This blurb is back up! I didn't really like how it turned out at first, this is my first ever smut I hope it's alright ;;
A Gentler Soul [Stanford Pines X Reader] Spicy Blurb
Tags: NSFW, Suggestive, Minors DO NOT Interact
Just a poetic way of saying I want him lol
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Stanford Pines used to be a gentler soul. He could spend hours reading about cryptids and mycelium. He could name every moth in Gravity Falls in their Latin and numerous nicknames. On Wednesdays, he'd step out of his home and eagerly watch the sky turn dark- because that's when the local pixies came out to play and dance in a glittering display of light.
Now, he was a sharpened knife. All cuts and bruises, running through the dimensions without taking a second to admire oddities around him. He was a man on the run, he had no time to marvel at how suns imploded and stars seemed to wink at him, in this vast, nonsensical hellscape called the Nightmare Realm.
He can't stop, he can't catch his breath, lest he stops breathing altogether.
You followed him wherever he ran.
It was survival, you told yourself.
It was science, sticking together was something humans did, Ford told you.
The silences in between the running and fighting told you otherwise.
When it grew dark and quit, in wherever ruins he deemed safe enough, that's when the air shifted.
Stanford Pines moved as if he was always running out of time.
But here, under the shade of a forgotten building, away from prying eyes and bounty hunters, he took his time. He looked at you like you were a new book he'd yet to read. His attention was like fire, burning through the layers of your clothes and the fragile. And like a candle, you melted for the flame of his gaze.
Six fingered hands dragged languidly over the flesh of your ribs, dipping low and stopping just at your abdomen. His knee slowly nudges your inner thigh, spreading your leg outward for access.
He'd worship the scars littering your chest and neck with his tongue, warm and wet as it devoured the salt of your skin.
But it would be kissing you that would truly undo him.
Feeling your soft lips was a different kind of rapture, your moans were poetry he intended to burn into his mind forever. He could worship you this way for several lifetimes, if he could.
At every moan, he'd whisper praises and reassurances- safety, in this desolate world made to consume humans like you. Ford wouldn't let that happen to you, not when he could taste you instead, damn the cruel world outside this room. He had you to himself, at least in this one, small eternity.
If you slipped a hand under his greying locks and whispered any sort of praise to him, he'd cave in and give you anything you want.
Trailing your fingers over the lines of his tattoos would earn you more of that pleasure. Like toppling a candle and letting the flames grow, he'll worship you and burn down your altar, until all that was left was him. He'd growl and grow rougher in his ministrations. Drag those nails from his wrist, to his biceps, then to his chest, and see what happens when a composed man cracks. Every desperate cry would be your only confession of his feelings, in a place unfit for sentimentality.
Come morning, he's reminded of how fragile you are. You'd be covered in circular bruises- counting six in each set.
His eyes would soften at the bashful look in your eye, hiding his marking underneath your clothes as you two prepare to venture out again. Time rests for no one, here. He needed to find a way home and bring you with him.
So he pulls up his mask, covers his silvery hair under a cowl. He wraps a warm hand over yours and makes sure you're never separated for too long.
Stanford Pines used to be a gentler soul, and he longed for the day he could be one again, with you.
The spring bonding montage has arrived! 🌷
Had a lot of fun making some of these. Hope y’all enjoy! :D
man of science?
To Sonder, Part 1 [Stanford Pines x Reader]
Tags: Fluff, Nerds in love, Strangers to lovers, Two idiots in love, Eventual Smut, Mutual Pining, Canon Divergence, Slow Burn
Premise: You're a curious librarian. You think Stanford hates you but he really doesn't, Stanford thinks you're friends but you secretly hate (and like) him.
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You've never wanted to spend time with a man so, so badly that you decided to learn complicated studies like quantum physics, cryptozoology, lepidopterology- and a bunch of different other -ologies you didn’t know even existed before meeting Stanford Filbrick Pines. Your brain is burning from the sudden onslaught of information.
