I Don’t Have Rizz I Have Big Doll Eyes And Many Unsettling Things To Say

why can’t i be more conventional?

stabbing as a metaphor for penetration is great but when are we going to talk about pressing down on where someone is wounded to disarm them or just to be cruel while fighting. does nobody else care about the perverse intimacy of knowing exactly where to touch to overpower someone. the grotesque vulnerability of it. especially if you're the one who wounded them in the first place.

First base is violence second base is convoluted codependence third base is applying pressure to the vulnerable parts of their body to keep their entrails from spilling out

gAHHHH. so many feelings about horror & trauma & gender & all the weirdness embedded into the disidentifications experienced with tropes and archetypes. idk. excerpts from heart.mouth substack essay thingy?

Bloodsport - Yves Olade / Aleksandra Waliszewska / Every Single Night - Fiona Apple / Eat (2014) / Heavy Balloon - Fiona Apple / Ana Teresa Barboza / Dark Places - Gillian Flynn / Game of Thrones / x / Much Ado About Nothing - Shakespeare / Angelica Carnis - Mark Ryden / Ashley - Halsey / Johnny Panic & The Bible Of Dreams: Short Stories, Prose And Diary Excerpts - Sylvia Plath / Gold Satin Dreamer - Nicole Dollanganger / Brain Damage / Jessica Harrison / Blood Roses - Tori Amos / Riot Poof - Tori Amos / Michelle Pfeiffer (Solo Version) - Ethel Cain / Medea - Euripides / Girls Can’t Play Guitar - BONES UK / Smells Like Sex - Sizzy Rocket / Смерти Больше Нет (Death No More) - IC3PEAK / QimmyShimmy on ig / 🥩

my new tattoo!

deranged, insane, evil, feral, off-putting, appalling, etc