I Always Love It When Someone Starts Off Their Trauma Dump Like This. It's So Fucking Funny.

im slowly losing it

y'know, *lights cigarette* back in my day, subcultures used to be about the culture, and not just the appearance of it to people outside of it. *puts cigarette in my mouth the wrong way* ow ouch owee ow oww

I love jirais that have to work, jirais that have school, jirais that rot all day, jirais who sh, jirais who dont sh, outward explosive jirais, inward explosive jirais, younger jirais, older jirais, male jirais, female jirais, jirais who dont fit the gender binaries, jirais who wear stereotypical jirai clothes, jirais who dont wear stereotypical jirai clothes. I love all jirais

when i’m hurt, i shut down, i turn into a total bitch i shut off my emotions i act differently towards everything and everyone and i hate it

It’s…so tiring…

Eyes of the forest. Aspen trees

i hate how avoidant i be, ugh. the only way to fix it is to follow through but i dead just dont be wanting to be bothered or talk to ppl sometimes, even the ppl i love. what is that about? bc i damn sure be feeling like an outsider or not understood by most ppl 90% of the time.

Maybe this therapy shit is working