So here you were, back aching from hours of crouching over your notebooks in the library. You ran out of paper a while ago, so you settled for writing on the back of your book- your boss would kill you if he ever found out. But who cares? Not like anyone buys anything from the forgotten cooking section of the Gravity Falls public library. Black splotches peppered your hairline from where you stressfully combed through your hair with ink stained fingers.
God, why did you have to have a crush on someone with a stupid, big brain?
You learned very quickly that Stanford Pines doesn't care for small talk. All your "hello"s and "whatcha up to?"s were greeted with a stern echo of a greeting or a short response before silence draped between you like a heavy, wet blanket. Then, he'd walk away, leaving nothing but the faint scent of his cologne, which endearingly matched his surname.
He always hugged a leather bound book close to his chest, you were sure he was the type to fall asleep thinking- cuddling papers of his own nonsensical (at least to you) ramblings and equations.
Stanford visited the library often, and you practically lived here. Like clockwork, he'd head straight to the science fiction section, then browse all the sciencey aisles the Gravity Falls public library had.
Eventually, the universe had to lovingly pick on you for enjoying your quiet work in the library.
It was late in the afternoon, summer was in full swing and everyone abandoned the library to go out camping or for barbecue. The front bell chimed pleasantly as it signaled your impending doom (read as: a socially embarrassing event with a hot nerdy guy that will keep you up for nights to come.)
Of course, you were none the wiser to his presence, definitely, as you stalked through the magazine section. Reading a rousing volume of "Lawn-mowers and heart movers weekly digest". You needed to tidy up here, anyways.
The guy took a ridiculously long amount of time mumbling about two books. Should he get the one labelled 'Help! My boyfriend's an alien overlord with a colossal, cosmic, world ending ego' or pick up a special edition hard cover of Lord of the Rings? He mutters something about how book titles were getting stranger by the day. You thought the titles were gripping.
His eyes were a dark brown, matching his tousled hair. He wore a tan coat that draped over broad shoulders, there was dirt and ink staining his sleeves. He glared at the synopsis written in the back of another book, as if it personally slighted him. The picture of a scholar, inquisitive and sharp-minded.
Finally, he decided to pick up all three books as he hastily fished for his wallet. As he left the aisles, you noticed a torn up piece of paper falling from his pocket.
Without really thinking about it you picked it up.
A decision that would drastically change what the next few weeks of your life would look like.
This small, ink stained piece of paper would eventually lead you to a spiral of wondering what a 'gobblewonker' was and why you should worry about it when you hardly even make eye contact with regular people in the first place. Eye contact was for extroverts.
This life-changing piece of paper was something Stanford scribbled down so hastily. Something that would eventually derail the path he was walking on.
The universe smiled that day. Because this time, you entered the narrative and he was getting a happier story from now on.
On the piece of paper was a simple sentence.
"Don't forget The Jellybeans."
It made you snort.
His handwriting was loopy and pretty. There was a circle looping around the words, as if the fate of the world hinged on whether or not he’d remember The Jellybeans. The capitalization on 'The' and 'Jellybeans' did you in, you giggled.
"Excuse me, you dropped this." You schooled your expression to something more neutral.
The man turned around, clutching his books tighter as he regarded you with a confused expression. Like a raccoon caught eating hot garbage at 4 in the morning. He had dark circles under his wide eyes.
His cheeks were flushed, his jawline was strong, and he smelled of aftershave, old books, pine, and something you can’t quite place.
"You smell mysterious." You mumbled, your thoughts escaped you and settled in the air between the two of you.
.... REALLY? BRAIN??
"Oh. Thank you..?" He said, with a voice so deep and smooth it rivalled the empty void in your brain where small talk and social charm usually resided.
"Ignore thaaaat, sorry. Here,"
You hastily waved the piece of paper at Stanford, who seemed abashed at the little note he wrote. He carefully folded it before tucking it deep into his pockets. You offered him a grin, he offered nothing back in response. Oookay..
"All good! I lost a few things here. So many aisles to lose your stuff in, y'know?"
You rambled, cheeks flushing as the man stared at you. The only response was his blinking and the way he glanced between you and the window to your right. Ah. He wanted to leave. You should probably peel your lips off your face and throw it in the nearest garbage compactor now.
