All Classpect Analysis

It really sucks sometimes

Having a restrictive ed while not being skinny; I feel like I’m wasting away when in reality I’m too fat for people to give a shit

Man, there really are a lot of us trans autistics with eating disorders on here huh.

idk if tumblr devoured this one but do knight of space

well this will hurt me emotionally to do for personal reasons.

do you like to draw? doodle? sew? knit? create? probably. but you just don’t know if it’s worth it. you don’t know why you keep doing this. after all, what’s the point? you’re not confident in it at all, so why bother? your life is defined by your hesitation. that’s gonna be a rip from me buddy

stop getting your information on did/osdd-1 from unsourced and uninformed tumblr posts, twitter threads, and youtube/tiktok videos like i swear to god i'm going to legit end up in a psych ward again if y'all keep parroting actually dangerous misinfo because of what some random 14 y/o claims is correct.

here's some decent sources where you can get some actually helpful and accurate info:

dissociation faqs from the international society for the study of trauma and dissociation

did-research - basic, but it's there.

traumadissociation - detailed explanation of diagnostic criteria and symptom presentation.

this-is-not-dissociative and also their resource list - one of the mods, katherine, is the creator of did-research.

did-sos - mainly resources for those who have did/osdd-1 (or "just" cptsd), but others may find it informative or even helpful nonetheless.

bear in mind all of this stuff should be looked at with a critical eye, as with everything online pertaining to highly stigmatized psychiatric diagnoses. don't just take things at face value, think about them.

did/osdd-1 is not like sybil. did/osdd-1 is not like split or glass. did/osdd-1 is not like the united states of tara. did/osdd-1 is not "multiple people in one body" or obvious blackout switches and dissociative fugue between every single alter or something purely iatrogenic/sociocognitive in nature. it is a post-traumatic condition as a result of long-term traumatic experiences in early childhood where a reliance on dissociation as a coping mechanism prevents integration of the parts of the self into a cohesive whole. i'm making this post because twitter is a shitshow of both teenagers and grown adults that should know better spreading easily disproven and sometimes dangerous bullshit like insisting child alters should be treated like actual children and doing otherwise is problematic when actual predators have used that same logic to groom actual children. what people with did/osdd-1 need is less myths and misinformation, not more. the pervasive misunderstanding of and stigma against osddid is part of why we face disturbingly high rates of suicide and psychiatric abuse that exacerbates the trauma we've already faced. it's a serious issue that extends beyond internet arguments and while people without did/osdd-1 need to be more vigilant about participating in the spread, the enormous chunk of people who have it and are happily being wrong aren't exempt from this either.

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some loish inspired 413

hey it feels nice to try out like 30 diff ways to draw clouds

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So I was working with my family member at their job, and it's a graveyard 'stay up all night' kind of job with heavy lifting.

The only thing I ate that entire time was a turkey bacon roll from wawa at 2am which was 510 calories, and then went home and slept until this morning at 10am, which means I'm now not only back on my bullshit, but also 45 hours into fasting.

this song is cool as shit omg

this one is for a seer of time, knight of space, heir of light, and witch of breath.

I've been on the CPTSD sub Reddit for a good while now and I'm starting to realise, that I'm in the later stages of healing than most people in that sub Reddit.

DON'T GET ME WRONG, healing takes time and take all the time that you need. Nothing wrong in that.

It just jogged my memory of how my therapist said to me, MANY times when my therapist said I put in a lot of work in myself, before I had therapy. Like my bf, normally people with a lot of Trauma date abusive people (no matter what gender they are). She said "normally people come to me when they are at 0, you on the other hand. You've already understand how your brain works and you've already trained yourself to rethink in different situations".

IF I said that in the sub Reddit, or a Facebook group or any other trauma survivors. I get bullied of like "omg you can't think like that. YOU HAVE TO THINK LIKE ME". Fucking why??? Aren't we all individuals, with our own feelings, our own thoughts and our own emotions. Why do trauma survivors do this? I legit, don't understand.

Yes, I put in the work because I WANTED to heal. I've told many stories on how Healing is a choice (I might post more when my memories come up). You have Google, you have the library, you have FREE ACCESS TO PSYCHOLOGY TO UNDERSTAND YOUR BRAIN.

Do know what I typed in Google, when I wanted to understand my own brain. Okay... Here's a list;

Why I get flashbacks?

What is Flashbacks?

Why do I date abusive men?

What is Trauma Bonding?

Why do I attract toxic friends?

Why do I get nightmares?

PTSD symptoms

PTSD symptoms no one talks about

PTSD depression

Why doesn't my mother love me?

Depression in PTSD

PTSD Vs CPTSD

Autism Vs CPTSD

Why do I argue a lot?

Why do hide myself?

What is Co-dependency

What is trauma bonding?

Toxic mother's

What is over bearing mother's?

Why do I hate myself?

Understanding the dynamics of Dysfunctional families?

What is Dysfunctional families?

What is narcissism?

Narcissistic mother?

The effects on sexual assault in children?

Aftermath after sexual assault and the symptoms?

What is Trauma Bonding in families?

What is trauma memories?

How do I cope with trauma memories?

How do I escape my abusive family?

What is a refuge?

How much does living own cost?

This is just SOME on what I typed in. IF you follow my blog, you know I ask questions on WHY. Why do we do the things that we do? Why do we act in a certain way? Why, why, why.

I know people hate me asking questions on why. Oh, I know they do. They can fuck off because I ain't changing. Asking why, helped me understand my brain. I'm not changing for no one. Fuck that!

I do this to understand my brain and how it works.

I WANTED to heal, so I asked myself; why?