Coffeeloverghost - ☕︎𝙼𝚊𝚛☕︎

“Be kind, work hard, stay humble, smile often, stay loyal, be honest, travel when possible, never stop learning, be thankful always, and love.”

— Ritu Ghatourey (via heavyrain-dc)

“Sometimes all you can do is lie in bed and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.”

— William C. Hannan

I’m not really fan of the hxh movies bc my brain can’t shut up about how it doesn’t feel like HxH…BUT…this specific exchange after Gon decided to fight Jet to help Kurapika…

…destroyed me.

I MEAN, if you watch the movie before finished the Chimera Ant Arc, the scene is just a nice fan service…BUT, if you finished it, you can see the little parallelism between this situation and what happened in the anime/manga, and how MadHouse decide to break our hearts once again.

One of Gon’s close friends’ life is in danger (Kurapika/Kaito) and he need to beat/kill the responsable (Jet/Pitou) so save him, but when Gon look at Killua and says his name, the movie take a different route than the Manga/Anime.

Gon wants Killua at his side, to fight with him, to Killua to support him to helps Kurapika. Unlike CA!Killua, Movie!Killua got what his manga/anime counterpart could only wish for and didn’t got.

Of course, in CA, the conflict have A LOT MORE emotional weight but that doesn’t change the fact that Madhouse knew that we knows how much this means/will mean to CA!Killua. The scene destroyed me because I can only see Movie!Killua and say “…I really wish that in a future arc, (canon) Killua could fight along with Gon without doubting his place at his side and how much he means to him”.

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.”

— Unknown

“Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.”

— Ernest Hemingway (via thoughtkick)

Warm up sketch from today~

[day old babe]

“The line between friend and enemy is not as clear as I once believed. Once it's crossed, there's no going back. Because some transformations... are permanent."

Megatron (D-16) X Optimus (Orion Pax) edit.

(Pls ignore the brightness at the start :D)

Just thinking about how different Season 3 Kieran is from Season 1 Kieran tonight.

Season 1 Kieran would have never shared cake with Lauren or looked that relaxed around her. He saw her as a means to an end, primarily. He saw her lie detecting ability and her detective skills and how useful she is, not much else.

He is also far more tense in Season 1. Less free. Less at peace.

It starts to change, right before the Tower Incident. Kieran and Lauren have a brief moment of vulnerability, but they’re still pretty standoffish. Kieran is less settled because he still cannot see a way out of being an assassin, even though they did a lot of work against the Phantom Scythe.

In Season 3, though, he is more genuine, more open, and he has hope. He has hope that his assassin days are at their end. He had hope that he might be free from the Phantom Scythe. And he has someone to be genuine with, someone who will help him and someone he can be more free with.

Through Season 2, Kieran came to see Lauren as more than what she could do for him and his mission. He came to see her as a person worth protecting, a person worth knowing, a person with whom Kieran could let down his guard with, even if it’s only slightly.

That change is so evident in that scene in episode 148.

In the memory, Kieran has his devil may care mask on, smirking and enjoying the scene in front of him, but not at peace, with no hope, and with no connection. He was only an observer. In the present time, he has connection, he has hope, he is working towards freedom and peace.

He has something to live for.

“My past has not defined me, destroyed me, deterred me, or defeated me; it has only strengthened me.”

— Steve Maraboli

Enomoto Seifu-Jo, tr. by Kenneth Rexroth, from Written on the Sky; Poems from the Japanese