"I didn't want you to lose something important too. I've ah... "Bean" there, done that."
The pun sealed your fate, the silence grew ever heavier at your fading, strained chuckle. The universe grimaced at your subpar sense of humor.
You wished you had even a sliver of literary grace that you saw in "Silver chains for silver foxes weekly" magazine you pretended to read earlier. You hoped that the ground underneath you opened up and decided to save you from the absolute nothing-burger of a reaction the man gave you.
But then, he chuckled.
It was like the world around you came into focus again after that small sound.
You bit down on your traitorous tongue. Too flustered from the string of words that left your mouth to respond.
The man chuckled into the palm of his six-fingered hand- six fingers? God, now even your eyes were betraying you. You decided not to comment on that and let the poor man go.
"Ah, yes. I suppose it is your job to pick up after guests. My apologies for littering, even if it was unintentional."
Damn. He spoke like a gothic horror novelist and sounded smoother than the surface of your brain.
"Haha! Yeah. Um, are you ready to go?"
"Yes, I'll take these."
The check out was fast and quiet. You tried not to look too interested in his selections.
"Mothman, Man, Myth, or Modern MLM Legend?"
"Trigonometry: A Mathematical Tango for Try-hards in their Thirties!"
"Quintessential Quotes for the Quantum Quizzical Individual"
And a bunch of what seems to be heavy books on engineering. Is he a professor of some kind?
You tell him his total and force yourself to move on from the moment. So, Mr. Mystery handed you his money and left with a stiff nod and a strained smile.
The night was a blur as you closed up, you really just wanted to check in with a guest, do your job, and maybe make some small talk. No one ever visits the library this time of the year. Plus, he seemed nice.
You spent your day off wallowing and being especially nice to the raccoons that tried to sneak a bite out of your garbage bin.
Then, the next day came and you clocked in for work. Your boss is officially on vacation starting today and that already threw you off.
Something about the world felt off today.
You woke up from a nightmare about a triangle with limbs tap-dancing through a field of weird flowers. You shoveled stale, lumpy oatmeal into your mouth. You could have sworn your food was trying to spell out your doom. But you ate the ‘M’ so all it spelled was ‘DOO’
You somehow slammed your finger in between the till drawers this morning, you had to clean dried pitt cola in the children's aisle, and Manly Dan came in asking about books for Lumberjacks.
"I NEED BOOKS THAT HAVE A HARD-WOOD, MASCULINE COVER," he then proceeded to yell about how these books were definitely real.
They were, in fact, not real and you had to narrowly dodge the splinters from the chair he threw over his shoulder in a rage.
You could understand his passion, in a way. The pages of a book were once trees after all. He was but a simple lumberjack looking for something he can cut down with the enthusiasm of a chainsaw.
But worst of all, Lazy Susan gave you decaf today and you didn't realize 'til you walked all the way back to work.
So yes, Murphy's law is in full swing today and you were its (un)lucky victim!
Halfway through your shift, you saw him again.
Mr. Mystery.
Everyone knew who he was, the only guy who didn't grow up in Gravity Falls. The weirdo who only came up to buy groceries every couple months and to collect his mail. You were half-convinced he survived off wild mushrooms and pure academia.
Today, however, he didn't come to browse or buy a new book.
Instead, you watched as he ascended the spiral steps to the second floor and disappeared to a familiar part of the building. He grinned at the ornate wooden table sitting in the nicest corner of the library, pulling up a plush chair to sit on.
Oh no.
He slung a messenger bag over a chair and started unpacking papers, old tomes, and a worn out journal onto the space.
No.
That was YOUR space.
For years, no one really bothered to spend time in the library. Hell, no one even noticed the second floor. It was just you, your boss, and the annoying family of moths that made a home in the dusty philosophy section.
Alright, he may be cute and polite, but that was YOUR spot for years now.
You looked forward to taking your break and fixing your dissociated gaze at the window overlooking the beautifully boring sight of Gleeful's Auto Sale.
