Confusledqueer - CD

I keep seeing the "chat is a fourth person pronoun" post and it's getting increasingly hard to avoid starting discourse in the notes of it. chat I don't think they know what these linguistics terms they're using mean

Been thinking a lot about reading and getting information from text recently as someone with ADHD so I'm curious

I hate to say reblog to increase sample size but my following is pretty small and I'd like to get actual input on this, so if you wanna toss a reblog after you answer that'd be much appreciated <3

the amount of pride i’m feeling is too much to fit in my chest. this album is storytelling at its finest. as if somehow the lyrics weren’t enough, louis tells a story with his choice of melody, the guitar riffs, the way he uses his voice.  the album’s version of dlibyh manages to be even gentler than the single version and i honestly didn’t think that was possible. i swear that soft guitar in the pre-chorus and chorus feels like a hug (or should i say ‘a cuddle’?).  too young is literally the kind of tender conversation that happens after the fight is over, like the clear sky after a huge storm. i know we’ve talked at length about walls, but it’s impossible not to mention it when talking about this album. i think there’s a reason why it’s positioned right in the middle. i think it’s meant to be the core and it feels like the core. it feels like the culmination of something, the moment things take a turn and you start to heal. habit, much like too young, makes me feel like i’m intruding on a private conversation. that delicate “god, i’m missing you and your addictive heart” sounds like a sigh sang out loud. and don’t even get me started on the way his voice takes a brighter, more optimistic tone when he starts to sing the princess park verse. it took 0.05 seconds for the first few notes of always you to put the biggest smile on my face and i think that says everything about the song. it’s the exhilaration and wholehearted happiness you feel when you finally get it right. fearless had me shaking in awe because louis has got the fucking pen, ladies and gentlemen. that man can write. the lyrics on that song? holy fucking shit? it’s a love letter to the braver, younger, more genuine version of us that we all have locked somewhere inside of our chests. his VOICE in perfect now. he could be singing about cows in a field and it would still feel like a blanket with how sweet & warm he sounds. the tender “just wanna be loved by yoOoOou” in the bridge of defenceless physically gripped my heart and squeezed. i think only for the brave will be one of those that has a personal meaning to everyone, but, to me, it talks about letting go of your pride, your rules and your past beliefs & completely opening your heart to something, and it makes so much sense that louis would choose that one to close this album. i think the highest compliment i can give Walls (2020) is that anyone that listens to it will feel like they know louis. you can hear his soul in every song. you can hear his determination, his grief, his regrets, his redemption, his kindness, his admiration, his selfless love. by the end of the 12th song, i’m nowhere near tired of the raspiness in his voice, i just want more. more of his voice, more of his words and story, more of his heart.

Not a big fan of what melatonin has been doing to my dreams lately.

I went to Amsterdam without you

And all I could do was think about you

And, oh, I should've known

I went to Tokyo to let it go

Drink after drink but I still felt alone

I should've known

I went to so many places

Looking for you in the faces

I could feel it

Oh, I could feel it

I'm wasting my time when it was always you, always you

Chasing the high but it was always you, always you

Should've never let you go, oh-oh

Should've never let you go, my baby

Go, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

I went from LAX to Heathrow

Walk through my door but it felt nothing like home

'Cause you're not home

Waiting to wrap your legs around me

And I know you hate to smoke without me and, oh

Now you know

I'm wasting my time when it was always you, always you

Chasing the high but it was always you, always you

Should've never let you go, oh-oh

Should've never let you go, my baby

Go, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

Should've never let you go, oh-oh

Should've never let you go, my baby

Go, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

I went to so many places

Looking for you in the faces

I could feel it

Oh, I could feel it

Wasting my time when it was always you, always you

I was chasing the high but it was always you, always you

Should've never let you go, oh-oh

Should've never let you go, my baby

Go, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

Should've never let you go, oh-oh

Should've never let you go, my baby

Go, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

My baby

Oh, my baby

weird little brain tweak/reframing that helped me out. i Often find that advice that seemingly helps Everyone Else doesn’t make any sense to me, in ways that are hard to describe, and it can be really frustrating. but when i find a way to explain it to myself that finally seems to break through and make it click, it feels really good

KATE MCKINNON presenting the Carol Burnett Award at the 77th Golden Globe Awards to ELLEN DEGENERES

when people ask where you see yourself in 10 years

Baby And We’re Still High

Never coming down with your hand in mine