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this is going to be a little incomprehensible just a bit as most of my meta is . and im sure that this has already been said at least 5 times. but like. tbh i think that every element of adam's situation exemplifies the inherent flaws of john's ideologies and how he applies them.

one of the things that john very steadfastly sticks to is the idea that his traps have to be escapable. in the "making of saw" behind the scenes video, they emphasize that his main goal is not to punish people for their sins or make them feel regret or whatever, it's to motivate them and make them more grateful for their lives. it's to give their lives meaning. however, it's kind of arguable that john took the meaning away from adam's life by making him nothing more than a pawn to teach lawrence a lesson. lawrence was the one who was actually meant to learn something from the bathroom trap. he was the one who'd given john the cancer diagnosis, who'd tried to cheat on his wife and wasn't happy with his marriage, and the onus fell on HIM to kill adam. adam was never given explicit directions that he had to escape, only that he had to not be killed by lawrence. and ofc there's the line "the pawn has done what the knight couldn't do" directed towards adam, all coming together to indicate that adam was never the focus of the game. there was, of course, justification for putting adam into the trap: he didn't do much with his life, he did a shady job in order to get by, and in the og script he was clearly suicidal. however, in the larger context of it all, we know that he was not on equal grounds with lawrence in terms of who the trap was supposed to test, and this justification seems more like an excuse than an actual reason. more of a "let's find a reason to put him in this" you know?

there's also the fact that it's pretty probable that adam only got trapped w lawrence because he'd been taking pics of him- john had obviously already been targeting lawrence from the start, since his diagnosis was what sparked his ideology into action, so it's very possible that adam only got included because of this brief connection they shared.

and to be perfectly fair, adam did everything right by john's rules. he was told that he had to prevent lawrence from killing him, and he did; he was alive, albeit injured, by the time the events of the trap ended. the mechanism that prevented him from escaping doomed him from the beginning, and no amount of effort or desire to live would have stopped the key from going down the drain. so this definitely points to the fact that john's traps aren't always about giving people a fair chance and asking them to go to great lengths to preserve their lives, as he would claim they are.

finally, even after adam's been fully abandoned in the bathroom to die, his actual death exemplifies more flaws in jigsaw's ideology. when amanda comes back to kill him once and for all, she does so out of pity. because she has arguably been the biggest example of jigsaw's failures: she survived his games, she became an apprentice, she wanted so desperately to find the meaning and direction in life that he'd promised she'd find after all her labors. but she never ended up finding that fulfillment, only delving deeper into her regrets. she could've let him escape, but why would she, if he'd only emerge a more broken person? so she killed him in order to free him once and for all.

adam was never meant to get out of the bathroom alive, and he was never meant to be anything more than a tool to teach lawrence a lesson. as much as john preached about how he was doing good and teaching people to value their lives, he ultimately discarded the value of adam's life and reduced him to nothing more than a pawn.

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"a photograph of a medieval manuscript depicting a human infant smoking a cigarette"

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