But today, everything about your routine changed. Even this.
An irrational fury simmered in you. You fumbled being friendly with him the other day and he didn't even TRY to talk to you. Now, he took your favorite dissociation spot!
But you were too tired to kick him out.
Instead, you settled for second best. Nodding shortly at him when he caught your stare. You crossed the room and settled onto an armchair adjacent to his- your- alcove.
And for a time, things were... okay-ish.
Gravity Falls was quiet, with only birdsong and the occasional turn of a page filling the air. For a moment, you could relax.
But then, came the scritch-scratching.
You glanced over at the man, past your book. He was leaning over his journal, pen scribbling away at a suddenly maddened pace- as if he was going to die if he didn't jot his thoughts down at that very second.
A new wave of irritation washed over you.
But then, he stopped. A satisfied little grin bloomed on his face. When he didn't look so severe, he looked... handsome. You could admit that much.
You thought you could forgive the man for his annoying habits. But then, the furious, loud writing would start up and end so suddenly. You can never predict when he'd be stricken with a feverish sort of inspiration for whatever it was he was writing.
You breathed a sigh of relief as he stood up to go to the bathroom.
You were sure you'd hear the sounds of his pen scratching at paper in your dreams tonight.
You got up to fix yourself a drink from the breakroom, but your eyes wandered over the scattered papers on the table.
A mess of equations, half-finished sentences, and... drawings.
Your eyes widened at the detailed and beautiful sketches laying on the table. You can't help but look at one page in particular. On a torn up piece of paper was a drawing of a moth. It looked fantastical in nature, swirly patterns painted its forewings and at the edges were flames. Every scale on its wings was sketched with precision and care. You eagerly admired its details like a moth to a flame. Maybe it was something from a book he read.
A few minutes later, you came up with tea.
Feeling a little bad for snooping, you decided to fix the man a cup of tea. You didn't know if he even liked tea, but you did feel bad for being irrationally annoyed at the clueless man.
He was back in his chair when you went up. You carefully set down the warm beverage in front of him, he startled at your quiet presence.
"Oh, sorry! I just wanted to ask if you wanted a drink? It's just lavender tea."
One of your favorite tea strains, he should be thankful you let him sit at your spot and drink your tea. Gods, why was he cute? Why can't you be more rude to him and scare him away?
"No."
The word came out clipped and fast. The man was in the middle of a hastily scribbled equation, barely registering your words. You could hear a pin drop- you HOPED a pin dropped and it would be sharp, in the middle of the piece of paper he was glaring at.
"Oh, okay." came your light, totally un-hurt answer.
"Wait, sorry. That's not what I mean- I'm tackling a particular... difficult study right now."
You smiled tightly and moved to take away the cup. But he stops you with a vigorous wave of his hand.
"Please, forgive me. I actually DO want tea. I'm out of sorts today, I... I appreciate your gesture of goodwill."
"Oh," you breathed.
Curse this man and his eloquent words. The absolute nerve of him! You tried to do something nice dammit, you're paid to do that for good business. Why can't he make this easy on you?
"It's okay! I get it. You look like you're reading something really complicated." You offer him a small smile.
Once again, he answers your words with a strained smile of his own before mumbling a thank you. He took the tea into his six-fingered hands - hey, so you weren't seeing wrong last time!
Unwilling to let the conversation die just yet, you decide to try and pick his brain.
"I like your drawing."
A warm rosy red colored his cheeks and ears.
“Oh.. I’m sorry…? I didn’t mean for you to see my mess-”
You laughed.
“Sorry? What are you talking about? That’s a really cool moth sketch.”
His eyes guiltily turned to the paper you pointed at. He almost sagged in relief as he pulled it forward.
"Ah... the Igneous Tinea."
"Igni-what?"
"A fire moth!"
His eyes brightened as he turned the page towards you. In the small amount of time you went to make tea, it seemed that the man filled the rest of the paper with writing and notes.
Upon closer inspection, the creature looked a lot like the local moths. Having grown up in Gravity Falls, you'd definitely recognize it. They only ever show up in the deepest parts of the forest.
