“you Don't Remember Me? That Makes Me Sad. Last Time, You Swore That You Would Never Forget Me.”

Butler Family Competition Moments

[Late Huevember 16]

A year sure flies by...

yo same bro

berdly is here and he is tainting my heart

my mom was watching a yt video on the tv with fucking surround sound speakers while i was drawing and they edited in the metal gear alert sound effect and the way i just jumped and my eyes snapped to my main monitor

"I know I'm not suited for battle... But I just had to see what it would look like! Hehe..." [Repost because tumblr shadowbanned me the first time and I’m actually kinda proud of this one :’D] 

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As she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom,

Waiting for answers

Wasting time-

Here it is again, a heart of excitement In the form of a girl who hates her life

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based on bedroom community by glass beach

Otome dissection is a portrait of an empty person entering a relationship not because it makes them happy or it makes them better, but to have someone be the dump of their problems with no intention of actually solving it. The person is empty, and she is desperate to feel something, hence the first lines,

Let's play maiden dissection!

Don't we all want some excitement to get our hearts pumping?

She (the pov person) calls their partner, trying to connect to them without actually wanting to say something.

Good evening, is now a good time?

I didn't really have anything specific to say, but

Now there's this and that and an "it's alright" comes to mind

Without you, none of that matters

But the last line is offputting. If one is in the company of a person they cherish, the conventional phrase is "with you, none of that matters." Almost as if the purpose of connecting with their partner is merely to dump problems to them.

She is asking to be "dissected" because she would never open her issues herself. The first prechorus establishes it clearly.

This disease, the whole package

I'll send it to you as an attachment

I don't wanna go so far as to share all the things that cause me pain

I just wanna run away from this love

The lyric 「いきたくない」 in the chorus is already unclear in itself, being written in hiragana. It is left to us if she's saying she does not want to live (生きたくない), does not want to die (逝きたくない) or does not want to climax (イきたくない). On its own, いきたくない could also mean "I don't want to go." I think it was purposely ambiguous because she wants us to dissect what she wants to say.

The music video shows us the girl dancing with a skeleton. Some interpret it as her dancing with death, but I think it represents the partner who she dumps her problems to.

Only the skeleton remains of the partner because they've given everything to the "singer." Not only does the partner's bones remain, the bones are even fragmented.

They've opened themselves up while she remains fully human because she would not risk being vulnerable. She keeps the skin, the mask, not even a layer coming off.

At some point, the partner eventually distances themself from her and she takes it badly. The music video shows a progression from her making a phone call,

To holding a stringed cup (where it is unsure if the partner even receives the message),

To a mere hand acting as a telephone.

She is desperate on maintaining the relationship even if it does no good.

Returning to the skeleton representing the partner's state, a blink-and-you-miss-it moment happens near the end that shows the skeleton as a whole figure and witnesses all her self-destructive behavior.

However, being with her broke the skeleton (the partner) apart.

Now without a person that could make her feel - pain, shame, or anything, she succumbs to emptiness and decides to end herself. Lyrically, nothing changes and she goes back to the shell of void that she is. Visually, the music video ends with her in a body bag with a peaceful expression.

new and old

OP YOU HAVE OPENED THE FLOODGATES (do I look normal about Shidou Kirisaki yet please say y

for context for a few of the following days after triage dropped I started working on a google slideshow compiling my thoughts and several analysis and theories (both mine and other peoples') but I never actually finished it,, this might just brainrot me right back into it though but I have two whole slides dedicated to just this scene I'm norma

I hope I look super normal to you btw :)) <- Just a Normal Guy

I'm going feral over these half-smile-half-grimace frames combined with him gasping "I want to live"

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TODAY MARKS THE DAY LONBIN BEGINS! OOoohhhhh yes~ This is gonna be one wild ride~

As I’ve stated before in some of my previous comments, Lonbin will be in TWO books! Book one (Yesterday’s Sorrow) and Book two (Tomorrow’s Promise). I’ve been killing myself over how I was going to deliver the story between Lon’qu and Robin over the past month. And this was my conclusion; two books. *cries*

I’ll be slowly simultaneously working on the second book (drafting/sketching/etc.) so when I complete the first one we can just jump right into the second one. I hope everyone will enjoy the journey of Lonbin as we begin~ : )