I Might Have A Slight Obsession...

just before our love got lost you said / “I am constant as a northern star” / and I said “constantly in the darkness? Where is that?

“Red Velvet”

I always pictured Castiel to be the sad accepting type of jealous lover

Like, he gets jealous, but he doesn't act on it. He kinda just sits, stares, and looks on longingly, wishing it were him

Imagine with me:

Dean tries to make Cas' jealous, wanting that fun lil spice in their relationship. Wanting to see if Cas is gonna act on it and be all possessive

He does the smallest thing. They're at a bar and Dean just winks and nods at the pretty bartender who sends back her own flirtatious lil look

Dean turns to Cas, hoping to find his (they're in the dating stage) boyfriend looking fierce and angry

And he immediately panics cause Cas is giving him the biggest, saddest eyes known to man

Big blue and glassy. Like he's gonna cry but it's the type of cry of someone who's accepted they've lost

And Dean immediately goes to rectify his failure. Just ditches the bar entirely. Takes Cas out star gazing and showers him in love. Cause that look? That sad, forlorn look that ripped his heart out of his chest?

Dean is gonna dedicate his entire life to make sure Cas never looks that way again

people have got to learn the difference between I didnt like it and It was bad

chapter 8. never again │ belle âme series

ღ genre: angst, angst, and fluff

ღ warning/s: swearings, toxic boyfriend behavior, blood

ღ word count: 2k

a/n: am i back? sadly, no. not atm. it'll probably be a long break again before i get to post another chapter?? hopefully not. it'll be exam week tom and i'm literally just squeezing this in bc i'm kinda free? HASDHASAKDJ but yay chapter 8, anw thank you for being so patient with me i honestly love you guys hope you enjoy !!

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You blink, once, and twice.

He loves you? Still, loves you?

He takes a step towards you, tears forming in his eyes.

"Please take me back," he pleads, voice shaky and you bite on your lip. It's taking everything in you to not break your resolve. You look away, taking a step back, Kei's heart shatters as you move away from his touch.

"No," you state with so much conviction that you were sure there was no room for arguing. "No, Tsukishima. We're done."

It turns quiet and it's suffocating as the two of you stand in front of each other. You slowly look at him, and you feel yourself start to shake underneath his gaze. It was soft, and sorrowful just a while ago, but now? It's dark and there's a murderous gleam behind the softness in his eyes as he walks slowly to you. Instinctively, you take a step back each time he gets closer.

"But, I still love you?"

"And, I don't," you shout as fear comes to seep in your bones and you begin to shake but, you stood your ground. "So, enough already!! Just let me go."

"Do you know how miserable I've been?"

Kei backs you into a wall and he stops, as tears start rolling down his face. You didn't like this, you're scared, frightened, you didn't want this.

"I-I missed you so much," he starts as hot tears continuously roll down his face. "You left me. You left me all alone!!"

"That's because I've had enough of our relationship!!" Even as you didn't exactly state what made you leave— Kei's toxic behavior— He understands the underlying meaning of your words.

"I had every right, Tsukishima!"

"You don't."

You furrow your brows as you look for a means of escape. His eyes darken fully, one you've never seen before during the time you were with him, and you surely don't want to know now what'll come after it.

"You had no right!! I never agreed to break up with you. Breaking up with someone requires an answer from both parties!!"

"It doesn't have to be that way!! I left because I didn't want to do this anymore," you reason with him, and your voice rises with the next words. "You barely let me do anything I wanted when we were together, and now you're taking away my right as well to decide what's best for me??? Jesus Christ Kei, give me a break!!"

A pause.

"We're not together anymore, stop controlling me!!"

"I'm the best for you!!"

He shouts and grabs your wrist harshly, pulling you towards him. Tears start to roll down your eyes as you fight and pry away his bone-crushing grip on you. You have no idea what could happen to you and you're kind of helpless because he's a lot taller and stronger than you. You knew that you would never win a play fight with him during the 3 years you've been together, as he always manages to pin you down.

"Take me back, please," he pleads, voice shaky and hurt. "I'll never hurt you again, I promise."

"You're hurting me right now!!"

Your sobs get louder as you beg him to let you go.

"I can't let you go, you'll run off again."

"E-nough, Tsukishima," you plead in between broken sobs. "Stop it, just let me go!!"

He furrows his brows and lets go of your wrist harshly, making you fall to the ground. He groans and looks away before slowly crouching down to meet your eyes.

"It's because of that onigiri owner, no?"

Your eyes widen as you rub on your wrist, pushing yourself with your feet to scoot away from him, only for your back to hit the wall. Kei catches the way your eyes widen and he scoffs.

"I saw," he starts, eyes dark and mean. "I saw everything that day when you left me."

You're at a loss for words as tears stream down your face. This isn't the Kei you loved, this man crouching in front of you is different. Kei would never hurt you physically during your relationship, but here he is.

"I always knew he liked you," He shakes his head before he smiles. "How his gaze would linger on you longer than normal. It pisses me the fuck off."

You furrow your brows at what he said. Osamu likes you? Shaking your thoughts mentally, you put on a brave face.

"Leave Miya out of this."

He looks at you, disbelief written all over his face before mocking you.

"Or what?"

You furrow your brows and frown. He laughs at you trying so hard to protect Osamu when you can't even defend yourself. He grabs your face brutally with one hand, forcing you to look at him.

"I'll make him pay for stealing you from me," he starts and you begin to sob again, shaking your head.

"You can't protect him, can you?"