You wondered why he drew them on fire. “They’re indigenous only to Gravity Falls, I happened upon them while I was out looking for singing mycelium- or as I like to call them, my-sing-iums-”
Your lips quirked upwards at his words. Wow, he could talk a mile a minute. All you needed to do was talk about moths, it seems. Too bad he was so excited and fond of scientific jargon that your brain couldn’t quite catch up to his pace.
"Huh. That's awesome, are you a writer?"
At this, the man's expression dimmed, he looked away. A lonely smile slipped into his face as he drummed his fingers over his journal.
"Ah, I am somewhat of a writer, yes. I am... looking for new material, per se, in Gravity Falls."
Dead silence once again enveloped the two of you. You wondered what the right question was so that you wouldn't kill the conversation with him somehow.
You took a deep breath and flashed him a deceptively easy grin.
"Well, I'll leave you to it, Mr. Writer-"
"Stanford."
You raised a brow at his interruption. The man- Stanford, fidgeted with his fingers. You’d have to ask him about his hands one day, but you didn’t wanna scare him off. He was the only regular the library had now.
"It's Stanford. Stanford Pines. I... I meant to introduce myself the other day. I'm new in town."
Your eyes practically sparkled. Finally! Something other than silence. You try not to be too eager when you tell him your name.
"Haha, I wouldn't say you're new anymore. Stanford. It's been a year hasn't it?"
"How'd you know that?" He narrowed his eyes at you slightly.
"Dude, you've been coming by for months and it's Gravity Falls. Everyone knows everyone."
"Ah... That is true." He mumbled.
Welp, looks like the conversation’s run dry. But now, you had a name to the face so you cheered internally.
"Well, I have some work I need to go back to. Enjoy your time here, Mr. Pines."
You didn't get a response, which was normal for the elusive and aloof Mr. Mystery- Pines, now. You breathed a sigh of relief after disappearing from his line of sight.
God, why was customer service difficult? Why is talking to people worth only 15 bucks an hour?
You spent the next hour or so organizing the moth-filled Philosophy section.
You tried to be gentle with the little creatures and you wondered if they too, ignited into a small fire ball like Stanford Pines' drawing.
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Thank you for reading! <3
Title is a work in progress~
Conceived long before The Book of Bill was announced, this zine nevertheless heralds a billford renaissance in 2024, featuring creators from around the world. Some of us grew up with Gravity Falls. Some of us arrived after the series finished airing. Many of us have our own beloved alternate universes and longfics; yet we have all put hearts, minds and souls into bringing this project to life.
Presenting a surreal dreamworld of cherry-red shadows and six-fingered caresses, our artists and writers have set out on an interdimensional quest to find the delight in monstrous queerness and queer monstrosity.
Join us, through the sweet yearning of pre-betrayal; to the bitterness of a monster-muse revealed; through thirty years in the portal and the chaos of Weirdmageddon; and finally, to post-canon, where Bill and Ford might meet again...
This digital-only zine travels to dimensions meant for older readers, and is free to download... well, until the end of time.
with thanks to @ckret2 @foxieskullz @godsfavoritescientist @billford-dump @krillford @nn-oe @santapinguinica @shadeartstuff @skyheartstar13 @strawberry-smog @triclopsrabbit @sleepsentry @vasilisk-vp & all our wonderful creators!
Uhm I only made this because he reminds me of nachos and... And Im not obsessed, ok?
Oh no! He's falling apart
Computer Bill has my whole heart I love that thing
I made these cursed pages for Chapter 5 of Till Weirdmageddon Do Us Part [Bill Cipher x Female Reader], a totally normal(!) rom-com where you "accidentally" marry a triangle and now your life is held together with sarcasm, eldritch glitter, and emotional damage lasagna.
Font by: ~ Chloe ~ !!!
Featuring: Poor decision-making, interdimensional marriage drama, passive-aggressive eggplants(?), Ford Pines experiencing seventeen emotions and repressing eighteen, Bill making inappropriate jokes, a reader with morals (not good ones), *cough cough* probably some smut along the way + ROMANCE (questionable)
Lipbalm [Stanford Pines X Reader]
Set in the Nightmare Realm, you two are outlaws and reluctant allies, trying to find a way back home.
