Anyway Blackout Poetry Not Just As An Art Form, But As An Act Of Violence Against Other Works Of Art

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thought id take a crack at an obscure sorrow because the dictionary of obscure sorrows still doesnt get at everything i want words for

laccevenomism - /læt͡ʃːəˈvɛnəmɪzm/ or /lækːəˈvɛnəmɪzm/

the frustration that one cannot express discomfort because the person or situation causing it is doing something socially perceived as "good" or "selfless".

can be shortened to laccevenom if used to describe the feeling (i.e. "slowly building laccevenom") or if used in a less abstract context (i.e. "her face betrayed hints of laccevenom")

idk i think this would resonate with a couple people out there because "communicate when you're unhappy :)" advice seems engineered to coincide with a maze of situations that don't let you speak out about things.

Soon.

I'm currently working on getting stuff set up for commissions! It's been a while in the making and I honestly don't know why it took so long for me to sit down and do it. I've got my prices semi-set, but now I have to compile some art as examples so I can make a shiny commission info sheet. And I also have to set up the actual uh. payment.

College has turned me into a bit of a frugal little beast so I may be underselling myself. We will see how it goes. It'll at least give me better ways to procrastinate on my work than just scrolling the same three websites.

I hope that commissions motivate me more to learn and improve (and maybe actually start using references like I am supposed to), so I can't wait! Except I kind of have to while I get stuff set up. Should be done within a couple weeks. probably.

almost have to actually scream "trust the process" repeatedly at myself because i am once again trying to change up how i do lighting and it looks WRONG but its NOT DONE YET CHILL OUT

I call this drawing position Little Victorian Boy Dying of Tuberculosis

notice how there are only the lights on the ceiling. the ring of lights.

the night scenes are ALWAYS drawn this way. I don't know how they messed it up this bad. It's an incredible part of the atmosphere and worldbuilding and giving even what could be called an illusion of a night sky breaks that. It makes the world feel so much more generic. Also coming off of episode 9 of season 2 the animation is frighteningly stiff. I'm only in it for the soundtrack at this point. just read it on webtoon if you want to get into the series, please.

tower of god season 2 is the most glaringly terrible adaptation ive seen in a while for one reason. have you taken a look at the night scenes? do you see them in the background? the MOON and STARS???

i guess Rachel didn't need to climb anywhere past floor 20 after all because you can see the stars RIGHT THERE. in fact they're also on floor 3 in the scenes with Khun. It might seem like a minor detail in other stories but that's her whole motivation for the inciting incident of the series.

i don't particularly care about the other things people have been ragging on, but they're valid criticisms too. I'm just unreasonably irritated about this detail because it is central to the entire story. It would have taken LESS effort to not put the moon and stars in the background. Do better.

tower of god season 2 is the most glaringly terrible adaptation ive seen in a while for one reason. have you taken a look at the night scenes? do you see them in the background? the MOON and STARS???

i guess Rachel didn't need to climb anywhere past floor 20 after all because you can see the stars RIGHT THERE. in fact they're also on floor 3 in the scenes with Khun. It might seem like a minor detail in other stories but that's her whole motivation for the inciting incident of the series.

i don't particularly care about the other things people have been ragging on, but they're valid criticisms too. I'm just unreasonably irritated about this detail because it is central to the entire story. It would have taken LESS effort to not put the moon and stars in the background. Do better.

haha whoops its past 10 pm so im turning all sappy again

man it really would be nice to do one big long trauma dump ✨lore post✨ because i think its important that i am able to talk about my story and it definitely does have a lot to do with my art journey. however i also dont feel like doing a vent-post style post of any kind is a good idea. all i know is that i want to tell it somewhere. now that its finally over.

if i try to write it into a short story i just know im gonna both dance around it with depersonalized metaphorical garbage and change the truth to fit whatever "chapter format" i will inevitably latch onto.

i know i like to bond with people and see how they became who they are, but honestly tumblr isn't the place for that kind of sharing from me, at least not right now. we'll see in a few years, maybe.

I wrote nearly 4300 words today. In just one day I've gone from "yeah I still have a bit left before I can start doing the drawings for the book" to "oh hell yeah i can just do a little 3-page epilogue and then art it up" in one day. I'm crazy. the end of this project is in sight. i am so happy about this informa