READ!! THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE!!!! (This Is All I Have!!)

READ!! THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE!!!! (This is all I have!!)

My health is actually failing. I’m not being dramatic when I say I could die If I don’t get the medical help I need.

I suffer from chronic illnesses (a rare version of MTHFR HOMOZYGOUS, HIT, DEEP VEIN THROMBOSIS, AUTOIMMUNE DISEASE + more) and I am disabled and trans. I am jobless due to my illnesses and I am currently without any necessary resources to survive, be healthy, stable, or safe..

I have a rare blood clotting disease that causes me to be at the HIGHEST RISK possible to have a heart attack, aneurysm, or stroke. This disease has also resulted in multiple major surgeries, and countless other major procedures that have left me with debilitating chronic pain and other disabilities (limited use of my dominate arm, and even tasks like sweeping leave my arms in immense pain). I have two stints in my chest keeping my main vein open to my right arm so the blood can flow to it. And it still has trouble flowing back which causes swelling and excruciating pain in my arm. The main vein in my chest has been patched and dissected from a vein from my thigh because the veins in my right arm and chest are so damaged they weren’t able to save much. I had to get a rib removed because it was pinching my vein and causing clotting during which damaged a lot of muscles in my chest and shoulder causing even more chronic pain. They also wired my chest shut.

So I NEED to have access to good health care. I’m chronically ill with horrible and scary diseases. I’ve already almost died three times, and have been on my death bed twice.. I’m in and out of hospitals constantly, they don’t have the resources to help. I NEED HELP. I NEED TO LEAVE AND MOVE IN ORDER TO SURVIVE!!! Please fucking help me!! Boost my links, donate whatever! I’m grateful for anything !!

I DON’T WANT TO DIE I’ve been fighting for my life since I was 16. I’m taking my health seriously and using the little bit of energy that I have to get shit done.

I’m honestly only asking for the bare minimum of what I need to move, and for rent…

I’m trying to move to Colorado to escape (my abuser and stalker that I have a really traumatic history with. Violence and including assaults) I’m stuck in my hometown right now in northern MN. Where I’m at right now IS NOT safe for me and I NEED to leave..

My friend in Colorado has a place that I can move into ASAP, I just need first and last months rent. I have to move this month or she has to find a different roommate because of her own financial situation, so this is my ONE and only lucky chance!! I NEED to move to Colorado for access to better health care (to keep me alive), and for my own safety.. This is VITAL for my health (mentally and physically).

PLEASE DONATE OR BOOST MY LINKS!!!

NOW IS THE TIME TO SHOW YOUR SUPPORT AND BE AN ALLY !! ALSO PLEASE READ AND SHARE MY STORY/LINKS!! REPOST, & REBLOG!! Copy and paste my links & story & share on ALL your social media’s (twitter, Facebook, tumblr and Instagram!!!!) it helps me so much !

USING PayPal/Venmo IS A DIRECT WAY TO HELP ME!!

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

https://venmo.com/code?user_id=2272988271476736476

If you donate, message me so I can thank you personally !!! Thank you ♥️

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This is a spell for sweet dreams, reblog to have sweet dreams 💖

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crescitinsuoluminesidus

7 years ago

relationship moodboard: aries(m), scorpio(f). Shoutout to the badass @mechanicalloser !

“But my secret is hidden within me; no one will know my name! No, no! On your mouth I will say it when the light shines! And my kiss will dissolve the silence that makes you mine!” -Nessun dorma, Giacomo Puccini, Turandot

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Emoji spell for new beginnings, love, and deconstruction of the bad for this upcoming new moon!!!!

Likes charge, reblogs cast

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crescitinsuoluminesidus

6 years ago

⚠⚠YOU HAVE BEEN CURSED.⚠⚠

You have been cursed by my self love curse, you have to respect and love yourself now! Reblog to curse your followers! 🙏🙏

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crescitinsuoluminesidus

7 years ago

I lost an uncle due to suicide because of his bipolar disorder, my family couldn’t accept his mental health issues and now I’m living the same.

Always enjoy, appreciate and give back everything you get from family love.

Here’s a little bit of a story I want to tell to raise mental health awareness. I grew up in Poland. I was always told my uncle died from a heart attack. I never got to meet him. When I was older, I learned that he committed suicide 5 years before I was born. He suffered with schizophrenia. The mental health system in Poland in the 70-80s was more than just incompetent. They did nothing for my uncle other than make him the laughing stock of the small village we lived in. My family stopped talking to him. He was considered the disgrace of the family that only caused problems. He didn’t get the help he needed. And he was driven to suicide. This summer was the first time I visited his grave. Shortly after I dug up this picture. All I could do is cry. The boy on the left is my uncle, the one in the middle is my father, and on the far right my grandmother. My uncle was a good man. And he’s still rarely spoke of in parts of my family. Even though I never met him, I feel like that chance was taken from me. Please, make sure your family members that suffer from mental illness get the help they need. Spread awareness that ignoring a problem can bring. Please, help me honor my uncle. I wish he was still around to smile like he did in this picture.

Reblog this if you want a short/long anonymous message saying what they think of you.

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crescitinsuoluminesidus

7 years ago

US Helplines:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868

FREE 24/7 suicide hotlines:

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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crescitinsuoluminesidus

7 years ago

Always with you all.

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Dark Times All Around But There Are Still People Out There Who Love You

Dark times all around but there are still people out there who love you

Do not hurt yourself, do not hurt others, get help, talk to someone, anyone. Humanity has survived before and we can do it now if we all just support each other. My country and my people let me down and endangered my life but there’s nothing I or anyone else can do about that so let’s try to spread the love that is so clearly lacking.

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crescitinsuoluminesidus

6 years ago

K, so apparently I am "The glorious warrior who comes from the earth."

New Therapy Tool

1. Search your First, Middle, and Last name etymologies in Google.

2. Put the translations into a phrase that makes some kind of sense.

3. Now, whenever you feel small or are wrestling with self-doubt, try calling yourself whatever epic translation your name means.

Post yours below! Let me see those new titles!!!

(Name meanings should be common enough that they don’t give away your legal name, but if they’re really obvious, please use common sense before sharing)

PS. My new title to call myself is OATH OF GOD’S SEA WARRIOR

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