Tags: Suggestive, Pining, Fluff(?), Enemies to Lovers
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You happily unpacked a little bag full of makeup onto the glossy counter of the bathroom. Mirrors surrounded you both, the perfect time to do your makeup.
"God, even interdimensional dive bars have the same flashy bathrooms as we had on earth."
You hummed happily, dipping your thumb into a tin of what Ford assumed was lip balm. You pressed your lips together, it smelled nice!
"Hurry up, we don't have all night. The longer we're here, the more ground bounty hunters cover around us." Ford grumbled.
You sighed, mood soured slightly by his haste. The muffled sound of the bar outside was nice at least, if you had to listen to Stanford's bitter words. You fixed him an unimpressed look through the mirror.
Ford leaned next to the door, ear perked up in case someone entered the bathroom, six fingers tapping impatiently against his forearm. You held a brush in between your delicate fingers, painting color onto your cheeks and under your eyes. He dared not let his gaze drift towards you too much, but he knew you were grinning at him.
Dive bars were for hedonists and people seeking the bottom of a bottle. Ford didn't really relish being here, but they needed to make contact with an important Altraxian dealer, if he were to get the parts he needed for the portal back home.
"You know, Altraxians love makeup. They consider it an art form, as well as a form of war paint." You mumbled as you painted swirls onto the edges of your lids. Ford perked up at the mention of the alien species. Of course, that was one way to get him to be less mean- information, knowledge. You quietly cheered as the wrinkle between his brows eased. His hands immediately reached for his pen and journal. Ah, how he wished he had his leatherbound book back in Gravity Falls. You were a well of knowledge, an anchor in the confusing dimensions of the Nightmare Realm.
"Is that so? Are they a warring species? What is their political climate like, to be able to appreciate art and war in equal levels? I have only seen one in passing, it turned it's nose and mandibles at me and walked away in disgust…" Ford rambled, scribbling into his book.
As always, Ford didn't give you time to answer each question as he scribbled away. You fell into the Nightmare Realm years before he did, but he was already so knowledgeable in it all. Stanford Pines had a thirst for knowledge that impressed you. It's what kept him alive in this realm- and if it kept him less angry, you'd entertain his questions.
"That's because a nude, unpainted face is considered an insult to their society." "Hmm, intriguing. And what of tattoos? Do they value it, seeing as it's permanent art on your body?"
Your eyes drifted to the intricate markings that disappeared under Ford's rolled up sleeves. No doubt they continued well past his toned biceps, you've seen glimpses of it underneath his shirt before. Your cheeks flushed, but thankfully, the light was dim here. "Huh. I don't know. Never really talked to one before. Which is why we need to be extra careful, and play by their rules."
With a click, you closed your little bag and strode over to Ford, who was engrossed in his writing his little notes. He hadn't noticed how close you were until you tapped the top of his journal, nudging it downwards so you can meet his gaze. "The dealer is Altraxian. We'll need to suit up if you want the sciencey doo-dad you told me about." "I know that." Ford rolled his eyes "And it's called a cryo-compulsor cog." "Yeah, that, for your portal." you nodded. "Right…" You stared at Ford expectantly, a flicker of mischief in your wide, seemingly innocent eyes. "That means you need to prepare for that as well. I'm not talking to them alone." "I thought this robe would be sufficient? I even made sure to wash it this morning." You sighed at the infuriating man. True, he did trade his torn and dusty trench coat for something much softer and velvety. You hated to admit it, but he looked damn good in a suit. It was near maddening, but for his sake and yours, you wouldn't tease him for it.
"Mhm, yeah, you need makeup." "Pardon?" Ford incredulously asked. Your grin turned sharper and more mischievous as you took a step closer towards Ford. He blinked, locking up as you got close enough for him to smell the floral scent of your hair. Something alien yet alluring all the same. "They won't talk to you if you show up like this. Y'know, "When in Rome" and all that! We'll stick out like sore thumbs!"
