that cursed bedroom. again, i am sorry. we're moving on to something more fun though don't worry
spring break cabin!!! this was so much fun, i cannot even begin to tell you. and okay, i know they were there for only a week so like what does it matter but it matters to me. this space is so cozy and caved out in my head that i just had to do it. the tan is the inside and the grey is the porch which we know to be in the back and on one of the sides. ignore how i didn't really put anything on the porch... i was kinda stuck beyond the hot tub. but this place is hugeeeee like oh my god. we have the large living room around the fireplace, the ginormous kitchen, the cute back room that is mentioned to have pool and foosball, and of course, our favorite, the bedroom neil and andrew stay in. ngl i struggled a bit with that bedroom's layout but this is what we ended up with
okay, second floor. according to neil, the four upstairs bedrooms are placed in each of the corners which made it a bit difficult and definitely interesting to do. because of this, i gave two of them a jack and jill style bathroom. in my mind, it makes sense for the two bedrooms sharing a bathroom to be given to nicky, kevin, and aaron. i think kevin being the drama queen he is would get his own and nicky and aaron would share but honestly aaron could be with either. and of course matt and dan are together and allison and renee are in the last one. each room has a door to the wrap around porch but it made sense to me for the open areas to have access too. and speaking of the open areas i made one a mini lounge because apparently there are multiple fire places and i had to put the second one somewhere and the other has desks because i didn't put them in any of the rooms. i mean it is a vacation home, why would they need desks in their rooms?
i swear i will actually do the cali homes next. i have sketches of them in my notebooks but haven't fully fleshed them out online like the rest. but they exist and i have already scoured the books to piece them together so hopefully it won't take ten years but then again, it is finals season and i have so so many essays to do so we will see.
oh and, i have about half of wymack's apartment done in the sims and while it's a struggle to be era accurate, it's very cute and fun
pt. 1 pt. 3 (cali)
goddddddd it absolutely was a tiny rebellion and it makes me insane to think about because we know just how much he locked everything away mentally to survive riko and the nest and for him to care this much about something that he is willing to stick his neck out to get it is everything. something about history spoke to him in a way that he wasn’t willing to lose and i need to know what it was
hey so like Kevin Day history nerd that came to love history so much because he kept learning and reading about people and civilizations that where continuously torn down but rebuilt time and time again, how things were destroyed and created anew, how people, despite everything, prevail and claw their way back.
I feel like the Trojans are to Jean what the never ending story scene is to Hopper and Joyce from stranger things like life or death situation and you just have Bobby and Diego completely unaware over here serenading each other and Jean's in the corner trying to faze into the wall like holy shit I'm gonna die
you cannot tell me that neil doesn’t have wacked teeth. like he didn’t have a consistent dentist growing up if he even had a dentist at all. because dentist scans mean leaving unchangable, undeniable truths of your identity behind and mary would not have liked that at all.
so give me neil with a chipped tooth he got from a rough landing after jumping out of a car or a window. give me neil with a gap between his front teeth. give me neil with crooked teeth to match his crooked smile
you can pry starting sentences with 'and' or 'but' out of my cold, dead hands
and while i’m on the wymack train, can we please just take a moment with this passage because ohhhh my god
“Neil looked down at the key in his palm, at the security Wymack so easily and unquestioningly gave him. Maybe Neil wouldn't get any sleep tonight, and maybe he'd spend the next couple weeks waking up every time Wymack snored a little too loud, but maybe Neil really was okay here for now.” - tfc ch. 2
the found family in this book never fails to warm my heart. because this is so so soon after neil came to south carolina and so soon after he met wymack, a man he is predisposed not to trust because of his age, and yet (AND YET) wymack gave him a key and neil knew he was staying, knew that he had a place there, a place to come back to, and it was enough for now
hold a magnet near the foxes and weapons start appearing outta hammerspace
yes yes yes exactly!! literally makes me giggle to think about. like imagine you play an exy game, drink copious amounts of vodka afterwards, and then your roommates do. not. let. you. sleep. all so that they can drag you and most the team to an annoying ass interview (your first in nine months) and you wake up after the bus ride there to your dad kicking you and telling you he doesn’t care about your complaints
he must’ve been a bit hungover and so tired and here’s wymack, sending him on laps up and down the bus so he can’t fall back asleep. i love them, wymack would’ve been like this all the time if he was raising kevin
every time i reread aftg (the original trilogy) i forget how sassy wymack is and its literally amazing
here are some examples from tfc:
first line and he’s opening with sass at a 10/10
i. love. him.
great one liner but the whole thing is hilarious
the way he just speaks over seth is everything lmaooooo
“watch me beam with pride” im. dyinggggg
kicking kevin? 💀 the colon??? iconic
the forming relationship between him and neil actually means the world to me
Kevin Day, rubbing his hands together with evil glee after jerejean get together: another successful relationship orchestrated by me on accident but I’m going to take credit for it anyways.
jerejean fake dating au where someone wont leave jean alone and cat is like “wait! i have the perfect solution” and sets them up to date fake date.
she knows from laila and her own observations that jeremy needs to stop hooking up with those fuck ass guys because he deserves someone who doesn’t treat him like shit. and knows that jeremy is kind enough to help a friend of her’s out if she says it’s dire (which in her defense, it is) without looking too hard at her reasoning.
even in a fake relationship, jeremy won’t cheat, never mind that they have to keep up appearances, which means no more self-harm hookups. add on that jeremy’s demeanor will fight off jean’s harasser bc he acts as a trojan does and pulls shit like “oh! that’s rude, considering your current roster. i hope you apologize to them later” so cat is assured that they will be the perfect match for helping their current problems.
but while she mainly wants to help out two people she cares about, she secretly thinks they would be good together and for each other. (it’s not so secret, laila has heard her talk it up for hours)
and then, of course, they fall in love
gabi (she/they) || tired english major, perpetual doc wearer, avid fanfic reader, root beer connoisseur || i fear i have never been normal about anything ever || i love aftg, arcane, and spiderverse
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