You start to hit him for you to defend yourself, but he grabs both your wrists, stopping your assault.

"Don't hurt me, sweetheart. I'm only taking back what's mine."

He smiles and laughs as you whimper in his hold, screaming at him to let you go. The last thing you could think of was kicking your way out, and you did, successfully hitting his nose with your knee. He groans as he lets go of his hold on you. The harsh impact you inflicted on him, made him fall to the ground and you quickly crawled away from him, scrambling to get on your feet. He sees you running away, and it makes him angry as he starts to stand up to chase you. You're sobbing, eyes blurry as you make your way to the genkan, only to bump into something... someone??

"What's going on?"

Oh, how fast your worries dissipated when you heard his voice. He's panting and his breathing is ragged.

Looking up through watery eyes, you make out the figure of Osamu looking down at you. His eyes widen and concern replaces his features as he holds your shoulders.

"Hey, hey what hap-"

"Kei!!"

He looks up to see Tsukishima walking towards you both, a bone-chilling aura surrounding him. There's blood running down his face and Osamu wastes no time in putting you behind him. He puts a protective arm in front of you, and he slowly backs away, pushing you out the door.

"Grab my keys and run to the car. Lock the door, go hurry."

You nod and let a sound of affirmation, he hands you the keys and you run, clutching your things for dear life— Osamu drove you here and he was supposed to wait in the car, but unbeknown to him, you were taking so long and it had him worried. So, he had decided to go check up on you, and he's so glad he did. The minute he heard you screaming from the hallway, he wasted no time in running to come get you. Tsukishima stops just in front of Osamu, and the gray-haired twin didn't falter when he stared him down. Yes, he may be taller but, that doesn't let Osamu faze him.

"What did you do to them?"

Tsukishima scoffs and rolls his eyes, "Are you their boyfriend?"

Osamu grits his teeth and clenches his jaw as he looks at the former Karasuno middle blocker. He has grown a lot taller when he last saw him.

"No."

Tsukishima laughs before his face falls into a more sinister look.

"Then get the fuck out of my way."

"No," Osamu retorts making Kei angrier. "I will not let you near them."

Kei furrows his brows deeper and glares at Osamu, but he never falters. The twin closes his eyes and takes a deep breath.

"Look," he starts, "I don't want to hurt you because I don't think that's fai– No it is, after what you've done to them but, I won't resort to being physical."

"Why?"

"Because that's just not who I am."

Osamu puts his hands in his pockets before walking away slowly. Kei makes no signs of stopping him so the gray-haired twin continues backing away.

"Leave them alone," he turns his back towards him before holding the doorknob but, before he can leave the apartment he looks over his shoulder and sends a death glare to the blond.

"And, if I ever see you fucking near them, I'll make sure to break my promise of not hurting you."

He slams the door and walks away, leaving Kei all alone once again. The minute he closes the door he runs, he runs as fast as he can to get to you.

A few minutes pass and you see Osamu running to the car, making you open the lock. You're still shaking from what happened, traumatized because of it, and you're so glad Osamu came in the right time. When he opens the door to the driver's seat, he immediately locks the door and looks at you.

"Hey," he calls your name out softly. "Look at me."

You slowly turn your head towards him and his heart shatters, there are small bruises on your cheeks which he can only assume came from Kei's grip. He slowly and hesitantly reaches out to grab your hands, scared that he might overstep his boundaries.

"C-can I?" he asks a little unsure, and heart heavy. But, when he sees you give a small nod he feels relieved. His heart feels lighter that you let him in your walls, allowing him to enter your space. He grabs your wrists and furrows his brows, as he inspects the dark purple coloring your wrist.

I should've inflicted at least one punch in Kei's face— he thought to himself. He puts one of your hands in his, making sure not to hurt you, before starting the car and driving away.

It's quiet, but comforting as he held your hand, rubbing his thumb over it every now and then, and he looks at you from his peripheral just to check up on you. During the whole ride, you can't help but think of what Kei said.

"I always knew he liked you."

It made you rattle your brain as you sort out your thoughts. You look at the hand Osamu was holding and thought to yourself.

Friends hold each other's hands, right?

There was no way he liked you, he had made it clear to you because when some of the customers in Onigiri Miya flirted with him, he would always reject and tell them that he wasn't looking to be in a relationship. So why would he like you, when he wasn't in the market for dating?

I mean, yeah he's nice, but that's normal for friends, right?

Osamu makes a turn and he stops just in front of their apartment complex. You were so caught up in your own little bubble of confusing thoughts that you completely missed Osamu calling your name softly until he gently squeezed your hand.

"Hey," he calls out again when you finally look at him. There's a sad smile on his face as he turns his body to face you. He slowly reaches a hand out to cup your face and you tense up, he catches this almost immediately which makes him pull away. You don't know whether you'd be relieved or disappointed when he respected your boundaries, because at the moment you just wanted to be held but at the same time, you can't help but feel nervous around him especially after what Kei said. You sigh before looking down, shaking your head to clear your clouded mind, and you decided not to let it affect you, as you pushed away the phrase to the very back of your mind. Swallowing your pride and ego, your eyes begin to water once more before whispering.

"P-please hold me."

You curse yourself for showing your weaknesses in front of Osamu because you're too much of a burden to him already. He has always been there for you but you never once repaid his kindness— His eyes widen but, he immediately grabs your head and pulls it to his chest. He wraps you in a comforting and warm embrace, as he allows you to feed on your selfish desires because he loves you.

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