Ford's eyes flitted around your face, distantly admiring the way you skillfully painted patterns into your eyeliner. Your lips were plump and redder than usual, cheeks alive with rosiness and accentuating your eyes. Distressed, he started to stutter.
"I-I don't- Ugh, Fine. Don't… Don't over-do it." Your eyes brightened, light passing through them like a small comet.
"Great! Now, close your eyes." you whispered conspiratorially. He wanted to protest, but all he could manage was a gulp. He closed his eyes, sighing in resignation.
Your expression softened somewhat. He trusted you to get this close with him. Despite being the only other human in the nightmare realm, he barely gave you a fraction of his trust. You weren't sure if you could even call this a friendship. His presence was necessary to your survival, and vice versa. His smart yet cruel words often earned you both another day alive in this hellscape. Now, the same man who often offered nothing but dry scientific facts and cold words was quiet. You took a moment to admire the way the wrinkles around his weary eyes softened.
The tension built around you, ensnaring the air like a hungry snake. Distantly, you noticed how the bar music lulled to something slower.
You situated yourself between his legs. One hand rested on the counter he leaned on while the other dragged a brush lightly across his cheek.
You were so close now, brush held near his face and ready to condemn him with your touch- and makeup. Altraxian men didn't wear a lot of makeup. They wore sigils painted on their faces and slathered a ridiculous amount of rosy paint on their cheeks. But Ford already had red cheeks, so you needn't paint over that. You worked lightly and quickly, lest you risk annoying him and thinking too much about your quickening heartbeats. A shy, distant part of yourself screamed at the way your noses almost touched at the last flick of your brush.
God, pull yourself together, you're doing this for survival!
Being so focused on your work meant you missed the way Ford's six finger hands gripped the counter tighter. The tick on his jack was pronounced, his brows softened at your light caress. You missed the way he stopped breathing at the sensation of your soft knuckles gliding over his jawline.
You sighed, leaning back to look at your work. Ford's eyes were still closed. Upon closer inspection, you notice how dry his pale lips were. Honestly, when was the last time he drank water? Moisturized??
So to remedy this, you leaned in once again, thumb dipped with fruity lip balm. In one fluid motion, it went over his lower lips, slowly, carefully.
The world held it's breath as your gaze lingered on Ford's softened lips.
After a small eternity, you forced yourself to look away. Your eyes fluttered upwards, meeting Ford's coffee brown eyes, wide with shock. Cheeks red from embarrassment and what you suppose must be anger.
Dear god.
You stood frozen as your brain caught up with what you just did.
"Shit- sorry! Force of habit! We don't exactly have lipstick here!" you squeaked in one breath.
Stepping back as if you were burnt, you gave Ford his space back.
"Your lips were chapped," you murmured, looking away.
Ford's hands twitched. You looked away in embarrassment, body aflame with something you dare not name.
You prayed to the Axolotl and all the stars in the sky that the ceiling of this shoddy little dive bar would collapse on you- or better yet- for a blackhole to unravel you at a molecular level. Anything to escape this unbearable silence.
"It's… It's fine. They were quite dry." Ford's smooth, deep voice filled the awkward silence. You blinked, quietly sighing relief- at least he wasn't angry at your intrusion. You turned to hurriedly pack your makeup away.
"Don't touch your face! The sigil will smudge!" You huffed, after seeing him faintly touch his face in the mirror. In your haste, however, you missed the way Ford brought a hand to his lips. Chasing the fading warmth of your fingers from moments before. They tasted sweet.
English isn't my first language and I do struggle sometimes with present and past tense writing. Feel free to correct me and my grammar!
I ACCEPT ANY AND EVERY HUMAN UNDER CIPHERTOLOGY BY THE WAY IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING
I DON’T CARE ABOUT YOUR GENDER, SEXUALITY, RACE, AGE, RELATIONSHIPS, OPINIONS, ANYTHING! AT THE END OF THE DAY YOU’LL ALL TASTE THE SAME
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